第20章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:10258更新时间:19/01/07 15:03:41
PARTIII STUPIDFACES I Somanygrinning,stupidfaces!TheawassittingbythewindowinBowers’sstudio,waitingforhimtocomebackfromlunch。Onherkneewasthelatestnumberofanillustratedmusicaljournalinwhichmusiciansgreatandlittlestridentlyadvertisedtheirwares。Everyafternoonsheplayedaccompanimentsforpeoplewholookedandsmiledlikethese。Shewasgettingtiredofthehumancountenance。 TheahadbeeninChicagofortwomonths。Shehadasmallchurchpositionwhichpartlypaidherlivingex— penses,andshepaidforhersinginglessonsbyplayingBowers’saccompanimentseveryafternoonfromtwountilsix。ShehadbeencompelledtoleaveheroldfriendsMrs。 LorchandMrs。Andersen,becausethelongridefromNorthChicagotoBowers’sstudioonMichiganAvenuetooktoomuchtime——anhourinthemorning,andatnight,whenthecarswerecrowded,anhourandahalf。Forthefirstmonthshehadclungtoheroldroom,butthebadairinthecars,attheendofalongday’swork,fatiguedhergreatlyandwasbadforhervoice。SincesheleftMrs。 Lorch,shehadbeenstayingatastudents’clubtowhichshewasintroducedbyMissAdler,Bowers’smorningac— companist,anintelligentJewishgirlfromEvanston。 TheatookherlessonfromBowerseverydayfromeleven—thirtyuntiltwelve。ThenshewentouttolunchwithanItaliangrammarunderherarm,andcamebacktothestudiotobeginherworkattwo。Intheafternoon Bowerscoachedprofessionalsandtaughthisadvancedpupils。ItwashistheorythatTheaoughttobeabletolearnagreatdealbykeepingherearsopenwhilesheplayedforhim。 Theconcert—goingpublicofChicagostillremembersthelong,sallow,discontentedfaceofMadisonBowers。Heseldommissedaneveningconcert,andwasusuallytobeseenloungingsomewhereatthebackoftheconcerthall,readinganewspaperorreview,andconspicuouslyignoringtheeffortsoftheperformers。Attheendofanumberhelookedupfromhispaperlongenoughtosweeptheap— plaudingaudiencewithacontemptuouseye。Hisfacewasintelligent,withanarrowlowerjaw,athinnose,fadedgrayeyes,andaclose—cutbrownmustache。Hishairwasiron—gray,thinanddead—looking。Hewenttoconcertschieflytosatisfyhimselfastohowbadlythingsweredoneandhowgulliblethepublicwas。Hehatedthewholeraceofartists;theworktheydid,thewagestheygot,andthewaytheyspenttheirmoney。Hisfather,oldHiramBowers,wasstillaliveandatwork,agenialoldchoirmasterinBos— ton,fullofenthusiasmatseventy。ButMadisonwasofthecolderstuffofhisgrandfathers,alonglineofNewHamp— shirefarmers;hardworkers,closetraders,withgoodminds,meannatures,andflintyeyes。AsaboyMadisonhadafinebarytonevoice,andhisfathermadegreatsacrificesforhim,sendinghimtoGermanyatanearlyageandkeep— inghimabroadathisstudiesforyears。Madisonworkedunderthebestteachers,andafterwardsanginEnglandinoratorio。Hiscoldnatureandacademicmethodswereagainsthim。Hisaudienceswerealwaysawareofthecontempthefeltforthem。Adozenpoorersingerssuc— ceeded,butBowersdidnot。 Bowershadallthequalitieswhichgotomakeagoodteacher——exceptgenerosityandwarmth。Hisintelligencewasofahighorder,histasteneveratfault。