\"Youwon’twantyourhorseto—night,becauseyoucan’tusehim,\"hesaid。\"IshallputMissVanderpoel’ssaddleuponhimandridewithherbacktoStornham。Youthinkyouarecuttopieces,butyouarenot,andyou’llgetoverit。I’llaskyoutomark,however,thatifyouopenyourfoulmouthtoinsinuateliesconcerningeitherLadyAnstruthersorhersisterIwilldothisthingagaininpublicsomeday——onthestepsofyourclub——anddoitmorethoroughly。\"
Hewalkedintothecottagesoonafterwardslooking,toBettyVanderpoel’seyes,paleandexceptionallybig,andalsomoreamanthanitisoftengiveneventothemostvirilemalecreaturetolook——andhewalkedtothesideofherrestingplaceandstoodtherelookingdown。
\"IthoughtIheardadoghowl,\"shesaid。
\"Youdidhearadoghowl,\"heanswered。Hesaidnootherword,andsheaskednofurtherquestion。Sheknewwhathehaddone,andhewaswellawarethatsheknewit。
Therewasalong,strangelytensesilence。Thelightofthemoonwasgrowing。Shemadeatfirstnoefforttorise,butlaystillandlookedupathimfromundersplendidliftedlashes,whilehisowngazefellintothedepthofherslikeaplummetintoadeeppool。Thiscontinuedforalmostafullminute,whenheturnedquicklyawayandwalkedtothehearth,indrawingaheavybreath。
Hecouldnotendurethatwhichbesethim;itwasunbearable,becausehereyeshadmaddeninglyseemedtoaskhimsomewistfulquestion。Whydidsheletherlovelinesssocalltohim。Shewasnotatriflerwhocouldplaywithmeanings。
Perhapsshedidnotknowwhatherpowerwas。Sometimeshecouldbelievethatbeautifulwomendidnot。
Inafewmoments,almostbeforehecouldreachher,shewasrising,andwhenshegotupshesupportedherselfagainsttheopendoor,standinginthemoonlight。Ifhewaspale,shewaspalealso,andherlargeeyeswouldnotmovefromhisface,sodrawinghimthathecouldnotkeepawayfromher。
\"Listen,\"hebrokeoutsuddenly。\"Penzancetoldme——
warnedme——thatsometimeamomentwouldcomewhichwouldbestrongerthanallelseinaman——thanallelseintheworld。Ithascomenow。Letmetakeyouhome。\"
\"Thanwhatelse?\"shesaidslowly,andbecameevenpalerthanbefore。
Hestrovetoreleasehimselffromthepossessionofthemoment,andinhisstruggleansweredwithasortofsavagery。
\"Thanscruple——thanpower——eventhanaman’sdeterminationanddecentpride。\"
\"Areyouproud?\"shehalfwhisperedquitebrokenly。\"I
amnot——sinceIwaitedfortheringingofthechurchbell——
sinceIheardittoll。Afterthattheworldwasempty——anditwasasemptyofdecentprideasofeverythingelse。Therewasnothingleft。Iwasthehumblestbrokenthingonearth。\"
\"You!\"hegasped。\"DoyouknowIthinkIshallgomaddirectlyperhapsitishappeningnow。YOUwerehumbleandbroken——yourworldwasempty!Because————?\"
\"Lookatme,LordMountDunstan,\"andthesweetestvoiceintheworldwasatender,wildlittlecrytohim。\"OhLOOKatme!\"
Hecaughtherout—thrownhandsandlookeddownintothebeautifulpassionatesoulofher。Themomenthadcome,andthetidalwaverisingtoitsheightsweptallthecommonearthawaywhen,withasavagesob,hecaughtandheldhercloseandhardagainstthatwhichthuddedracinginhisbreast。
Andtheystoodandswayedtogether,foldedineachother’sarms,whilethewindfromthemarsheslifteditsvoicelikeanexultinghumanthingasitsweptaboutthem。
CHAPTERXLIX
ATSTORNHAMANDATBROADMORLANDS
Theexultingwindhadsweptthecloudsaway,andthemoonrodeinadarkblueseaofsky,makingthenightlightpurelyclear,whentheydrewalittleapart,thattheymightbetterseethewonderfulnessineachother’sfaces。Itwassomysteriouslygreatathingthattheyfeltneartoawe。
\"Ifoughttoolong。Iworeoutmybody’sendurance,andnowIamquakinglikeaboy。RedGodwyndidnotbeginhiswooinglikethis。Forgiveme,\"MountDunstansaidatlast。
\"Doyouknow,\"withlovelytremblinglipsandvoice,\"thatforlong——long——youhavebeenunkindtome?\"
