第15章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:9435更新时间:19/01/07 15:03:41
\"Youhavenothingtodotoyourhair,\"Mrs。Harsanyisaidkindly,asTheaturnedtothemirror。\"Howeverithappenstolie,it’salwayspretty。IadmireitasmuchasTanyadoes。\" Theaglancedawkwardlyawayfromherandlookedstern,butMrs。Harsanyiknewthatshewaspleased。Theywentintotheliving—room,behindthestudio,wherethetwochildrenwereplayingonthebigrugbeforethecoalgrate。Andor,theboy,wassix,asturdy,handsomechild,andthelittlegirlwasfour。ShecametrippingtomeetThea,lookinglikealittledollinherwhitenetdress——hermothermadeallherclothes。Theapickedherupandhuggedher。Mrs。Harsanyiexcusedherselfandwenttothedining—room。Shekeptonlyonemaidanddidagooddealofthehouseworkherself,besidescookingherhusband’sfavoritedishesforhim。Shewasstillunderthirty,aslender,gracefulwoman,gracious,intelligent,andcapable。Sheadaptedherselftocircumstanceswithawell—bredeasewhichsolvedmanyofherhusband’sdifficulties,andkepthim,ashesaid,fromfeelingcheapanddownattheheel。 Nomusicianeverhadabetterwife。Unfortunatelyherbeautywasofaveryfrailandimpressionablekind,andshewasbeginningtoloseit。Herfacewastoothinnow,andtherewereoftendarkcirclesunderhereyes。 Leftalonewiththechildren,TheasatdownonTanya’slittlechair——shewouldratherhavesatonthefloor,butwasafraidofrumplingherdress——andhelpedthemplay\"cars\"withAndor’sironrailwayset。Sheshowedhim newwaystolayhistracksandhowtomakeswitches,setuphisNoah’sarkvillageforstationsandpackedtheani— malsintheopencoalcarstosendthemtothestockyards。 TheyworkedouttheirshipmentsorealisticallythatwhenAndorputthetwolittlereindeerintothestockcar,Tanyasnatchedthemoutandbegantocry,sayingshewasn’tgoingtohavealltheiranimalskilled。 Harsanyicamein,jadedandtired,andaskedTheatogoonwithhergame,ashewasnotequaltotalkingmuchbeforedinner。Hesatdownandmadepretenseofglancingattheeveningpaper,buthesoondroppedit。Aftertherailroadbegantogrowtiresome,Theawentwiththechild— rentotheloungeinthecorner,andplayedforthemthegamewithwhichsheusedtoamuseThorforhoursto— getherbehindtheparlorstoveathome,makingshadowpicturesagainstthewallwithherhands。Herfingerswereverysupple,andshecouldmakeaduckandacowandasheepandafoxandarabbitandevenanelephant。Har— sanyi,fromhislowchair,watchedthem,smiling。Theboywasonhisknees,jumpingupanddownwiththeexcite— mentofguessingthebeasts,andTanyasatwithherfeettuckedunderherandclappedherfraillittlehands。Thea’sprofile,inthelamplight,teasedhisfancy。Wherehadheseenaheadlikeitbefore? Whendinnerwasannounced,littleAndortookThea’shandandwalkedtothedining—roomwithher。Thechil— drenalwayshaddinnerwiththeirparentsandbehavedverynicelyattable。\"Mamma,\"saidAndorseriouslyasheclimbedintohischairandtuckedhisnapkinintothecollarofhisblouse,\"MissKronborg’shandsareeverykindofanimalthereis。\" Hisfatherlaughed。\"Iwishsomebodywouldsaythataboutmyhands,Andor。\" WhenTheadinedattheHarsanyisbefore,shenoticedthattherewasanintensesuspensefromthemomenttheytooktheirplacesatthetableuntilthemasterofthehouse hadtastedthesoup。Hehadatheorythatifthesoupwentwell,thedinnerwouldgowell;butifthesoupwaspoor,allwaslost。To—nighthetastedhissoupandsmiled,andMrs。HarsanyisatmoreeasilyinherchairandturnedherattentiontoThea。