Heseldomworkedwithavoicewithoutimprovingit,andinteach— ingthedeliveryoforatoriohewaswithoutarival。Sing— erscamefromfarandneartostudyBachandHandelwithhim。EventhefashionablesopranosandcontraltosofChicago,St。Paul,andSt。Louis(theywereusuallyladieswithveryrichhusbands,andBowerscalledthemthe\"pamperedjadesofAsia\")humblyenduredhissardonichumorforthesakeofwhathecoulddoforthem。Hewasnotatallabovehelpingaverylamesingeracross,ifherhusband’scheck—bookwarrantedit。Hehadawholebagoftricksforstupidpeople,\"life—preservers,\"hecalledthem。\"Cheaprepairsforacheap’un,\"heusedtosay,butthehusbandsneverfoundtherepairsverycheap。 Thosewerethedayswhenlumbermen’sdaughtersandbrewers’wivescontendedinsong;studiedinGermanyandthenfloatedfromSANGERFESTtoSANGERFEST。Choralso— cietiesflourishedinalltherichlakecitiesandrivercities。 ThesoloistscametoChicagotocoachwithBowers,andheoftentooklongjourneystohearandinstructachorus。 Hewasintenselyavaricious,andfromthesesemi—profes— sionalshereapedagoldenharvest。Theyfedhispocketsandtheyfedhisever—hungrycontempt,hisscornofhim— selfandhisaccomplices。Themoremoneyhemade,themoreparsimonioushebecame。Hiswifewassoshabbythatsheneverwentanywherewithhim,whichsuitedhimexactly。Becausehisclientswereluxuriousandextrava— gant,hetookarevengefulpleasureinhavinghisshoeshalf— soledasecondtime,andingettingthelastwearoutofabrokencollar。HehadfirstbeeninterestedinTheaKron— borgbecauseofherbluntness,hercountryroughness,andhermanifestcarefulnessaboutmoney。ThementionofHarsanyi’snamealwaysmadehimpullawryface。ForthefirsttimeTheahadafriendwho,inhisowncoolandguardedway,likedherforwhateverwasleastadmirableinher。 Theawasstilllookingatthemusicalpaper,hergrammarunopenedonthewindow—sill,whenBowerssaunteredin alittlebeforetwoo’clock。Hewassmokingacheapcigar— etteandworethesamesoftfelthathehadwornalllastwinter。Henevercarriedacaneorworegloves。 Theafollowedhimfromthereception—roomintothestudio。\"Imaycutmylessonoutto—morrow,Mr。Bowers。 Ihavetohuntanewboarding—place。\" Bowerslookeduplanguidlyfromhisdeskwherehehadbeguntogooverapileofletters。\"What’sthematterwiththeStudioClub?Beenfightingwiththemagain?\" \"TheClub’sallrightforpeoplewholiketolivethatway。Idon’t。\" Bowersliftedhiseyebrows。\"Whysotempery?\"heaskedashedrewacheckfromanenvelopepostmarked\"Minneapolis。\" \"Ican’tworkwithalotofgirlsaround。They’retoofamiliar。Inevercouldgetalongwithgirlsofmyownage。It’salltoochummy。Getsonmynerves。I didn’tcomeheretoplaykindergartengames。\"Theabeganenergeticallytoarrangethescatteredmusiconthepiano。 Bowersgrimacedgood—humoredlyatheroverthethreecheckshewaspinningtogether。Helikedtoplayataroughgameofbanterwithher。Heflatteredhimselfthathehadmadeherharsherthanshewaswhenshefirstcametohim;thathehadgotoffalittleofthesugar—coatingHarsanyialwaysputonhispupils。 \"Theartofmakingyourselfagreeablenevercomesamiss,MissKronborg。Ishouldsayyouratherneedalittlepracticealongthatline。Whenyoucometomarket— ingyourwaresintheworld,alittlesmoothnessgoesfartherthanagreatdealoftalentsometimes。