Itwasmerelyhumanthatheshouldswiftlyenfoldheragain,andanswerwithhislipsagainsthercheek。
\"Unkind!Unkind!Oh,theheavenlywoman’ssweetnessofyourtellingmeso——theheavenlysweetnessofit!\"heexclaimedpassionatelyandlow。\"AndIwasoneofthosewhoare`bytheroadsideeverywhere,’anunkempt,ragingbeggar,whomightnotdecentlyaskyouforacrust。\"
\"Itwasallwrong——wrong!\"shewhisperedbacktohim,andhepouredforththetenderest,fiercewordsofconfessionandprayer,andshelistened,drinkingthemin,withnowandthenasoftsobpressedagainsttheroughnessoftheenrapturingtweed。Foraspacetheyhadbothforgottenherhurt,becausethereareotherthingsthanterrorwhichhypnotisepain。MountDunstanwastobepraisedforrememberingitfirst。HemusttakeherbacktoStornhamandhersisterwithoutfurtherdelay。
\"IwillputyoursaddleonAnstruthers’horse,ormine,andliftyoutoyourseat。Thereisafarmhouseabouttwomilesaway,whereIwilltakeyoufirstforfoodandwarmth。Perhapsitwouldbewellforyoutostaytheretorestforanhourorso,andIwillsendamessagetoLadyAnstruthers。\"
\"Iwillgototheplace,andeatanddrinkwhatyouadvise,\"sheanswered。\"ButIbegyoutotakemebacktoRosaliewithoutdelay。IfeelthatImustseeher。\"
\"IfeelthatImustseeher,too,\"hesaid。\"Butforher——Godblessher!\"headded,afterhissuddenpause。
Bettyknewthattheexclamationmeantstrongfeeling,andthatsomehowinthepasthoursRosaliehadawakenedit。Butitwasonlywhen,aftertheirrefreshmentatthefarm,theyhadtakenhorseagainandwereridinghomewardtogether,thatsheheardfromhimwhathadpassedbetweenthem。
\"Allthathasledtothismayseemthemerestchance,\"
hesaid。\"Butsurelyastrangethinghascomeabout。I
knowthatwithoutunderstandingit。\"Heleanedoverandtouchedherhand。\"You,whoareLife——withoutunderstandingIrideherebesideyou,believingthatyoubroughtmeback。\"
\"Itried——Itried!Withallmystrength,Itried。\"
\"AfterIhadseenyoursisterto—day,Iguessed——Iknew。
Butnotatfirst。Iwasnotillofthefever,asexcitedrumourhadit;butIwasill,andthedoctorsandthevicarwerealarmed。Ihadfoughttoolong,andIwasgivingup,asI
haveseenthepoorfellowsintheballroomgiveup。Iftheywerenotdraggedbacktheyslippedoutofone’shands。Ifthefeverhaddeveloped,allwouldhavebeenoverquickly。
Iknewthedoctorsfearedthat,andIamashamedtosayI
wasgladofit。But,yesterday,inthemorning,whenIwaslettingmyselfgowithamorbidpleasureintheluxuriousreliefofit——somethingreachedme——someslowrisingcalltoeffortandlife。\"
Sheturnedtowardshiminhersaddle,listening,herlipsparted。
\"Ididnotevenaskmyselfwhatwashappening,butI
begantobeconsciousofbeingdrawnback,andtolongintenselytoseeyouagain。Iwasgraduallyfilledwitharestlessfeelingthatyouwerenearme,andthat,thoughIcouldnotphysicallyhearyourvoice,youweresurelyCALLINGtome。Itwasthethingwhichcouldnotbe——butitwas——andbecauseofitIcouldnotletmyselfdrift。\"
\"Ididcallyou!IwasonmykneesinthechurchaskingtobeforgivenifIprayedmadprayers——butprayingthesamethingoverandover。Thevillagerswerekneelingthere,too。
Theycrowdedin,leavingeverythingelse。Youaretheirhero,andtheywereindeepearnest。\"
Hislookwasgravelypondering。Hislifehadnotmadeamysticofhim——itwasPenzancewhowasthemystic——buthefelthimselfperplexedbymysteriouslysuggestivethought。
\"Iwasbroughtback——Iwasbroughtback,\"hesaid。\"IntheafternoonIfellasleepandsleptprofoundlyuntilthemorning。WhenIawoke,IrealisedthatIwasaremademan。
ThedoctorswerealmostawedwhenIfirstspoketothem。
OldDr。Fenwickdiedlater,and,afterIhadheardaboutit,thechurchbellwastolled。ItwasheardatWeaver’sfarm—
house,and,aseverybodyhadbeenexcitedlywaitingforthesound,itconveyedbutoneideatothem——andtheboywassentracingacrossthefieldstoStornhamvillage。Dearest!