Thealovedtheirdinnertable,be— causeitwaslightedbycandlesinsilvercandle—sticks,andshehadneverseenatablesolightedanywhereelse。 Therewerealwaysflowers,too。To—nighttherewasalittleorangetree,withorangesonit,thatoneofHarsanyi’spupilshadsenthimatThanksgivingtime。AfterHarsanyihadfinishedhissoupandaglassofredHungarianwine,helosthisfaggedlookandbecamecordialandwitty。HepersuadedTheatodrinkalittlewineto—night。Thefirsttimeshedinedwiththem,whenheurgedhertotastetheglassofsherrybesideherplate,sheastonishedthembytellingthemthatshe\"neverdrank。\" Harsanyiwasthenamanofthirty—two。Hewastohaveaverybrilliantcareer,buthedidnotknowitthen。 TheodoreThomaswasperhapstheonlymaninChicagowhofeltthatHarsanyimighthaveagreatfuture。Har— sanyibelongedtothesofterSlavictype,andwasmorelikeaPolethanaHungarian。Hewastall,slender,active,withsloping,gracefulshouldersandlongarms。Hisheadwasveryfine,stronglyanddelicatelymodelled,and,asTheaputit,\"soindependent。\"Alockofhisthickbrownhairusuallyhungoverhisforehead。Hiseyewaswonderful; fulloflightandfirewhenhewasinterested,softandthoughtfulwhenhewastiredormelancholy。Themean— ingandpoweroftwoveryfineeyesmustallhavegoneintothisone——therightone,fortunately,theonenexthisaudiencewhenheplayed。Hebelievedthattheglasseyewhichgaveonesideofhisfacesuchadull,blindlook,hadruinedhiscareer,orratherhadmadeacareerimpos— sibleforhim。Harsanyilosthiseyewhenhewastwelveyearsold,inaPennsylvaniaminingtownwhereexplo— siveshappenedtobekepttooneartheframeshanties inwhichthecompanypackednewlyarrivedHungarianfamilies。 Hisfatherwasamusicianandagoodone,buthehadcruellyover—workedtheboy;keepinghimatthepianoforsixhoursadayandmakinghimplayincafesanddancehallsforhalfthenight。Andorranawayandcrossedtheoceanwithanuncle,whosmuggledhimthroughtheportasoneofhisownmanychildren。TheexplosioninwhichAndorwashurtkilledascoreofpeople,andhewasthoughtluckytogetoffwithaneye。Hestillhadaclip— pingfromaPittsburgpaper,givingalistofthedeadandinjured。Heappearedas\"Harsanyi,Andor,lefteyeandslightinjuriesaboutthehead。\"ThatwashisfirstAmerican\"notice\";andhekeptit。Heheldnogrudgeagainstthecoalcompany;heunderstoodthattheacci— dentwasmerelyoneofthethingsthatareboundtohap— peninthegeneralscrambleofAmericanlife,whereeveryonecomestograbandtakeshischance。 Whiletheywereeatingdessert,TheaaskedHarsanyiifshecouldchangeherTuesdaylessonfromafternoontomorning。\"Ihavetobeatachoirrehearsalintheafter— noon,togetreadyfortheChristmasmusic,andIexpectitwilllastuntillate。\" Harsanyiputdownhisforkandlookedup。\"Achoirrehearsal?Yousinginachurch?\" \"Yes。AlittleSwedishchurch,overontheNorthside。\" \"Whydidyounottellus?\" \"Oh,I’monlyatemporary。Theregularsopranoisnotwell。\" \"Howlonghaveyoubeensingingthere?\" \"EversinceIcame。Ihadtogetapositionofsomekind,\"Theaexplained,flushing,\"andthepreachertookmeon。Herunsthechoirhimself。Heknewmyfather,andIguesshetookmetooblige。\" Harsanyitappedthetableclothwiththeendsofhis fingers。\"Butwhydidyounevertellus?Whyareyousoreticentwithus?\" Thealookedshylyathimfromunderherbrows。\"Well,it’scertainlynotveryinteresting。It’sonlyalittlechurch。 Ionlydoitforbusinessreasons。\" \"Whatdoyoumean?Don’tyouliketosing?Don’tyousingwell?