Ifyouhap— pentobecursedwitharealtalent,thenyou’vegottobeverysmoothindeed,oryou’llnevergetyourmoneyback。\" Bowerssnappedtheelasticbandaroundhisbank—book。 Theagavehimasharp,recognizingglance。\"Well,that’sthemoneyI’llhavetogowithout,\"shereplied。 \"Justwhatdoyoumean?\" \"Imeanthemoneypeoplehavetogrinfor。Iusedtoknowarailroadmanwhosaidtherewasmoneyineveryprofessionthatyoucouldn’ttake。He’dtriedagoodmanyjobs,\"Theaaddedmusingly;\"perhapshewastooparticularaboutthekindhecouldtake,forheneverpickedupmuch。Hewasproud,butIlikedhimforthat。\" Bowersroseandclosedhisdesk。\"Mrs。Priestislateagain。Bytheway,MissKronborg,remembernottofrownwhenyouareplayingforMrs。Priest。Youdidnotre— memberyesterday。\" \"Youmeanwhenshehitsatonewithherbreathlikethat?Whydoyoulether?Youwouldn’tletme。\" \"Icertainlywouldnot。ButthatisamannerismofMrs。Priest’s。Thepubliclikeit,andtheypayagreatdealofmoneyforthepleasureofhearingherdoit。Theresheis。Remember!\" Bowersopenedthedoorofthereception—roomandatall,imposingwomanrustledin,bringingwithheraglowofanimationwhichpervadedtheroomasifhalfadozenpersons,alltalkinggayly,hadcomeininsteadofone。Shewaslarge,handsome,expansive,uncontrolled;onefeltthisthemomentshecrossedthethreshold。Sheshonewithcareandcleanliness,maturevigor,unchallengedauthority,graciousgood—humor,andabsoluteconfidenceinherper— son,herpowers,herposition,andherwayoflife;aglowing,overwhelmingself—satisfaction,onlytobefoundwherehumansocietyisyoungandstrongandwithoutyesterdays。 Herfacehadakindofheavy,thoughtlessbeauty,likeapinkpeonyjustatthepointofbeginningtofade。Herbrownhairwaswavedinfrontanddoneupbehindinagreattwist,heldbyatortoiseshellcombwithgoldfili— gree。Sheworeabeautifullittlegreenhatwiththreelonggreenfeathersstickingstraightupinfront,alittlecapemadeofvelvetandfurwithayellowsatinroseonit。Hergloves,hershoes,herveil,somehowmadethemselvesfelt。 Shegavetheimpressionofwearingacargoofsplendidmerchandise。 Mrs。PriestnoddedgraciouslytoThea,coquettishlytoBowers,andaskedhimtountieherveilforher。Shethrewhersplendidwraponachair,theyellowliningout。 Theawasalreadyatthepiano。Mrs。Prieststoodbehindher。 \"`RejoiceGreatly’first,please。Andpleasedon’thurryitinthere,\"sheputherarmoverThea’sshoulder,andindicatedthepassagebyasweepofherwhiteglove。Shethrewoutherchest,claspedherhandsoverherabdomen,liftedherchin,workedthemusclesofhercheeksbackandforthforamoment,andthenbeganwithconviction,\"Re—jo—oice!Re—jo—oice!\" Bowerspacedtheroomwithhiscatliketread。WhenhecheckedMrs。Priest’svehemenceatall,hehandledherroughly;pokedandhammeredhermassivepersonwithcoldsatisfaction,almostasifheweretakingoutagrudgeonthissplendidcreation。Suchtreatmenttheimposingladydidnotatallresent。Shetriedharderandharder,hereyesgrowingallthewhilemorelustrousandherlipsredder。 Theaplayedonasshewastold,ignoringthesinger’sstruggles。 WhenshefirstheardMrs。Priestsinginchurch,Theaadmiredher。Sinceshehadfoundouthowdullthegood— naturedsopranoreallywas,shefeltadeepcontemptforher。