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类别:其他 作者:Frances Hodgson Burnett字数:6837更新时间:19/01/07 14:57:26
\"ThatIwasinlucknottohavebrokenmyneck。\" \"Youhadbetterhaveaglassofwine,\"touchingabell。 \"Youdonotlookequaltoanyexertion。\" Ingatheringhimselftogether,SirNigelfelthewasforcedtouseenormouseffort。IthadcosthimagruesomephysicalstruggletoendurethedriveovertoBroadmorlands,thoughitwasonlyafewmilesfromMedham。Therehadbeensomethingunnaturalintheexertionnecessarytosituprightandkeephisminddecentlyclear。Thatwastheworstofit。Thefeverandraginghoursofthepastdaysandnightshadsoshakenhimthathehadbecomeexhausted,andhisbrainwasnotalert。Hewasnotthinkingrapidly,andseveraltimeshehadlostsightofapointitwasimportanttoremember。Hegrewhotandcoldandknewhishandsandvoiceshook,asheanswered。But,perhaps——hefeltdesperately——signsofemotionwerenotbad。 \"Iamnotquiteequaltoexertion,\"hebeganslowly。\"Butamancannotlieonhisbedwhilesomethingsareundone—— aMANcannot。\" AstheoldDukesatupright,theblueeyesunderhisbentbrowswerestartled,aswellascurious。Wasthemangoingoutofhismindaboutsomething?Helookedratherlikeit,withthedampnessstartingoutonhishaggardface,andtheuglylooksuddenlystampedthere。ThefactwasthattheinsensatefurywhichhadpossessedandtornAnstruthersashehadwrithedinhisinnbedroomhadsprunguponhimagaininfullforce,andhisweaknesscouldnotcontrolit,thoughitwouldhavebeenwisertoholditincheck。Healsofeltfrightfullyill,whichfilledhimwithdespair,and,throughthisfact,helostsightoftheeffectheproduced,ashestoodup,shakingallover。 \"IcometoyoubecauseyouaretheonemanwhocanmosteasilyunderstandthethingIhavebeenconcealingforagoodmanyyears。\" TheDukewasirritated。Confoundtheobjectionableidiot,whatdidhemeanbytakingthatintimatetonewithamanwhowasnotpreparedtoconcernhimselfinhisaffairs? \"Excuseme,\"hesaid,holdingupanauthoritativehand,\"areyougoingtomakeaconfession?Idon’tlikesuchthings。Iprefertobeexcused。Personalconfidencesarenotparochialmatters。\" \"Thisoneis。\"AndSirNigelwassickeninglyconsciousthathewasputtingthestatementrashly,whileatthesametimeallbetterwordsescapedhim。\"Itisasmuchaparochialmatter,\"losingallholdonhiswitsandstammering,\"aswas——aswas——theaffairof——yourwife。\" ItwastheDukewhostoodupnow,scarletwithanger。 Hesprangfromhischairasifhehadbeenayoungmaninwhomsomeinsulthadstruckblazingfire。 \"You——youdare!\"heshouted。\"Youinsolentblackguard! Youforceyourwayinhereanddare——dare————!\" Andheclenchedhisfist,wildlyshakingit。 NigelAnstruthers,staggeringonhisuncertainfeet,wouldhaveshoutedalso,butcouldnot,thoughhetried,andheheardhisownvoicecomeforthbrokenly。 \"Yes,Idare!I——your——myown——my————!\" Swayingandtottering,heswungroundtothechairhehadleft,andfellintoit,evenwhiletheoldDuke,whostoodragingbeforehim,startedbackinoutragedamazement。Whatwasthefellowdoing?Washemakingfacesathim?Thedrawnmalignantmouthandmusclessuggestedit。Washealunatic,indeed?Butthesenseofdisgustedoutragechangedallatoncetohorror,as,withacountenancestillmorehideouslylividandtwisted,hisvisitorslidhelplesslyfromhisseatandlayahuddlingheapofclothesonthefloor。 CHAPTERL THEPRIMEVALTHING WhenMr。VanderpoellandedinEnglandhiswifewaswithhim。Thisquiet—facedwoman,whowasknowntobeonherwaytojoinherdaughterinEngland,wasmuchdiscussed,envied,andglancedat,whenshepromenadedthedeckwithherhusband,orsatinherchairsoftlywrappedinwonderfulfurs。Gradually,duringthepastmonths,shehadbeentoldcertainmodifiedtruthsconnectedwithherelderdaughter’smarriage。