第11章

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XVII Thesummerflewby。TheawasgladwhenRayKennedyhadaSundayintownandcouldtakeherdriving。Outamongthesandhillsshecouldforgetthe\"newroom\"whichwasthesceneofwearingandfruitlesslabor。Dr。Archiewasawayfromhomeagooddealthatyear。HehadputallhismoneyintominesaboveColo— radoSprings,andhehopedforgreatreturnsfromthem。 Inthefallofthatyear,Mr。KronborgdecidedthatTheaoughttoshowmoreinterestinchurchwork。Heputittoherfrankly,onenightatsupper,beforethewholefamily。 \"HowcanIinsistontheothergirlsinthecongregationbeingactiveinthework,whenoneofmyowndaughtersmanifestssolittleinterest?\" \"ButIsingeverySundaymorning,andIhavetogiveuponenightaweektochoirpractice,\"Theadeclaredrebelliously,pushingbackherplatewithanangrydeter— minationtoeatnothingmore。 \"Onenightaweekisnotenoughforthepastor’sdaugh— ter,\"herfatherreplied。\"Youwon’tdoanythinginthesewingsociety,andyouwon’ttakepartintheChristianEndeavorortheBandofHope。Verywell,youmustmakeitupinotherways。Iwantsomeonetoplaytheorganandleadthesingingatprayer—meetingthiswinter。DeaconPottertoldmesometimeagothathethoughttherewouldbemoreinterestinourprayer—meetingsifwehadtheorgan。 MissMeyersdon’tfeelthatshecanplayonWednesdaynights。Andthereoughttobesomebodytostartthehymns。 Mrs。Potterisgettingold,andshealwaysstartsthemtoohigh。Itwon’ttakemuchofyourtime,anditwillkeeppeoplefromtalking。\" ThisargumentconqueredThea,thoughsheleftthe tablesullenly。Thefearofthetongue,thatterroroflittletowns,isusuallyfeltmorekeenlybytheminister’sfamilythanbyotherhouseholds。WhenevertheKronborgswantedtodoanything,eventobuyanewcarpet,theyhadtotakecounseltogetherastowhetherpeoplewouldtalk。 Mrs。Kronborghadherownconvictionthatpeopletalkedwhentheyfeltlikeit,andsaidwhattheychose,nomatterhowtheminister’sfamilyconductedthemselves。Butshedidnotimpartthesedangerousideastoherchildren。Theawasstillunderthebeliefthatpublicopinioncouldbeplacated;thatifyoucluckedoftenenough,thehenswouldmistakeyouforoneofthemselves。 Mrs。Kronborgdidnothaveanyparticularzestforprayer—meetings,andshestayedathomewhenevershehadavalidexcuse。Thorwastoooldtofurnishsuchanexcusenow,soeveryWednesdaynight,unlessoneofthechildrenwassick,shetrudgedoffwithThea,behindMr。Kronborg。 AtfirstTheawasterriblybored。Butshegotusedtoprayer— meeting,goteventofeelamournfulinterestinit。 Theexerciseswerealwaysprettymuchthesame。AfterthefirsthymnherfatherreadapassagefromtheBible,usuallyaPsalm。Thentherewasanotherhymn,andthenherfathercommenteduponthepassagehehadreadand,ashesaid,\"appliedtheWordtoournecessities。\"Afterathirdhymn,themeetingwasdeclaredopen,andtheoldmenandwomentookturnsatprayingandtalking。Mrs。 Kronborgneverspokeinmeeting。Shetoldpeoplefirmlythatshehadbeenbroughtuptokeepsilentandletthementalk,butshegaverespectfulattentiontotheothers,sittingwithherhandsfoldedinherlap。 Theprayer—meetingaudiencewasalwayssmall。Theyoungandenergeticmembersofthecongregationcameonlyonceortwiceayear,\"tokeeppeoplefromtalking。\" TheusualWednesdaynightgatheringwasmadeupofoldwomen,withperhapssixoreightoldmen,andafewsicklygirlswhohadnotmuchinterestinlife;twoofthem,in— deed,werealreadypreparingtodie。