\" \"Ilikeitwellenough,but,ofcourse,Idon’tknowany— thingaboutsinging。Iguessthat’swhyIneversaidany— thingaboutit。Anybodythat’sgotavoicecansinginalittlechurchlikethat。\" Harsanyilaughedsoftly——alittlescornfully,Theathought。\"Soyouhaveavoice,haveyou?\" Theahesitated,lookedintentlyatthecandlesandthenatHarsanyi。\"Yes,\"shesaidfirmly;\"Ihavegotsome,anyway。\" \"Goodgirl,\"saidMrs。Harsanyi,noddingandsmilingatThea。\"Youmustletushearyousingafterdinner。\" Thisremarkseeminglyclosedthesubject,andwhenthecoffeewasbroughttheybegantotalkofotherthings。 HarsanyiaskedTheahowshehappenedtoknowsomuchaboutthewayinwhichfreighttrainsareoperated,andshetriedtogivehimsomeideaofhowthepeopleinlittledeserttownslivebytherailwayandordertheirlivesbythecomingandgoingofthetrains。Whentheyleftthedining— roomthechildrenweresenttobedandMrs。HarsanyitookTheaintothestudio。Sheandherhusbandusuallysatthereintheevening。 AlthoughtheirapartmentseemedsoeleganttoThea,itwassmallandcramped。Thestudiowastheonlyspaciousroom。TheHarsanyiswerepoor,anditwasduetoMrs。 Harsanyi’sgoodmanagementthattheirlives,eveninhardtimes,movedalongwithdignityandorder。Shehadlongagofoundoutthatbillsordebtsofanykindfrightenedherhusbandandcrippledhisworkingpower。 Hesaidtheywerelikebarsonthewindows,andshutout thefuture;theymeantthatjustsomanyhundreddollars’ worthofhislifewasdebilitatedandexhaustedbeforehegottoit。SoMrs。Harsanyisawtoitthattheyneverowedanything。Harsanyiwasnotextravagant,thoughhewassometimescarelessaboutmoney。Quietandorderandhiswife’sgoodtastewerethethingsthatmeantmosttohim。Afterthese,goodfood,goodcigars,alittlegoodwine。Heworehisclothesuntiltheywereshabby,untilhiswifehadtoaskthetailortocometothehouseandmea— surehimfornewones。Hisnecktiessheusuallymadeher— self,andwhenshewasinshopsshealwayskepthereyeopenforsilksinverydullorpaleshades,graysandolives,warmblacksandbrowns。 WhentheywentintothestudioMrs。HarsanyitookupherembroideryandTheasatdownbesideheronalowstool,herhandsclaspedaboutherknees。Whilehiswifeandhispupiltalked,HarsanyisankintoaCHAISELONGUEinwhichhesometimessnatchedafewmoments’restbetweenhislessons,andsmoked。Hesatwelloutofthecircleofthelamplight,hisfeettothefire。Hisfeetwereslenderandwellshaped,alwayselegantlyshod。Muchofthegraceofhismovementswasduetothefactthathisfeetwerealmostassureandflexibleashishands。Helistenedtothecon— versationwithamusement。Headmiredhiswife’stactandkindnesswithcrudeyoungpeople;shetaughtthemsomuchwithoutseemingtobeinstructing。Whentheclockstrucknine,Theasaidshemustbegoinghome。 Harsanyiroseandflungawayhiscigarette。\"Notyet。 Wehavejustbeguntheevening。Nowyouaregoingtosingforus。Ihavebeenwaitingforyoutorecoverfromdinner。Come,whatshallitbe?\"hecrossedtothepiano。 Thealaughedandshookherhead,lockingherelbowsstilltighteraboutherknees。\"Thankyou,Mr。Harsanyi,butifyoureallymakemesing,I’llaccompanymyself。 Youcouldn’tstandittoplaythesortofthingsIhavetosing。\" AsHarsanyistillpointedtothechairatthepiano,sheleftherstoolandwenttoit,whilehereturnedtohisCHAISE LONGUE。Thealookedatthekeyboarduneasilyforamo— ment,thenshebegan\"Come,yeDisconsolate,\"thehymnWunschhadalwayslikedtohearhersing。Mrs。Harsanyiglancedquestioninglyatherhusband,buthewaslookingintentlyatthetoesofhisboots,shadinghisforeheadwithhislongwhitehand。