Dearest!\"heexclaimed。
Shehadbowedherheadandburstintopassionatesobbing。
Becauseshewasnotofthewomenwhowept,hermoment’spassionwasstrongandbitter。
\"Itneednothavebeen!\"sheshuddered。\"Onecannotbearit——becauseitneednothavebeen!\"
\"Stopyourhorseamoment,\"hesaid,reininginhisown,while,withburningeyesandswellingthroat,heheldandsteadiedher。Buthedidnotknowthatneitherhersisternorherfatherhadeverseenherinsuchmood,andthatshehadneversoseenherself。
\"Youshallnotrememberit,\"hesaidtoher。
\"Iwillnot,\"sheanswered,recoveringherself。\"Butforonemomentalltheawfulhoursrushedback。Tellmetherest。\"
\"WedidnotknowthattheblunderhadbeenmadeuntilamessengerfromDolerodeovertoinquireandbringmessagesofcondolence。ThenweunderstoodwhathadoccurredandIownasortoffrenzyseizedme。IknewImustseeyou,and,thoughthedoctorswerehorriblynervous,theydarenotholdmeback。ThedaybeforeitwouldnothavebeenbelievedthatIcouldleavemyroom。Youwerecryingouttome,andthoughIdidnotknow,Iwasanswering,bodyandsoul。PenzanceknewImusthavemywaywhenIspoketohim——madasitseemed。WhenIrodethroughStornhamvillage,morethanonewomanscreamedatsightofme。Ishallnotbeabletoblotoutofmymindyoursister’sface。Shewilltellyouwhatwesaidtoeachother。IrodeawayfromtheCourtquitehalfmad————\"hisvoicebecameverygentle,\"becauseofsomethingshehadtoldmeinthefirstwildmoments。\"
LadyAnstruthershadspentthenightmovingrestlesslyfromoneroomtoanother,andhadnotbeentobedwhentheyrodesidebysideuptheavenueintheearlymorningsunlight。Anunderkeeper,crossingtheparkafewhundredyardsabovethem,afteroneglance,dashedacrosstheswardtothecourtyardandtheservants’hall。Thenewsflashedelectricallythroughthehouse,andRosalie,likeasmallghost,cameoutuponthestepsastheyreinedin。Thoughherlipsmoved,shecouldnotspeakaloud,asshewatchedMountDunstanlifthersisterfromherhorse。
\"ChildeHaroldstumbledandIhurtmyfoot,\"saidBetty,tryingtobecalm。
\"Iknewhewouldfindyou!\"Rosalieansweredquitefaintly。\"Iknewyouwould!\"turningtoMountDunstan,adoringhimwithallthemeaningofhersmallpaledface。
Shewouldhavebeenafraidofhermemoryofwhatshehadsaidinthestrangescenewhichhadtakenplacebeforethemafewhoursago,butalmostbeforeeitherofthetwospokesheknewthatagreatgulfhadbeencrossedinsomeoneinevitable,thoughunforeseen,leap。Howithadbeentaken,whenorwhere,didnotintheleastmatter,whensheclungtoBettyandBettyclungtoher。
Afterafewmomentsofmovedandreverentwaiting,theadmirableJenningssteppedforwardandaddressedherinloweredvoice。
\"There’sbeenlittlesleepinthevillagethisnight,mylady,\"
hemurmuredearnestly。\"Ipromisedtheyshouldhaveasign,withyourpermission。Iftheflagwasrunup——they’realllookingout,andthey’dknow。\"
\"Runitup,Jennings,\"LadyAnstruthersanswered,\"atonce。\"
Whenitranupthestaffonthetowerandflutteredoutingayansweringtothemorningbreeze,childreninthevillagebegantorunaboutshouting,menandwomenappearedatcottagedoors,andmorethanonecapwasthrownupintheair。ButoldDobyandMrs。Welden,whohadbeenwaitingforhours,standingbyMrs。Welden’sgate,caughteachother’sdry,tremblingoldhandsandbegantocry。