Theaacceptedthemournfulnessoftheprayer—meetingsasakindofspiritualdiscipline,likefunerals。Shealwaysreadlateaftershewenthomeandfeltastrongerwishthanusualtoliveandtobehappy。 ThemeetingswereconductedintheSunday—Schoolroom,wheretherewerewoodenchairsinsteadofpews; anoldmapofPalestinehungonthewall,andthebracketlampsgaveoutonlyadimlight。TheoldwomensatmotionlessasIndiansintheirshawlsandbonnets;someofthemworelongblackmourningveils。Theoldmendroopedintheirchairs。Everyback,everyface,everyheadsaid\"resignation。\"Oftentherewerelongsilences,whenyoucouldhearnothingbutthecracklingofthesoftcoalinthestoveandthemuffledcoughofoneofthesickgirls。 Therewasoneniceoldlady,——tall,erect,self—respect— ing,withadelicatewhitefaceandasoftvoice。Sheneverwhined,andwhatshesaidwasalwayscheerful,thoughshespokesonervouslythatTheaknewshedreadedgettingup,andthatshemadearealsacrificeto,asshesaid,\"tes— tifytothegoodnessofherSaviour。\"Shewasthemotherofthegirlwhocoughed,andTheausedtowonderhowsheexplainedthingstoherself。Therewas,indeed,onlyonewomanwhotalkedbecauseshewas,asMr。Kronborgsaid,\"tonguey。\"Theothersweresomehowimpressive。Theytoldaboutthesweetthoughtsthatcametothemwhiletheywereattheirwork;how,amidtheirhouseholdtasks,theyweresuddenlyliftedbythesenseofadivinePresence。 Sometimestheytoldoftheirfirstconversion,ofhowintheiryouththathigherPowerhadmadeitselfknowntothem。OldMr。Carsen,thecarpenter,whogavehisser— vicesasjanitortothechurch,usedoftentotellhow,whenhewasayoungmanandascoffer,bentonthedestructionofbothbodyandsoul,hisSaviourhadcometohimintheMichiganwoodsandhadstood,itseemedtohim,besidethetreehewasfelling;andhowhedroppedhisaxeand kneltinprayer\"toHimwhodiedforusuponthetree。\" Theaalwayswantedtoaskhimmoreaboutit;abouthismysteriouswickedness,andaboutthevision。 Sometimestheoldpeoplewouldaskforprayersfortheirabsentchildren。SometimestheyaskedtheirbrothersandsistersinChristtopraythattheymightbestrongeragainsttemptations。Oneofthesickgirlsusedtoaskthemtopraythatshemighthavemorefaithinthetimesofdepressionthatcametoher,\"whenallthewaybeforeseemeddark。\"Sherepeatedthathuskyphrasesooften,thatTheaalwaysrememberedit。 Oneoldwoman,whonevermissedaWednesdaynight,andwhonearlyalwaystookpartinthemeeting,cameallthewayupfromthedepotsettlement。Shealwaysworeablackcrocheted\"fascinator\"overherthinwhitehair,andshemadelong,tremulousprayers,fullofrailroadtermin— ology。Shehadsixsonsintheserviceofdifferentrailroads,andshealwaysprayed\"fortheboysontheroad,whoknownotatwhatmomenttheymaybecutoff。When,inThydivinewisdom,theirhourisuponthem,maythey,OourHeavenlyFather,seeonlywhitelightsalongtheroadtoEternity。\"Sheusedtospeak,too,of\"theenginesthatracewithdeath\";andthoughshelookedsooldandlittlewhenshewasonherknees,andhervoicewassoshaky,herprayershadathrillofspeedanddangerinthem;theymadeonethinkofthedeepblackcanyons,theslendertrestles,thepoundingtrains。Thealikedtolookathersunkeneyesthatseemedfullofwisdom,atherblackthreadgloves,muchtoolonginthefingersandsomeeklyfoldedoneovertheother。