ShefeltthatMrs。Priestoughttobereprovedandevenpunishedforhershortcomings;thatsheoughttobeexposed,——atleasttoherself,——andnotbepermittedtoliveandshineinhappyignoranceofwhatapoorthingitwasshebroughtacrosssoradiantly。Thea’scoldlooksofreproofwerelostuponMrs。Priest;althoughtheladydidmurmuronedaywhenshetookBowershomeinhercarriage,\"Howhandsomeyourafternoongirlwouldbeifshedidnothavethatunfortunatesquint;itgivesherthatvacantSwedelook,likeananimal。\"Thatamused Bowers。Helikedtowatchthegerminationandgrowthofantipathies。 OneofthefirstdisappointmentsTheahadtofacewhenshereturnedtoChicagothatfall,wasthenewsthattheHarsanyiswerenotcomingback。TheyhadspentthesummerinacampintheAdirondacksandweremovingtoNewYork。AnoldteacherandfriendofHarsanyi’s,oneofthebest—knownpianoteachersinNewYork,wasabouttoretirebecauseoffailinghealthandhadarrangedtoturnhispupilsovertoHarsanyi。AndorwastogivetworecitalsinNewYorkinNovember,todevotehim— selftohisnewstudentsuntilspring,andthentogoonashortconcerttour。TheHarsanyishadtakenafurnishedapartmentinNewYork,astheywouldnotattempttosettleaplaceoftheirownuntilAndor’srecitalswereover。 ThefirstofDecember,however,TheareceivedanotefromMrs。Harsanyi,askinghertocallattheoldstudio,whereshewaspackingtheirgoodsforshipment。 Themorningafterthisinvitationreachedher,Theaclimbedthestairsandknockedatthefamiliardoor。Mrs。 Harsanyiherselfopenedit,andembracedhervisitorwarmly。TakingTheaintothestudio,whichwaslitteredwithexcelsiorandpacking—cases,shestoodholdingherhandandlookingatherinthestronglightfromthebigwindowbeforesheallowedhertositdown。Herquickeyesawmanychanges。Thegirlwastaller,herfigurehadbe— comedefinite,hercarriagepositive。Shehadgotusedtolivinginthebodyofayoungwoman,andshenolongertriedtoignoreitandbehaveasifshewerealittlegirl。 Withthatincreasedindependenceofbodytherehadcomeachangeinherface;anindifference,somethinghardandskeptical。Herclothes,too,weredifferent,liketheattireofashopgirlwhotriestofollowthefashions;apurplesuit,apieceofcheapfur,athree—corneredpurplehatwithapomponstickingupinfront。Thequeercountryclothes sheusedtowearsuitedhermuchbetter,Mrs。Harsanyithought。Butsuchtrifles,afterall,wereaccidentalandremediable。Sheputherhandonthegirl’sstrongshoulder。 \"Howmuchthesummerhasdoneforyou!Yes,youareayoungladyatlast。Andorwillbesogladtohearaboutyou。\" Thealookedaboutatthedisorderofthefamiliarroom。 Thepictureswerepiledinacorner,thepianoandtheCHAISELONGUEweregone。\"IsupposeIoughttobegladyouhavegoneaway,\"shesaid,\"butI’mnot。It’safinethingforMr。Harsanyi,Isuppose。\" Mrs。Harsanyigaveheraquickglancethatsaidmorethanwords。\"IfyouknewhowlongIhavewantedtogethimawayfromhere,MissKronborg!Heisnevertired,neverdiscouraged,now。\" Theasighed。\"I’mgladforthat,then。\"Hereyestraveledoverthefaintdiscolorationsonthewallswherethepictureshadhung。\"Imayrunawaymyself。Idon’tknowwhetherIcanstanditherewithoutyou。\" \"WehopethatyoucancometoNewYorktostudybeforeverylong。Wehavethoughtofthat。