TheBroadmorlandsdivorcescandal,havingmadeconversationduringaseasonquitefortyyearsbeforeMissVanderpoelappearedatStornhamCourt,hadbeenlaiduponalowershelfandburiedbeneathotherstorieslongenoughtobeforgotten。Onlyoneindividualhadnotforgottenit,andhewastheDukeofBroadmorlandshimself,inwhoseminditremainedhideouslyclear。Hehadbeenayoungman,honestlyandmuchinlovewhenitfirstrevealeditselftohim,andforafewmonthshehadeventhoughtitmightendbybeinghisdeath,notwithstandingthathewasstrongandinfirst—ratephysicalcondition。Hehadbeenafine,heartyyoungmanofcleanandratherdignifiedlife,thoughhewasnotunderstoodtobebrilliantofmind。Privatelyhehadidealsconnectedwithhisrankandnamewhichhewasnotfluentenoughclearlytoexpress。Afterhehadrealisedthatheshouldnotdieofthepublichumiliationanddisgrace,whichseemedtopointhimoutashavingbeenthekindofgulliblefoolitisscarcelypossibletoavoidlaughingat——or,soitseemedtohiminhisheart—searedfrenzy——hethoughtitnotimprobablethatheshouldgomad。HewasharriedsobymemoriesoflovelylittlesoftwaysofEdith’s(hiswife’snamewasEdith),oftheprettysoundofherlaugh,andofherinnocent,girlishhabitofkneelingdownbyherbedsideeverynightandmorningtosayherprayers。Thishadsotouchedhimthathehadsometimeskneltdowntosayhis,too,sayingtoher,withslightawkwardboyishness,thatafellowwhohadasortofangelforhiswifeoughttodohisbesttobelieveinthethingsshebelievedin。
\"Andallthetime————!\"adevilwholaughedusedtosniggerinhisearoverandoveragain,untilitwasalmostlikethetickingofaclockduringtheworstmonths,whenitdidnotseemprobablethatamancouldfeelhisbrainwhirlinglikeaCatherinewheelnightandday,andstillmanagetoholdonandnotreachthepointofhowlingandshriekinganddashinghisskullagainstwailsandfurniture。
Butthatpassedintime,andhetoldhimselfthathepassedwithit。SincethenhehadlivedchieflyatBroadmorlandsCastle,andwasspokenofasamanwhohadbecomereligious,whichwasnottrue,but,havingreachedthedecisionthatreligionwasgoodformostpeople,hepaidagooddealofattentiontohischurchandschools,andwasrigorousinthematterofcurates。
Hehadpassedseventynow,andwassomewhatdespoticandhaughty,becauseamanwhoisaDukeanddoesnotgooutintotheworldtorubagainstmenofhisownclassandothers,butlivesaltogetheronagreatandsplendidestate,salutedbyeverycreaturehemeets,anduniversallyobeyedandcountedbeforeallelse,isnotunlikelytoforgetthatheisaquiteordinaryhumanbeing,andnotasortofmonarch。
HehaddonehisbesttoforgetEdith,whohadsoondiedofbeingashadycurate’swifeinAustralia,buthehadnotbeenabletoencompassit。Heused,occasionally,todreamshewaskneelingbythebedinherchildishnightgownsayingherprayersaloud,andwouldwakencrying——ashehadcriedinthoseawfulyoungdays。Againstsocialimmoralityorvillagelight—mindednesshewasrelentlesslysavage。Heallowedfornopalliatingorexoneratingfacts。Hebegantoseeredwhenheheardoforsawlightnessinamarriedwoman,andtheoutsideworldfrequentlysaidthatthischaracteristicborderedonmonomania。