Herfacewasbrown,andwornawayasrocksarewornbywater。Therearemanywaysofdescribingthatcolorofage,butinrealityitisnotlikeparchment,orlikeanyofthethingsitissaidtobelike。Thatbrownnessandthattextureofskinarefoundonlyinthefacesofoldhumancreatures,whohaveworkedhardandwhohavealwaysbeenpoor。 OnebitterlycoldnightinDecembertheprayer—meetingseemedtoThealongerthanusual。Theprayersandthetalkswentonandon。Itwasasiftheoldpeoplewereafraidtogooutintothecold,orwerestupefiedbythehotairoftheroom。Shehadleftabookathomethatshewasimpatienttogetbackto。AtlasttheDoxologywassung,buttheoldpeoplelingeredaboutthestovetogreeteachother,andTheatookhermother’sarmandhurriedouttothefrozensidewalk,beforeherfathercouldgetaway。Thewindwaswhistlingupthestreetandwhippingthenakedcottonwoodtreesagainstthetelegraphpolesandthesidesofthehouses。Thinsnowcloudswereflyingoverhead,sothattheskylookedgray,withadullphosphorescence。 Theicystreetsandtheshingleroofsofthehousesweregray,too。Allalongthestreet,shuttersbangedorwindowsrattled,orgateswobbled,heldbytheirlatchbutshakingonloosehinges。TherewasnotacatoradoginMoonstonethatnightthatwasnotgivenawarmshelter;thecatsunderthekitchenstove,thedogsinbarnsorcoal—sheds。 WhenTheaandhermotherreachedhome,theirmufflerswerecoveredwithice,wheretheirbreathhadfrozen。Theyhurriedintothehouseandmadeadashfortheparlorandthehard—coalburner,behindwhichGunnerwassittingonastool,readinghisJulesVernebook。Thedoorstoodopenintothedining—room,whichwasheatedfromtheparlor。 Mr。Kronborgalwayshadalunchwhenhecamehomefromprayer—meeting,andhispumpkinpieandmilkweresetoutonthedining—table。Mrs。Kronborgsaidshethoughtshefelthungry,too,andaskedTheaifshedidn’twantsomethingtoeat。 \"No,I’mnothungry,mother。IguessI’llgoupstairs。\" \"Iexpectyou’vegotsomebookupthere,\"saidMrs。 Kronborg,bringingoutanotherpie。\"You’dbetterbringitdownhereandread。Nobody’lldisturbyou,andit’sterriblecoldupinthatloft。\" Theawasalwaysassuredthatnoonewoulddisturbher ifshereaddownstairs,buttheboystalkedwhentheycamein,andherfatherfairlydelivereddiscoursesafterhehadbeenrenewedbyhalfapieandapitcherofmilk。 \"Idon’tmindthecold。I’lltakeahotbrickupformyfeet。IputoneinthestovebeforeIleft,ifoneoftheboyshasn’tstolenit。Good—night,mother。\"Theagotherbrickandlantern,anddashedupstairsthroughthewindyloft。 Sheundressedattopspeedandgotintobedwithherbrick。 Sheputapairofwhiteknittedglovesonherhands,andpinnedoverherheadapieceofsoftflannelthathadbeenoneofThor’slongpetticoatswhenhewasababy。Thusequipped,shewasreadyforbusiness。Shetookfromhertableathickpaper—backedvolume,oneofthe\"line\"ofpapernovelsthedruggistkepttoselltotravelingmen。 Shehadboughtit,onlyyesterday,becausethefirstsen— tenceinterestedherverymuch,andbecauseshesaw,assheglancedoverthepages,themagicalnamesoftwoRussiancities。Thebookwasapoortranslationof\"AnnaKarenina。\"Theaopeneditatamark,andfixedhereyesintentlyuponthesmallprint。Thehymns,thesickgirl,theresignedblackfigureswereforgotten。ItwasthenightoftheballinMoscow。 