AndyoumusttellmehowyouaregettingonwithBowers。Andorwillwanttoknowallaboutit。\" \"IguessIgetonmoreorless。ButIdon’tlikemyworkverywell。ItneverseemsseriousasmyworkwithMr。 Harsanyidid。IplayBowers’saccompanimentsintheafternoons,youknow。IthoughtIwouldlearnagooddealfromthepeoplewhoworkwithhim,butIdon’tthinkIgetmuch。\" Mrs。Harsanyilookedatherinquiringly。Theatookoutacarefullyfoldedhandkerchieffromthebosomofherdressandbegantodrawthecornersapart。\"Singingdoesn’tseemtobeaverybrainyprofession,Mrs。Har— sanyi,\"shesaidslowly。\"ThepeopleIseenowarenotabitliketheonesIusedtomeethere。Mr。Harsanyi’spupils,eventhedumbones,hadmore——well,moreof everything,itseemstome。ThepeopleIhavetoplayaccompanimentsforarediscouraging。Theprofessionals,likeKatharinePriestandMilesMurdstone,areworstofall。IfIhavetoplay`TheMessiah’muchlongerforMrs。 Priest,I’llgooutofmymind!\"Theabroughtherfootdownsharplyonthebarefloor。 Mrs。Harsanyilookeddownatthefootinperplexity。 \"Youmustn’twearsuchhighheels,mydear。Theywillspoilyourwalkandmakeyoumincealong。Can’tyouatleastlearntoavoidwhatyoudislikeinthesesingers?I wasneverabletocareforMrs。Priest’ssinging。\" Theawassittingwithherchinlowered。Withoutmov— ingherheadshelookedupatMrs。Harsanyiandsmiled; asmilemuchtoocoldanddesperatetobeseenonayoungface,Mrs。Harsanyifelt。\"Mrs。Harsanyi,itseemstomethatwhatIlearnisjustTODISLIKE。Idislikesomuchandsohardthatittiresmeout。I’vegotnoheartforany— thing。\"Shethrewupherheadsuddenlyandsatindefi— ance,herhandclenchedonthearmofthechair。\"Mr。 Harsanyicouldn’tstandthesepeopleanhour,Iknowhecouldn’t。He’dputthemrightoutofthewindowthere,frizzesandfeathersandall。Now,takethatnewsopranothey’reallmakingsuchafussabout,JessieDarcey。She’sgoingontourwithasymphonyorchestraandshe’swork— ingupherrepertorywithBowers。She’ssingingsomeSchumannsongsMr。Harsanyiusedtogooverwithme。 Well,Idon’tknowwhatheWOULDdoifheheardher。\" \"Butifyourownworkgoeswell,andyouknowthesepeoplearewrong,whydoyouletthemdiscourageyou?\" Theashookherhead。\"That’sjustwhatIdon’tunder— standmyself。Only,afterI’veheardthemallafternoon,I comeoutfrozenup。Somehowittakestheshineoffofeverything。PeoplewantJessieDarceyandthekindofthingshedoes;sowhat’stheuse?\" Mrs。Harsanyismiled。\"Thatstileyoumustsimplyvaultover。Youmustnotbegintofretaboutthesuc— cessesofcheappeople。Afterall,whathavetheytodowithyou?\" \"Well,ifIhadsomebodylikeMr。Harsanyi,perhapsI wouldn’tfretaboutthem。Hewastheteacherforme。 Pleasetellhimso。\" ThearoseandMrs。Harsanyitookherhandagain。\"I amsorryyouhavetogothroughthistimeofdiscourage— ment。IwishAndorcouldtalktoyou,hewouldunder— standitsowell。ButIfeellikeurgingyoutokeepclearofMrs。PriestandJessieDarceyandalltheirworks。\" Thealaugheddiscordantly。\"Nouseurgingme。Idon’tgetonwiththemATALL。Myspinegetslikeasteelrailwhentheycomenearme。Ilikedthematfirst,youknow。Theirclothesandtheirmannersweresofine,andMrs。PriestIS handsome。ButnowIkeepwantingtotellthemhowstupidtheyare。Seemsliketheyoughttobeinformed,don’tyouthinkso?