NigelAnstruthers,havingmethimonceortwice,hadatfirstbeenmuchamusedbyhim,andhadeven,bygivinghimanadroitlycarefullead,managedtoguidehimintoanexpressionofopinion。TheDuke,whohadheardmenofhisclassdiscussed,didnotintheleastlikehim,notwithstandinghissympatheticsuavityofmannerandhisairofbeingintelligentlyimpressedbywhatheheard。Notlongafterwards,however,ittranspiredthattheagedrectorofBroadmorlandshavingdied,thelivinghadbeengiventoFfolliott,and,hearingit,SirNigelwasnotslowtoconjecturethatquitedecentlyutilisabletoolswouldliereadytohishandifcircumstancespressed;thispointofview,itwillbeseen,beingnotillogical。Amanwhohadnotbeenasortofhermitwouldhaveheardenoughofhimtobeputonhisguard,andonewhowasamanoftheworld,lookingnormallyonexistence,wouldhavereasonedcoolly,anddeclinedtoconcernhimselfaboutwhatwasnothisaffair。ButaparallelmightbedrawnbetweenBroadmorlandsandsomeoldlionwoundedsorelyinhisyouthandlefttodraghisunhealedtormentthroughtheyearsofage。Ononesubjecthehadnopointofviewbuthisown,andcouldberousedtofuryalmostsenselessbywhollyinadequatelysupportedfacts。Hepresentedexactlythematerialrequired——andthatinmass。
AboutthetimetheflagwasrunuponthetoweratStornhamCourtacarter,drivingwhistlingontheroadnearthedesertedcottage,washailedbyamanwhowaswalkingslowlyafewyardsaheadofhim。Thecarterthoughtthathewasatramp,ashisclotheswereplainlyinbadcase,whichseeing,hisanswerwasanunceremoniousgrunt,anditcertainlydidnotoccurtohimtotouchhisforehead。Aminutelater,however,he\"gotastart,\"asherelatedafterwards。Thetrampwasagentlemanwhoseridingcostumewastornandmuddied,andwholooked\"gashly,\"thoughhespokewiththemannerandauthoritywhichBinns,thecarter,recognisedasthatofoneofthe\"gentry\"addressingaday—labourer。
\"HowfarisitfromheretoMedham?\"heinquired。
\"Medhambeaboutfourmile,sir,\"wastheanswer。\"I
becarryin’these’taterstheretomarket。\"
\"Iwanttogetthere。Ihavemetwithanaccident。Myhorsetookfrightatapheasantstartinguprockettingunderhisnose。Hethrewmeintoahedgeandbolted。I’mbadlyenoughbruisedtowanttoreachatownandseeadoctor。Canyougivemealift?\"
\"ThatIwill,sir,readyenough,\"makingroomontheseatbesidehim。\"Youbebruisedbad,sir,\"hesaidsympathetically,ashispassengerclimbedtohisplace,withatwistedfaceandutteringblasphemiesunderhisbreath。
\"Damnedbadly,\"heanswered。\"Nobonesbroken,however。\"
\"Thatcutonyourcheekandneck’llneedplasterin’,sir。\"
\"That’sascratch。Thornbush,\"curtly。
Sympathywasplainlynotwelcome。InfactBinnswassoonoftheopinionthatherewasanuglycustomer,gentlemanornogentleman。Ajoltingcartwas,however,notthebestplaceforamanwhoseemedsorefromheadtofoot,anddoneforoutandout。Hesatandgroundhisteeth,asheclungtotheroughseatintheattempttosteadyhimself。Hebecamemoreandmore\"gashly,\"andacertainawfullightinhiseyesalarmedthecarterbyleapingupateveryjolt。BinnswasgladwhenhelefthimatMedhamArms,andfelthehadearnedthehalf—sovereignhandedtohim。
FourdaysAnstrutherslayinbedinaroomattheInn。Noonesawhimbutthemanwhobroughthimfood。Hedidnotsendforadoctor,becausehedidnotwishtoseeone。Hesentforsuchremediesaswereneededbyamanwhohadbeenbruisedbyafallfromhishorse。Hemadenoremarkwhichcouldbeconsideredexplanatory,afterhehadsaidirritablythatamanwasafooltogoloiteringalongonanervousbrutewhoneededwatching。Whatsoeverhappenedwashisowndamnedfault。
Throughhoursofdayandnighthelaystaringatthewhite—