Theyhadbeenpainfultruths,buthadbeensosoftenedandexpurgatedoftheirworstfeaturesthatithadbeenpossibletobearthem,whenonerealisedthattheydidnot,atleast,meanthatRosyhadforgottenorceasedtolovehermotherandfather,orwishtovisitherhome。ThesteadyclearnessofforesightandreadinessofresourcewhichwereoftenspokenofasbeingspeciallycharacteristicofReubenS。 Vanderpoel,wereallrequired,andemployedwithgreattenderness,inthemanagementofthissituation。Aslittleasitwaspossiblethathiswifeshouldknow,wastheutmostshemusthearandbehurtby。Unlessensuingeventscompelledfurtherrevelations,therestofitshouldbekeptfromher。Asfurtherprotection,herhusbandhadfranklyaskedhertocontentherselfwithadegreeoflimitedinformation。 \"Ihavemeantallourlives,Annie,tokeepfromyoutheunpleasantthingsawomanneednotbetroubledwith,\"hehadsaid。\"IpromisedmyselfIwouldwhenyouwereagirl。 Iknewyouwouldfacethings,ifIneededyourhelp,butyouwereagentlelittlesoul,likeRosy,andIneverintendedthatyoushouldbearwhatwasuseless。Anstrutherswasablackguard,andgirlsofallnationshavemarriedblackguardsbefore。 WhenyouhaveRosysafeathome,andknownothingcanhurtheragain,youbothmayfeelyouwouldliketotalkitover。 Tillthenwewon’tgointodetail。Youtrustme,Iknow,whenItellyouthatyoushallholdRosyinyourarmsverysoon。 Wemayhavesomethingofafight,buttherecanonlybeoneendtoitinacountryasdecentasEngland。Anstruthersisn’texactlywhatIshouldcallanEnglishman。Menratherlikehimaretobefoundintwoorthreeplaces。\"Hisgood—looking,shrewd,elderlyfacelightedwithafinesmile。\"MyhandsomeBettyhassavedusagooddealbycarryingoutherfifteen—year—oldplanofgoingtofindhersister,\"heended。 BeforetheylandedtheyhaddecidedthatMrs。VanderpoelshouldbecomfortablyestablishedinahotelinLondon,andthatafterthiswasarranged,herhusbandshouldgotoStornhamCourtalone。IfSirNigelcouldbeinducedtolistentologic,Rosalie,herchild,andBettyshouldcomeatoncetotown。 \"And,ifhewon’tlistentologic,\"addedMr。Vanderpoel,withadrycomposure,\"theyshallcomejustthesame,mydear。\"Andhiswifeputherarmsroundhisneckandkissedhimbecausesheknewwhathesaidwasquitetrue,andsheadmiredhim——asshehadalwaysdone——greatly。 Butwhenthepilotcameonboardandtherebegantostirintheshiptheagreeableandexcitingbustleofthedeliveryoflettersandwelcomingtelegrams,amongMr。Vanderpoel’smanyyellowenvelopesheopenedonethecontentsofwhichcausedhimtostandstillforsomemoments——sostill,indeed,thatsomeofthebystandersbegantotoucheachother’selbowsandwhisper。Hecertainlyreadthemessagetwoorthreetimesbeforehefoldeditup,returnedittoitsreceptacle,andwalkedgravelytohiswife’ssitting—room。 \"Reuben!\"sheexclaimed,afterherfirstlookathim,\"haveyoubadnews?Oh,Ihopenot!\" Hecameandsatdownquietlybesideher,takingherhand。 \"Don’tbefrightened,Annie,mydear,\"hesaid。\"IhavejustbeenremindedofaverseintheBible——aboutvengeancenotbelongingtomerehumanbeings。NigelAnstruthershashadastrokeofparalysis,anditisnothisfirst。Apparently,evenifheliesonhisbackforsomemonthsthinkingofharm,hewon’tbeabletodoit。Heisfinished。\" Whenhewascarriedbytheexpresstrainthroughthecountry,hesawallthatBettyhadseen,thoughthesummerhadpassed,andtherewereneithergreentreesnorhedges。 Heknewallthatthelonglettershadmeantofstirredemotionandaffection,andhewasstronglymoved,thoughhismindwasfullofmanythings。Therewerethefarmhouses,thesquare—toweredchurches,thered—pointedhopoasts,andthevillagechildren。Howdistinctlyshehadmadehimseethem! HisBetty——hissplendidBetty!Hisheartbeatatthethoughtofseeingherhigh,youngblackhead,andholdinghersafeinhisarmsagain。