Theawouldhavebeenastonishedifshecouldhaveknownhow,yearsafterward,whenshehadneedofthem,thoseoldfacesweretocomebacktoher,longaftertheywerehiddenawayundertheearth;thattheywouldseemtoherthenasfullofmeaning,asmysteriouslymarkedbyDestiny,asthepeoplewhodancedthemazurkaundertheelegantKorsunsky。 XVIII Mr。Kronborgwastoofondofhiseaseandtoosensibletoworryhischildrenmuchaboutreligion。 Hewasmoresincerethanmanypreachers,butwhenhespoketohisfamilyaboutmattersofconductitwasusuallywitharegardforkeepingupappearances。Thechurchandchurchworkwerediscussedinthefamilyliketheroutineofanyotherbusiness。Sundaywastheharddayoftheweekwiththem,justasSaturdaywasthebusydaywiththemerchantsonMainStreet。Revivalswereseasonsofextraworkandpressure,justasthreshing—timewasonthefarms。Visitingeldershadtobelodgedandcookedfor,thefolding—bedintheparlorwasletdown,andMrs。 Kronborghadtoworkinthekitchenalldaylongandattendthenightmeetings。 DuringoneoftheserevivalsThea’ssisterAnnaprofessedreligionwith,asMrs。Kronborgsaid,\"agooddealoffluster。\"WhileAnnawasgoinguptothemourners’benchnightlyandaskingfortheprayersofthecongregation,shedisseminatedgeneralgloomthroughoutthehousehold,andaftershejoinedthechurchshetookonanairof\"set—apart— ness\"thatwasextremelytryingtoherbrothersandhersister,thoughtheyrealizedthatAnna’ssanctimoniousnesswasperhapsagoodthingfortheirfather。Apreacheroughttohaveonechildwhodidmorethanmerelyacquiesceinreligiousobservances,andTheaandtheboysweregladenoughthatitwasAnnaandnotoneofthemselveswhoassumedthisobligation。 \"Anna,she’sAmerican,\"Mrs。Kronborgusedtosay。 TheScandinavianmouldofcountenance,moreorlessmarkedineachoftheotherchildren,wasscarcelydis— cernibleinher,andshelookedenoughlikeotherMoon— stonegirlstobethoughtpretty。Anna’snaturewascon— ventional,likeherface。Herpositionastheminister’seldestdaughterwasimportanttoher,andshetriedtoliveuptoit。Shereadsentimentalreligiousstory—booksandemulatedthespiritualstrugglesandmagnanimousbehavioroftheirpersecutedheroines。EverythinghadtobeinterpretedforAnna。Heropinionsaboutthesmall— estandmostcommonplacethingsweregleanedfromtheDenverpapers,thechurchweeklies,fromsermonsandSunday—Schooladdresses。Scarcelyanythingwasattrac— tivetoherinitsnaturalstate——indeed,scarcelyanythingwasdecentuntilitwasclothedbytheopinionofsomeauthority。Herideasabouthabit,character,duty,love,marriage,weregroupedunderheads,likeabookofpopularquotations,andweretotallyunrelatedtotheemergenciesofhumanliving。ShediscussedallthesesubjectswithotherMethodistgirlsofherage。Theywouldspendhours,forinstance,indecidingwhattheywouldorwouldnottoler— ateinasuitororahusband,andthefrailtiesofmasculinenatureweretoooftenasubjectofdiscussionamongthem。 InherbehaviorAnnawasaharmlessgirl,mildexceptwhereherprejudiceswereconcerned,neatandindustrious,withnograverfaultthanpriggishness;buthermindhadreallyshockinghabitsofclassification。ThewickednessofDenverandofChicago,andevenofMoonstone,occupiedherthoughtstoomuch。Shehadnoneofthedelicacythatgoeswithanatureofwarmimpulses,butthekindoffishycuriositywhichjustifiesitselfbyanexpressionofhorror。 Thea,andallThea’swaysandfriends,seemedindecor— oustoAnna。