WhenTheafinishedthehymnshedidnotturnaround,butimmediatelybegan\"TheNinetyandNine。\"Mrs。Harsanyikepttryingtocatchherhus— band’seye;buthischinonlysankloweronhiscollar。 \"TherewereninetyandninethatsafelylayIntheshelterofthefold,Butonewasoutonthehillsaway,Farofffromthegatesofgold。\" Harsanyilookedather,thenbackatthefire。 \"Rejoice,fortheShepherdhasfoundhissheep。\" Theaturnedonthechairandgrinned。\"That’saboutenough,isn’tit?Thatsonggotmemyjob。Thepreachersaiditwassympathetic,\"shemincedtheword,remember— ingMr。Larsen’smanner。 Harsanyidrewhimselfupinhischair,restinghiselbowsonthelowarms。\"Yes?Thatisbettersuitedtoyourvoice。Youruppertonesaregood,aboveG。Imustteachyousomesongs。Don’tyouknowanything——pleasant?\" Theashookherheadruefully。\"I’mafraidIdon’t。Letmesee——Perhaps,\"sheturnedtothepianoandputherhandsonthekeys。\"IusedtosingthisforMr。Wunschalongwhileago。It’sforcontralto,butI’lltryit。\"Shefrownedatthekeyboardamoment,playedthefewin— troductorymeasures,andbegan\"ACH,ICHHABESIEVERLOREN,\" Shehadnotsungitforalongtime,anditcamebacklikeanoldfriendship。Whenshefinished,Harsanyisprangfromhischairanddroppedlightlyuponhistoes,akindof ENTRE—CHATthathesometimesexecutedwhenheformedasuddenresolution,orwhenhewasabouttofollowapureintuition,againstreason。Hiswifesaidthatwhenhegavethatspringhewasshotfromthebowofhisancestors,andnowwhenhelefthischairinthatmannersheknewhewasintenselyinterested。Hewentquicklytothepiano。 \"Singthatagain。Thereisnothingthematterwithyourlowvoice,mygirl。Iwillplayforyou。Letyourvoiceout。\"Withoutlookingatherhebegantheaccom— paniment。Theadrewbackhershoulders,relaxedtheminstinctively,andsang。 Whenshefinishedthearia,Harsanyibeckonedhernearer。\"SingAH——AHforme,asIindicate。\"Hekepthisrighthandonthekeyboardandputhislefttoherthroat,placingthetipsofhisdelicatefingersoverherlarynx。\"Again,——untilyourbreathisgone。——Trillbetweenthetwotones,always;good!Again;excellent!—— Nowup,——staythere。EandF。Notsogood,isit?Fisalwaysahardone。——Now,trythehalf—tone。——That’sright,nothingdifficultaboutit。——Now,pianissimo,AH—— AH。Now,swellit,AH——AH。——Again,followmyhand。—— Now,carryitdown。——Anybodyevertellyouanythingaboutyourbreathing?\" \"Mr。LarsensaysIhaveanunusuallylongbreath,\" Thearepliedwithspirit。 Harsanyismiled。\"Soyouhave,soyouhave。ThatwaswhatImeant。Now,oncemore;carryitupandthendown,AH——AH。\"Heputhishandbacktoherthroatandsatwithhisheadbent,hisoneeyeclosed。Helovedtohearabigvoicethrobinarelaxed,naturalthroat,andhewasthinkingthatnoonehadeverfeltthisvoicevibratebefore。ItwaslikeawildbirdthathadflownintohisstudioonMiddletonStreetfromgoodnessknewhowfar! Nooneknewthatithadcome,oreventhatitexisted; leastofallthestrange,crudegirlinwhosethroatitbeatitspassionatewings。Whatasimplethingitwas,here— flected;whyhadheneverguesseditbefore?Everythingaboutherindicatedit,——thebigmouth,thewidejawandchin,thestrongwhiteteeth,thedeeplaugh。Themachinewassosimpleandstrong,seemedtobesoeasilyoperated。 Shesangfromthebottomofherself。Herbreathcamefromdownwhereherlaughcamefrom,thedeeplaughwhichMrs。Harsanyihadoncecalled\"thelaughofthepeople。