\"TherewasaflashoftheshrewdgrinthatMrs。Harsanyiremembered。Theapressedherhand。 \"Imustgonow。Ihadtogivemylessonhourthismorn— ingtoaDuluthwomanwhohascomeontocoach,andI mustgoandplay`OnMightyPens’forher。PleasetellMr。HarsanyithatIthinkoratorioisagreatchanceforbluffers。\" Mrs。Harsanyidetainedher。\"Buthewillwanttoknowmuchmorethanthataboutyou。Youarefreeatseven? Comebackthisevening,then,andwewillgotodinnersomewhere,tosomecheerfulplace。Ithinkyouneedaparty。\" Theabrightened。\"Oh,Ido!I’lllovetocome;thatwillbelikeoldtimes。Yousee,\"shelingeredamoment,soft— ening,\"Iwouldn’tmindiftherewereonlyONEofthemI couldreallyadmire。\" \"HowaboutBowers?\"Mrs。Harsanyiaskedastheywereapproachingthestairway。 \"Well,there’snothingheloveslikeagoodfakir,andnothinghehateslikeagoodartist。Ialwaysremember somethingMr。Harsanyisaidabouthim。HesaidBowerswasthecoldmuffinthathadbeenleftontheplate。\" Mrs。Harsanyistoppedshortattheheadofthestairsandsaiddecidedly:\"IthinkAndormadeamistake。I can’tbelievethatistherightatmosphereforyou。Itwouldhurtyoumorethanmostpeople。It’sallwrong。\" \"Something’swrong,\"Theacalledbackassheclattereddownthestairsinherhighheels。 II DURINGthatwinterThealivedinsomanyplacesthatsometimesatnightwhensheleftBowers’sstudioandemergedintothestreetshehadtostopandthinkforamomenttorememberwhereshewaslivingnowandwhatwasthebestwaytogetthere。 Whenshemovedintoanewplacehereyeschallengedthebeds,thecarpets,thefood,themistressofthehouse。Theboarding—houseswerewretchedlyconductedandThea’scomplaintssometimestookaninsultingform。 Shequarreledwithonelandladyafteranotherandmovedon。Whenshemovedintoanewroom,shewasalmostsuretohateitonsightandtobeginplanningtohuntanotherplacebeforesheunpackedhertrunk。Shewasmoodyandcontemptuoustowardherfellowboarders,excepttowardtheyoungmen,whomshetreatedwithacarelessfamiliaritywhichtheyusuallymisunderstood。 Theylikedher,however,andwhensheleftthehouseafterastorm,theyhelpedhertomoveherthingsandcametoseeheraftershegotsettledinanewplace。Butshemovedsooftenthattheysoonceasedtofollowher。Theycouldseenoreasonforkeepingupwithagirlwho,underherjocularity,wascold,self—centered,andunimpression— able。Theysoonfeltthatshedidnotadmirethem。 Theausedtowakenupinthenightandwonderwhyshewassounhappy。ShewouldhavebeenamazedifshehadknownhowmuchthepeoplewhomshemetinBowers’sstudiohadtodowithherlowspirits。Shehadneverbeenconsciousofthoseinstinctivestandardswhicharecalledideals,andshedidnotknowthatshewassufferingforthem。Sheoftenfoundherselfsneeringwhenshewasonastreet—car,orwhenshewasbrushingoutherhairbefore hermirror,assomeinaneremarkortoofamiliarmanner— ismflittedacrosshermind。 Shefeltnocreaturekindness,notolerantgood—willforMrs。PriestorJessieDarcey。AfteroneofJessieDar— cey’sconcertstheglowingpressnotices,andtheadmiringcommentsthatfloatedaboutBowers’sstudio,causedTheabitterunhappiness。Itwasnotthetormentofper— sonaljealousy。ShehadneverthoughtofherselfasevenapossiblerivalofMissDarcey。