ShenotonlyfeltagravesocialdiscriminationagainsttheMexicans;shecouldnotforgetthatSpanishJohnnywasadrunkardandthat\"nobodyknewwhathedidwhenheranawayfromhome。\"Theapretended,ofcourse,thatshelikedtheMexicansbecausetheywerefondofmusic;buteveryoneknewthatmusicwasno— thingveryreal,andthatitdidnotmatterinagirl’sre— lationswithpeople。Whatwasreal,then,andwhatdidmatter?PoorAnna! AnnaapprovedofRayKennedyasayoungmanofsteadyhabitsandblamelesslife,butsheregrettedthathewasanatheist,andthathewasnotapassengerconductorwithbrassbuttonsonhiscoat。Onthewhole,shewon— deredwhatsuchanexemplaryyoungmanfoundtolikeinThea。Dr。ArchieshetreatedrespectfullybecauseofhispositioninMoonstone,butsheKNEWhehadkissedtheMexicanbarytone’sprettydaughter,andshehadawholeDOSSIERofevidenceabouthisbehaviorinhishoursofrelax— ationinDenver。Hewas\"fast,\"anditwasbecausehewas\"fast\"thatThealikedhim。Theaalwayslikedthatkindofpeople。Dr。Archie’swholemannerwithThea,Annaoftentoldhermother,wastoofree。HewasalwaysputtinghishandonThea’shead,orholdingherhandwhilehelaughedandlookeddownather。Thekindliermanifesta— tionofhumannature(aboutwhichAnnasangandtalked,intheinterestsofwhichshewenttoconventionsandworewhiteribbons)wereneverrealitiestoherafterall。Shedidnotbelieveinthem。Itwasonlyinattitudesofprotestorreproof,clingingtothecross,thathumanbeingscouldbeeventemporarilydecent。 PreacherKronborg’ssecretconvictionswereverymuchlikeAnna’s。Hebelievedthathiswifewasabsolutelygood,buttherewasnotamanorwomaninhiscongregationwhomhetrustedalltheway。 Mrs。Kronborg,ontheotherhand,waslikelytofindsomethingtoadmireinalmostanyhumanconductthatwaspositiveandenergetic。Shecouldalwaysbetakeninbythestoriesoftrampsandrunawayboys。Shewenttothecircusandadmiredthebarebackriders,whowere\"likelygoodenoughwomenintheirway。\"SheadmiredDr。Archie’sfinephysiqueandwell—cutclothesasmuchasTheadid,andsaidshe\"feltitwasaprivilegetobehandledbysuchagentlemanwhenshewassick。\" SoonafterAnnabecameachurchmembershebegantoremonstratewithTheaaboutpracticing——playing\"secu— larmusic\"——onSunday。OneSundaythedisputeintheparlorgrewwarmandwascarriedtoMrs。Kronborginthekitchen。ShelistenedjudiciallyandtoldAnnatoreadthechapterabouthowNaamantheleperwaspermittedtobowdowninthehouseofRimmon。Theawentbacktothepiano,andAnnalingeredtosaythat,sinceshewasintheright,hermothershouldhavesupportedher。 \"No,\"saidMrs。Kronborg,ratherindifferently,\"Ican’tseeitthatway,Anna。Ineverforcedyoutopractice,andIdon’tseeasIshouldkeepTheafromit。Iliketohearher,andIguessyourfatherdoes。YouandTheawilllikelyfol— lowdifferentlines,andIdon’tseeasI’mcalledupontobringyouupalike。\" Annalookedmeekandabused。\"Ofcourseallthechurchpeoplemusthearher。Oursistheonlynoisyhouseonthisstreet。Youhearwhatshe’splayingnow,don’tyou?\" Mrs。Kronborgrosefrombrowninghercoffee。\"Yes; it’stheBlueDanubewaltzes。I’mfamiliarwith’em。Ifanyofthechurchpeoplecomeatyou,youjustsend’emtome。Iain’tafraidtospeakoutonoccasion,andI wouldn’tmindonebittellingtheLadies’Aidafewthingsaboutstandardcomposers。\"Mrs。Kronborgsmiled,andaddedthoughtfully,\"No,Iwouldn’tmindthatonebit。\" Annawentaboutwithareservedanddistantairforaweek,andMrs。