Safe!Heresentedhavingusedtheword,becausetherewasashockinseemingtoadmitthepossibilitythatanythingintheuniversecoulddowrongtoher。Yetonemanhadbeenvillainenoughtomeanherharm,andtothreatenherwithit。Heslightlyshudderedashethoughtofhowthemanwasfinished——donefor。 Thetrainbegantopuffmoreloudly,asitslackeneditspace。 Itwasdrawingneartoarusticlittlestation,and,asitpassedin,hesawacarriagestandingoutside,waitingontheroad,andafootmaninalongcoat,glancingintoeachwindowasthetrainwentby。Twoorthreecountrypeoplewerewatchingitintently。MissVanderpoel’sfatherwascomingupfromLondononit。Thestationmasterrushedtoopenthecarriagedoor,andthefootmanhastenedforward,butatalllovelythingingreywasoppositethestepasMr。Vanderpoeldescendedittotheplatform。Shedidnotrecognisethepresenceofanyotherhumanbeingthanhimself。Forthemomentsheseemedtoforgeteventhebroad—shoulderedmanwhohadplainlycomewithher。AsReubenS。Vanderpoelfoldedherinhisarms,shefoldedhimandkissedhimashewasnotsureshehadeverkissedhimbefore。 \"MysplendidBetty!Myownfinegirl!\"hesaid。 Andwhenshecriedout\"Father!Father!\"shebentandkissedthebreastofhiscoat。 Heknewwhothebigyoungmanwasbeforesheturnedtopresenthim。 \"ThisisLordMountDunstan,father,\"shesaid。\"SinceNigelwasbroughthome,hehasbeenverygoodtous。\" ReubenS。Vanderpoellookedwellintotheman’seyes,asheshookhandswithhimwarmly,andthiswaswhathesaidtohimself: \"Yes,she’ssafe。Thisisquitesafe。Itistobetrustedwiththewholething。\" Notmanydaysafterherhusband’sarrivalatStornhamCourt,Mrs。VanderpoeltravelleddownfromLondon,and,duringherjourney,scarcelysawthewintryhedgesandbaretrees,because,asshesatinhercushionedcorneroftherailwaycarriage,shewasinwardlyofferingupgentle,patheticallyardentprayersofgratitude。Shewasthewomanwhoprays,andthemanysadpetitionsofthepastyearswerebeingansweredatlast。ShewasbeingallowedtogotoRosy—— whatsoeverhappened,shecouldneverbereallypartedfromhergirlagain。Sheaskedpardonmanytimesbecauseshehadnotbeenabletobereallysorrywhenshehadheardofherson—in—law’sdesperatecondition。Shecouldfeelpityforhiminhisawfulcase,shetoldherself,butshecouldnotwishforthethingwhichperhapssheoughttowishfor。Shehadconfidedthistoherhusbandwithinnocent,penitenttears,andhehadstrokedhercheek,whichhadalwaysbeenhiscomfortingwaysincetheyhadbeenyoungthingstogether。 \"Mydear,\"hesaid,\"ifatigerwithhydrophobiawerelooseamongalotofdecentpeople——orindecentones,forthematterofthat——youwouldnotfeelityourdutytobeverysorryif,inspringingonagroupofthem,heimpaledhimselfonanironfence。Don’treproachyourselftoomuch。\"And,thoughtherealismofthepicturehepresentedwassuchastomakeherexclaim,\"No!No!\"therewerestilloccasionalmomentswhenshebreathedarequestforpardonifshewashardofheart——thissoftestofcreatureshuman。 ItwasarrangedbythetwowhobestknewandlovedherthathermeetingwithRosalieshouldhavenospectators,andthattheirfirsthourtogethershouldbewhollyunbrokeninupon。 \"Youhavenotseeneachotherforsolong,\"Bettysaid,when,onherarrival,sheledheratoncetothemorning—roomwhereRosywaited,palewithjoy,butwhenthedoorwasopened,thoughthetwofiguresweresweptintoeachother’sarmsbyonewild,tremulousrushofmovement,therewerenosoundstobeheard,onlycaughtbreaths,untilthedoorhadclosedagain。 ThetalkswhichtookplacebetweenMr。VanderpoelandLordMountDunstanweremanyandlong,andwereofabsorbinginteresttoboth。Eachpresentedtotheotheranewworld,andatypeofwhichhispreviousknowledgehadbeenbutincomplete。 \"Iwonder,\"Mr。Vanderpoelsaid,inthecourseofoneofthem,\"ifmyworldappealstoyouasyoursappealstome。 Naturally,fromyourstandpoint,itscarcelyseemsprobable。 