Shewasapoormusicstudent,andJessieDarceywasapopularandpettedprofessional。Mrs。Priest,whateveroneheldagainsther,hadafine,big,showyvoiceandanimpressivepresence。 Shereadindifferently,wasinaccurate,andwasalwaysputtingotherpeoplewrong,butsheatleasthadthematerialoutofwhichsingerscanbemade。ButpeopleseemedtolikeJessieDarceyexactlybecauseshecouldnotsing;because,astheyputit,shewas\"sonaturalandunprofessional。\"Hersingingwaspronounced\"artless,\" hervoice\"birdlike。\"MissDarceywasthinandawkwardinperson,withasharp,sallowface。Theanoticedthatherplainnesswasaccountedtohercredit,andthatpeoplespokeofitaffectionately。MissDarceywassing— ingeverywherejustthen;onecouldnothelphearingabouther。Shewasbackedbysomeofthepacking—housepeopleandbytheChicagoNorthwesternRailroad。Onlyonecriticraisedhisvoiceagainsther。TheawenttoseveralofJessieDarcey’sconcerts。Itwasthefirsttimeshehadhadanopportunitytoobservethewhimsofthepublicwhichsingerslivebyinteresting。ShesawthatpeoplelikedinMissDarceyeveryqualityasingeroughtnottohave,andespeciallythenervouscomplacencythatstampedherasacommonplaceyoungwoman。TheyseemedtohaveawarmerfeelingforJessiethanforMrs。 Priest,anaffectionateandcherishingregard。ChicagowasnotsoverydifferentfromMoonstone,afterall,andJessieDarceywasonlyLilyFisherunderanothername。 TheaparticularlyhatedtoaccompanyforMissDarceybecauseshesangoffpitchanddidn’tminditintheleast。 Itwasexcruciatingtosittheredayafterdayandhearher; therewassomethingshamelessandindecentaboutnotsingingtrue。 OnemorningMissDarceycamebyappointmenttogoovertheprogrammeforherPeoriaconcert。Shewassuchafrail—lookinggirlthatTheaoughttohavefeltsorryforher。True,shehadanarch,sprightlylittlemanner,andaflashofsalmon—pinkoneitherbrowncheek。Butanar— rowupperjawgaveherfaceapinchedlook,andhereye— lidswereheavyandrelaxed。Bythemorninglight,thepurplishbrowncirclesunderhereyeswerepatheticenough,andforetoldnolongorbrilliantfuture。Asingerwithapoordigestionandlowvitality;sheneedednoseertocastherhoroscope。IfTheahadevertakenthepainstostudyher,shewouldhaveseenthat,underallhersmilesandarchness,poorMissDarceywasreallyfrightenedtodeath。 ShecouldnotunderstandhersuccessanymorethanTheacould;shekeptcatchingherbreathandliftinghereye— browsandtryingtobelievethatitwastrue。Herloqua— citywasnotnatural,sheforcedherselftoit,andwhensheconfidedtoyouhowmanydefectsshecouldovercomebyherunusualcommandofheadresonance,shewasnotsomuchtryingtopersuadeyouastopersuadeherself。 Whenshetookanotethatwashighforher,MissDarceyalwaysputherrighthandoutintotheair,asifshewereindicatingheight,orgivinganexactmeasurement。Someearlyteacherhadtoldherthatshecould\"place\"atonemoresurelybythehelpofsuchagesture,andshefirmlybelievedthatitwasofgreatassistancetoher。(Evenwhenshewassinginginpublic,shekeptherrighthanddownwithdifficulty,nervouslyclaspingherwhitekidfingerstogetherwhenshetookahighnote。Theacouldalwaysseeherelbowsstiffen。)Sheunvaryinglyexecutedthisgesturewithasmileofgraciousconfidence,asifshewere