Kronborgsuspectedthatsheheldalargerplacethanusualinherdaughter’sprayers;butthatwasanotherthingshedidn’tmind。 Althoughrevivalsweremerelyapartoftheyear’swork,likeexaminationweekatschool,andalthoughAnna’spietyimpressedherverylittle,atimecamewhenTheawasperplexedaboutreligion。AscourgeoftyphoidbrokeoutinMoonstoneandseveralofThea’sschoolmatesdiedofit。Shewenttotheirfunerals,sawthemputintothe ground,andwonderedagooddealaboutthem。Butacertaingrimincident,whichcausedtheepidemic,troubledherevenmorethanthedeathofherfriends。 EarlyinJuly,soonafterThea’sfifteenthbirthday,aparticularlydisgustingsortoftrampcameintoMoonstoneinanemptyboxcar。Theawassittinginthehammockinthefrontyardwhenhefirstcrawleduptothetownfromthedepot,carryingabundlewrappedindirtytickingunderonearm,andundertheotherawoodenboxwithrustyscreeningnailedoveroneend。Hehadathin,hungryfacecoveredwithblackhair。Itwasjustbeforesupper— timewhenhecamealong,andthestreetsmelledoffriedpotatoesandfriedonionsandcoffee。Theasawhimsniffingtheairgreedilyandwalkingslowerandslower。Helookedoverthefence。Shehopedhewouldnotstopattheirgate,forhermotherneverturnedanyoneaway,andthiswasthedirtiestandmostutterlywretched—lookingtrampshehadeverseen。Therewasaterribleodorabouthim,too。 Shecaughtitevenatthatdistance,andputherhandker— chieftohernose。Amomentlatershewassorry,forsheknewthathehadnoticedit。Helookedawayandshuffledalittlefaster。 AfewdayslaterTheaheardthatthetramphadcampedinanemptyshackoverontheeastedgeoftown,besidetheravine,andwastryingtogiveamiserablesortofshowthere。Hetoldtheboyswhowenttoseewhathewasdoing,thathehadtraveledwithacircus。Hisbundlecontainedafilthyclown’ssuit,andhisboxheldhalfadozenrattle— snakes。 Saturdaynight,whenTheawenttothebutchershoptogetthechickensforSunday,sheheardthewhineofanaccordionandsawacrowdbeforeoneofthesaloons。Thereshefoundthetramp,hisbonybodygrotesquelyattiredintheclown’ssuit,hisfaceshavedandpaintedwhite,——thesweattricklingthroughthepaintandwashingitaway,—— andhiseyeswildandfeverish。Pullingtheaccordionin andoutseemedtobealmosttoogreataneffortforhim,andhepantedtothetuneof\"MarchingthroughGeorgia。\" Afteraconsiderablecrowdhadgathered,thetrampex— hibitedhisboxofsnakes,announcedthathewouldnowpassthehat,andthatwhentheonlookershadcontributedthesumofonedollar,hewouldeat\"oneoftheselivingreptiles。\"Thecrowdbegantocoughandmurmur,andthesaloonkeeperrushedoffforthemarshal,whoarrestedthewretchforgivingashowwithoutalicenseandhurriedhimawaytothecalaboose。 Thecalaboosestoodinasunflowerpatch,——anoldhutwithabarredwindowandapadlockonthedoor。Thetrampwasutterlyfilthyandtherewasnowaytogivehimabath。Thelawmadenoprovisiontogrub—stakevagrants,soaftertheconstablehaddetainedthetrampfortwenty— fourhours,hereleasedhimandtoldhimto\"getoutoftown,andgetquick。\"Thefellow’srattlesnakeshadbeenkilledbythesaloonkeeper。Hehidinaboxcarinthefreightyard,probablyhopingtogetaridetothenextstation,buthewasfoundandputout。Afterthathewasseennomore。