\" Arelaxedthroat,avoicethatlayonthebreath,thathadneverbeenforcedoffthebreath;itroseandfellintheair—columnlikethelittleballswhichareputtoshineinthejetofafountain。Thevoicedidnotthinasitwentup; theuppertoneswereasfullandrichasthelower,pro— ducedinthesamewayandasunconsciously,onlywithdeeperbreath。 AtlastHarsanyithrewbackhisheadandrose。\"Youmustbetired,MissKronborg。\" Whenshereplied,shestartledhim;hehadforgottenhowhardandfullofbursherspeakingvoicewas。\"No,\"shesaid,\"singingnevertiresme。\" Harsanyipushedbackhishairwithanervoushand。 \"Idon’tknowmuchaboutthevoice,butIshalltakelibertiesandteachyousomegoodsongs。Ithinkyouhaveaveryinterestingvoice。\" \"I’mgladifyoulikeit。Good—night,Mr。Harsanyi。\" TheawentwithMrs。Harsanyitogetherwraps。 WhenMrs。Harsanyicamebacktoherhusband,shefoundhimwalkingrestlesslyupanddowntheroom。 \"Don’tyouthinkhervoicewonderful,dear?\"sheasked。 \"Iscarcelyknowwhattothink。AllIreallyknowaboutthatgirlisthatshetiresmetodeath。Wemustnothaveheroften。IfIdidnothavemylivingtomake,then——\" hedroppedintoachairandclosedhiseyes。\"HowtiredIam。Whatavoice!\" IV AFTERthateveningThea’sworkwithHarsanyichangedsomewhat。Heinsistedthatsheshouldstudysomesongswithhim,andafteralmosteverylessonhegaveuphalfanhourofhisowntimetopracticingthemwithher。Hedidnotpretendtoknowmuchaboutvoiceproduction,butsofar,hethought,shehadacquirednoreallyinjurioushabits。Ahealthyandpowerfulorganhadfounditsownmethod,whichwasnotabadone。Hewishedtofindoutagooddealbeforeherecommendedavocalteacher。HenevertoldTheawhathethoughtabouthervoice,andmadehergeneralignoranceofanythingworthsinginghispretextforthetroublehetook。Thatwasinthebeginning。Afterthefirstfewlessonshisownpleasureandherswerepretextenough。Thesingingcameattheendofthelessonhour,andtheybothtreateditasaformofrelaxation。 Harsanyididnotsaymucheventohiswifeabouthisdiscovery。Hebroodeduponitinacuriousway。Hefoundthattheseunscientificsinginglessonsstimulatedhiminhisownstudy。AfterMissKronborglefthimheoftenlaydowninhisstudioforanhourbeforedinner,withhisheadfullofmusicalideas,withaneffervescenceinhisbrainwhichhehadsometimeslostforweekstogetherun— derthegrindofteaching。HehadnevergotsomuchbackforhimselffromanypupilashedidfromMissKronborg。 Fromthefirstshehadstimulatedhim;somethinginherpersonalityinvariablyaffectedhim。Nowthathewasfeelinghiswaytowardhervoice,hefoundhermorein— terestingthaneverbefore。Sheliftedthetediumofthewinterforhim,gavehimcuriousfanciesandreveries。 Musically,shewassympathetictohim。Whyallthiswas true,heneveraskedhimself。Hehadlearnedthatonemusttakewhereandwhenonecanthemysteriousmentalir— ritantthatrousesone’simagination;thatitisnottobehadbyorder。Sheoftenweariedhim,butsheneverboredhim。Underhercrudenessandbrusquehardness,hefelttherewasanaturequitedifferent,ofwhichhenevergotsomuchasahintexceptwhenshewasatthepiano,orwhenshesang。Itwastowardthishiddencreaturethathewastrying,forhisownpleasure,tofindhisway。Inshort,HarsanyilookedforwardtohishourwithTheaforthesamereasonthatpoorWunschhadsometimesdreadedhis;becauseshestirredhimmorethananythingshedidcouldadequatelyexplain。 OneafternoonHarsanyi,afterthelesson,wasstandingbythewindowputtingsomecollodiononacrackedfinger,andTheawasatthepianotryingover\"DieLorelei\" whichhehadgivenherlastweektopractice。