washedbeamsorthebluerosesonthewallpaper。Theywerelonghours,andfilledwiththingsnotpleasantenoughtodwellonindetail。Physicalmiserywhichmadeamanwritheattimeswasnottheworstpartofthem。Therewereathousandthingslessendurable。Morethanoncehefoamedatthemouth,andrecognisedthathegibberedlikeamadman。
Therewasbutonememorywhichsavedhimfromfeelingthatthiswastheveryendofthings。ThatwasthememoryofBroadmorlands。Whileamanhadaweaponleft,eventhoughitcouldnotsavehim,hemightpayupwithit——getalmosteven。ThewholeVanderpoellotcouldbeplungedneckdeepinamorasswhichwouldleavemudenoughstickingtothem,eveniftheirmoneyhelpedthemtopreventitsentirelyclosingovertheirheads。Hecouldattendtothat,and,afterhehadsetitwellgoing,hecouldgetout。TherewereIndia,SouthAfrica,Australia——adozenplacesthatwoulddo。AndthenhewouldrememberBettyVanderpoel,andcursehorriblyunderthebedclothes。ItwasthememoryofBettywhichoutdidallothersinitspowertotorment。
OnthemorningofthefifthdaytheDukeofBroadmorlandsreceivedanote,whichhereadwithsomewhatannoyedcuriosity。AcertainSirNigelAnstruthers,whomitappearedheoughttobeabletorecall,wasintheneighbourhood,andwishedtoseehimonaparochialmatterofinterest。\"Parochialmatter\"wasvague,andsowastheDuke’srecollectionofthemanwhoaddressedhim。Ifhismemoryservedhimrightly,hehadmethiminacountryhouseinSomersetshire,andhadheardthathewastheacquaintanceofthedisreputableeldestson。Whatcouldapersonofthatsorthavetosayofparochialmatters?TheDukeconsidered,andthen,inobediencetoarigorousconscience,decidedthatoneought,perhaps,togivehimhalfanhour。
Therewasthatintheintruder’saspect,whenhearrivedintheafternoon,whichproducedsomewhattheeffectofshock。Inthefirstplace,amaninhisunconcealablephysicalconditionhadnorighttobeoutofhisbed。Thoughheplainlyrefusedtoadmitthefact,hismannerofbearinghimselferect,andevenwithacertaintouchofcoolswagger,was,itwasevident,achievedonlybydeterminedeffort。Helookedlikeamanwhohadnotyetrecoveredfromsomeevilfever。SincethemeetinginSomersetshirehehadagedmorethantheyearwarranted。Despitehisobstinatefightwithhimselfitwasobviousthathewashorriblyshaky。Adisagreeablescratchorcut,runningfromcheektoneck,didnotimprovehispersonalappearance。
Hepleasedhishostnomorethanhehadpleasedhimattheirfirstencounter;he,infact,repelledhimstrongly,bysuggestingadegreeofabnormalityofmoodwhichwassmoothedoverbyanattemptatentirenormalityofmanner。
TheDukedidnotpresentanapproachablefrontas,afterAnstruthershadtakenachair,hesatandexaminedhimwithbrightblueoldeyessetdeeponeithersideofadominantnoseandframedoverbywhiteeyebrows。No,NigelAnstrutherssummedhimup,itwouldnotbeeasytoopenthematterwiththeoldfool。Heheldhimselfmagnificentlyaloof,withthatlackofmodernityinhissenseofplacewhich,evenatthislateday,sometimesexpresseditselfhereandthereinthemannerofthefeudalsurvival。
\"Iamafraidyouhavebeenill,\"withrigidcivility。
\"Amanfeelsratheranoutsiderinconfessinghehaslethishorsethrowhimintoahedge。Itwasmyownfaultentirely。IallowedmyselftoforgetthatIwasridingadangerouslynervousbrute。Iwasthinkingofapainfulandabsorbingsubject。Iwasbadlybruisedandscratched,butthatwasall。\"
\"Whatdidyourdoctorsay?\"