Hehaddisappearedandleftnotraceexceptanugly,stupidword,chalkedontheblackpaintoftheseventy—five—footstandpipewhichwasthereservoirfortheMoonstonewater—supply;thesameword,inanothertongue,thattheFrenchsoldiershoutedatWaterloototheEnglishofficerwhobadetheOldGuardsurrender;acommentonlifewhichthedefeated,alongthehardroadsoftheworld,sometimesbawlatthevictorious。 Aweekafterthetrampexcitementhadpassedover,thecitywaterbegantosmellandtotaste。TheKron— borgshadawellintheirbackyardanddidnotusecitywater,buttheyheardthecomplaintsoftheirneighbors。 Atfirstpeoplesaidthatthetownwellwasfullofrot— tingcottonwoodroots,buttheengineeratthepumping— stationconvincedthemayorthatthewaterleftthewelluntainted。Mayorsreasonslowly,but,thewellbeing eliminated,theofficialmindhadtotraveltowardthestandpipe——therewasnoothertrackforittogoin。 Thestandpipeamplyrewardedinvestigation。ThetramphadgotevenwithMoonstone。Hehadclimbedthestandpipebythehandholdsandlethimselfdownintoseventy—fivefeetofcoldwater,withhisshoesandhatandrollofticking。Thecitycouncilhadamildpanicandpassedanewordinanceabouttramps。Butthefeverhadalreadybrokenout,andseveraladultsandhalfadozenchildrendiedofit。 TheahadalwaysfoundeverythingthathappenedinMoonstoneexciting,disastersparticularlyso。Itwasgrat— ifyingtoreadsensationalMoonstoneitemsintheDenverpaper。Butshewishedshehadnotchancedtoseethetrampashecameintotownthatevening,sniffingthesupper—ladenair。Hisfaceremainedunpleasantlyclearinhermemory,andhermindstruggledwiththeproblemofhisbehaviorasifitwereahardpageinarithmetic。Evenwhenshewaspracticing,thedramaofthetrampkeptgoingoninthebackofherhead,andshewasconstantlytryingtomakeherselfrealizewhatpitchofhatredordespaircoulddriveamantodosuchahideousthing。Shekeptseeinghiminhisbedraggledclownsuit,thewhitepaintonhisroughlyshavenface,playinghisaccordionbeforethesaloon。Shehadnoticedhisleanbody,hishigh,baldforeheadthatslopedbacklikeacurvedmetallid。Howcouldpeoplefallsofaroutoffortune?ShetriedtotalktoRayKennedyaboutherperplexity,butRaywouldnotdiscussthingsofthatsortwithher。Itwasinhissentimentalconceptionofwomenthattheyshouldbedeeplyreligious,thoughmenwereatlibertytodoubtandfinallytodeny。Apicturecalled\"TheSoulAwakened,\" popularinMoonstoneparlors,prettywellinterpretedRay’sideaofwoman’sspiritualnature。 Oneeveningwhenshewashauntedbythefigureofthetramp,TheawentuptoDr。Archie’soffice。Shefoundhim sewinguptwobadgashesinthefaceofalittleboywhohadbeenkickedbyamule。Aftertheboyhadbeenban— dagedandsentawaywithhisfather,Theahelpedthedoc— torwashandputawaythesurgicalinstruments。Thenshedroppedintoheraccustomedseatbesidehisdeskandbegantotalkaboutthetramp。Hereyeswerehardandgreenwithexcitement,thedoctornoticed。 \"Itseemstome,Dr。Archie,thatthewholetown’stoblame。I’mtoblame,myself。Iknowhesawmeholdmynosewhenhewentby。Father’stoblame。IfhebelievestheBible,heoughttohavegonetothecalabooseandcleanedthatmanupandtakencareofhim。That’swhatIcan’tunderstand;dopeoplebelievetheBible,ordon’tthey?Ifthenextlifeisallthatmatters,andwe’reputheretogetreadyforit,thenwhydowetrytomakemoney,orlearnthings,orhaveagoodtime?There’snotonepersoninMoonstonethatreallylivesthewaytheNewTestamentsays。Doesitmatter,ordon’tit?\"