Perhapstheup—buildingoflargefinancialschemespresupposesacertaindegreeofimagination。IambecomingaromanticNewYorkmanofbusiness,andIrevelinit。Kedgers,forinstance,\"withthesmilewhich,somehow,suggestedBetty,\"KedgersandtheLiliumGiganteum,Mrs。WeldenandoldDobythreatentodevelopintoquitenecessaryfactorsintheschemeofhappiness。WhatBettyhasfeltisevenmorecomprehensiblethanitseemedatfirst。\" Theywalkedandrodetogetheraboutthecountryside;whenMountDunstanitselfwassweptcleanofdanger,andonlyafewconvalescentslingeredtobetakencareofinthehugeballroom,theyspentmanydaysingoingovertheestate。ThedesolatebeautyofitappealedtoandtouchedMr。Vanderpoel,asithadappealedtoandtouchedhisdaughter,and,also,wakenedinhimmuchnewandcuriousdelight。ButMountDunstan,withatouchofhisoldobstinacy,insistedthatheshouldignorethebeauty,andlookcloselyatlessadmirablethings。 \"Youmustseetheworstofthis,\"hesaid。\"YoumustunderstandthatIcanputnogoodfaceuponthings,thatI offernothing,becauseIhavenothingtooffer。\" Ifhehadnotbeensweptthroughandthroughbyapowerfulandrapturouspassion,hewouldhavedetestedandabhorredthesedaysofdeliberateproudlayingbareofthenakednessoftheland。ButinthehourshespentwithBettyVanderpoelthepassiongavehimknowledgeofthethingswhich,beingelemental,donotconcernthemselveswithprideandobstinacy,anddonotrememberthem。Toomuchhadended,andtoomuchbegun,toleavespaceorthoughtforpoorthings。Intheireyes,whentheyweretogether,andevenwhentheywereapart,dweltaglowwhichwasdeeplymovingtothosewho,lookingon,weresufficientlyprofoundofthoughttounderstand。 Watchingthetwowalkingslowlysidebysidedowntheleaflessavenueonacrystalwinterday,Mr。Vanderpoelconversedwiththevicar,whomhegreatlyliked。 \"AyoungmanofthenameofSelden,\"heremarked,\"toldmemoreofthisthanheknew。\" \"G。Selden,\"saidthevicar,withaffectionatesmiling。\"Heisnotawarethathewaslargelyconcernedinthematter。Infact,withoutG。Selden,Idonotknowhow,exactly,weshouldhavegoton。Howishe,nicefellow?\" \"Extremelywell,andinthesedaysinmyemploy。Heisofthehonest,indefatigablestuffwhichmakesitsway。\" Hisownsmiles,ashewatchedthetwotallfiguresinthedistance,settledintoanexpressionofspeculativeabsorption,becausehewasreflectinguponprofoundlyinterestingmatters。 \"Thereisagreatprimevalthingwhichsometimes——notoften,onlysometimes——occurstotwopeople,\"hewenton。 \"Whenitleapsintobeing,itiswellifitisnotthwarted,ordonetodeath。IthashappenedtomygirlandMountDunstan。 Iftheyhadbeentwoyoungtinkersbytheroadside,theywouldhavecometogether,anddefiedtheirbeggary。Asitis,Irecognise,asIsithere,thattheoutcomeofwhatistobemayreachfar,andopenupbroadnewways。\" \"Yes,\"saidthevicar。\"Shewilllivehereandfillastrongman’slifewithwonderfulhumanhappiness——hersplendidchildrenwillbebornhere,andamongthemwillbethosewholeadthevanandmakehistory。\" ForsometimeNigelAnstrutherslayinhisroomatStornhamCourt,surroundedbyallofaidandluxurythatwealthandexaltedmedicalsciencecouldgatherabouthim。Sometimeshelayalividunconsciousmask,sometimeshisnursesanddoctorsknewthatinhisholloweyestherewasthelightofaraginghalfreason,andtheysawthathestruggledtouttercoherentsoundswhichtheymightcomprehend。Thisheneveraccomplished,andoneday,inthemidstofsuchaneffort,hewasstrickendumbagain,andsoonafterwardssankintostillnessanddied。 AndtheShuttleinthehandofFate,througheveryhourofeveryday,andthroughtheslow,deepbreathingofallthesilentnights,weavestoandfro——toandfro——drawingwithitthethreadsofhumanlifeandthoughtwhichstrengthenitsweb:andtracethefiguresofitsyetvagueanduncompleteddesign。 End