Itwasscarcelyasongwhichasingingmasterwouldhavegivenher,buthehadhisownreasons。Howshesangitmatteredonlytohimandtoher。Hewasplayinghisowngamenow,withoutinterference;hesuspectedthathecouldnotdosoalways。 Whenshefinishedthesong,shelookedbackoverhershoulderathimandspokethoughtfully。\"Thatwasn’tright,attheend,wasit?\" \"No,thatshouldbeanopen,flowingtone,somethinglikethis,\"——hewavedhisfingersrapidlyintheair。\"Yougettheidea?\" \"No,Idon’t。Seemsaqueerending,aftertherest。\" Harsanyicorkedhislittlebottleanddroppeditintothepocketofhisvelvetcoat。\"Whyso?Shipwreckscomeandgo,MARCHENcomeandgo,buttheriverkeepsrighton。 Thereyouhaveyouropen,flowingtone。\" Thealookedintentlyatthemusic。\"Isee,\"shesaiddully。\"Oh,Isee!\"sherepeatedquicklyandturnedtohimaglowingcountenance。\"Itistheriver。——Oh,yes,Igetitnow!\"Shelookedathimbutlongenoughtocatch hisglance,thenturnedtothepianoagain。Harsanyiwasneverquitesurewherethelightcamefromwhenherfacesuddenlyflashedoutathiminthatway。Hereyesweretoosmalltoaccountforit,thoughtheyglitteredlikegreeniceinthesun。Atsuchmomentsherhairwasyellower,herskinwhiter,hercheekspinker,asifalamphadsuddenlybeenturnedupinsideofher。Shewentatthesongagain: \"ICHWEISSNICHT,WASSOLLESBEDEUTEN,DASICHSOTRAURIGBIN。\" Akindofhappinessvibratedinhervoice。Harsanyino— ticedhowmuchandhowunhesitatinglyshechangedherdeliveryofthewholesong,thefirstpartaswellasthelast。 Hehadoftennoticedthatshecouldnotthinkathingoutinpassages。Untilshesawitasawhole,shewanderedlikeablindmansurroundedbytorments。Aftersheoncehadher\"revelation,\"aftershegottheideathattoher——notalwaystohim——explainedeverything,thenshewentfor— wardrapidly。Butshewasnotalwayseasytohelp。Shewassometimesimpervioustosuggestion;shewouldstareathimasifsheweredeafandignoreeverythinghetoldhertodo。Then,allatonce,somethingwouldhappeninherbrainandshewouldbegintodoallthathehadbeenforweekstellinghertodo,withoutrealizingthathehadevertoldher。 To—nightTheaforgotHarsanyiandhisfinger。Shefinishedthesongonlytobeginitwithfreshenthusiasm。 \"UNDDASHATMITIHREMSINGEN DIELORELEIGETHAN。\" ShesattheresingingituntilthedarkeningroomwassofloodedwithitthatHarsanyithrewopenawindow。 \"Youreallymuststopit,MissKronborg。Ishan’tbeabletogetitoutofmyheadto—night。\" Thealaughedtolerantlyasshebegantogatheruphermusic。\"Why,Ithoughtyouhadgone,Mr。Harsanyi。I likethatsong。\" ThateveningatdinnerHarsanyisatlookingintentlyintoaglassofheavyyellowwine;boringintoit,indeed,withhisoneeye,whenhisfacesuddenlybrokeintoasmile。 \"Whatisit,Andor?\"hiswifeasked。 Hesmiledagain,thistimeather,andtookupthenut— crackersandaBrazilnut。\"Doyouknow,\"hesaidinatonesointimateandconfidentialthathemighthavebeenspeakingtohimself,——\"doyouknow,IliketoseeMissKronborggetholdofanidea。Inspiteofbeingsotalented,she’snotquick。Butwhenshedoesgetanidea,itfillsheruptotheeyes。ShehadmyroomsoreekingofasongthisafternoonthatIcouldn’tstaythere。\" Mrs。Harsanyilookedupquickly,\"`DieLorelei,’youmean?Onecouldn’tthinkofanythingelseanywhereinthehouse。Ithoughtshewaspossessed。Butdon’tyouthinkhervoiceiswonderfulsometimes?\" Harsanyitastedhiswineslowly。\"Mydear,I’vetoldyoubeforethatIdon’tknowwhatIthinkaboutMissKronborg,exceptthatI’mgladtherearenottwoofher。