第26章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:9559更新时间:19/01/07 15:03:41
Attheendoftwo,hewasdrinkingandinopenrebellion。 Hehadlearnedtodetesthiswife。Herwastefulnessandcrueltyrevoltedhim。Theignoranceandthefatuouscon— ceitwhichlaybehindhergrimacingmaskofslangandridiculehumiliatedhimsodeeplythathebecameabsolutelyreckless。Hergracewasonlyanuneasywriggle,herauda— citywastheresultofinsolenceandenvy,andherwitwasrestlessspite。Asherpersonalmannerismsgrewmoreandmoreodioustohim,hebegantodullhisperceptionswithchampagne。Hehaditfortea,hedrankitwithdinner,andduringtheeveninghetookenoughtoinsurethathewouldbewellinsulatedwhenhegothome。Thisbehaviorspreadalarmamonghisfriends。Itwasscandalous,anditdidnotoccuramongbrewers。HewasviolatingtheNOBLESSEOBLIGE ofhisguild。Hisfatherandhisfather’spartnerslookedalarmed。 WhenFred’smotherwenttohimandwithclaspedhandsentreatedanexplanation,hetoldherthattheonlytroublewasthathecouldn’tholdenoughwinetomakelifeendur— able,sohewasgoingtogetoutfromunderandenlistinthenavy。Hedidn’twantanythingbuttheshirtonhisbackandcleansaltair。Hismothercouldlookout;hewasgoingtomakeascandal。 Mrs。OttoOttenburgwenttoKansasCitytoseeMr。 Beers,andhadthesatisfactionoftellinghimthathehadbroughtuphisdaughterlikeasavage,EINEUNGEBILDETE。AlltheOttenburgsandalltheBeers,andmanyoftheirfriends,weredrawnintothequarrel。Itwastopublicopinion,how— everandnottohismother’sactivities,thatFredowedhispartialescapefrombondage。ThecosmopolitanbrewingworldofSt。Louishadconservativestandards。TheOtten— burgs’friendswerenotpredisposedinfavoroftheplungingKansasCityset,andtheydislikedyoungFred’swifefrom thedaythatshewasbroughtamongthem。Theyfoundherignorantandill—bredandinsufferablyimpertinent。WhentheybecameawareofhowmattersweregoingbetweenherandFred,theyomittednoopportunitytosnubher。YoungFredhadalwaysbeenpopular,andSt。Louispeopletookuphiscausewithwarmth。Eventheyoungermen,amongwhomMrs。Fredtriedtodraftafollowing,atfirstavoidedandthenignoredher。Herdefeatwassoconspicuous,herlifebecamesuchadesert,thatsheatlastconsentedtoacceptthehouseinSantaBarbarawhichMrs。OttoOtten— burghadlongownedandcherished。Thisvilla,withitsluxuriantgardens,wasthepriceofFred’sfurlough。Hismotherwasonlytoogladtoofferitinhisbehalf。AssoonashiswifewasestablishedinCalifornia,Fredwastrans— ferredfromSt。LouistoChicago。 AdivorcewastheonethingEdithwouldnever,never,givehim。Shetoldhimso,andshetoldhisfamilyso,andherfatherstoodbehindher。Shewouldenterintonoarrangementthatmighteventuallyleadtodivorce。Shehadinsultedherhusbandbeforeguestsandservants,hadscratchedhisface,thrownhand—mirrorsandhairbrushesandnail—scissorsathimoftenenough,butsheknewthatFredwashardlythefellowwhowouldgointocourtandofferthatsortofevidence。Inherbehaviorwithothermenshewasdiscreet。 AfterFredwenttoChicago,hismothervisitedhimoften,anddroppedawordtoheroldfriendsthere,whowerealreadykindlydisposedtowardtheyoungman。Theygossipedaslittleaswascompatiblewiththeinteresttheyfelt,undertooktomakelifeagreeableforFred,andtoldhisstoryonlywheretheyfeltitwoulddogood:togirlswhoseemedtofindtheyoungbrewerattractive。Sofar,hehadbehavedwell,andhadkeptoutofentanglements。 SincehewastransferredtoChicago,Fredhadbeenabroadseveraltimes,andhadfallenmoreandmoreintothewayofgoingaboutamongyoungartists,——peoplewith whompersonalrelationswereincidental。Withwomen,andevengirls,whohadcareerstofollow,ayoungmanmighthavepleasantfriendshipswithoutbeingregardedasapro— spectivesuitororlover。Amongartistshispositionwasnotirregular,becausewiththemhismarriageablenesswasnotanissue。Histastes,hisenthusiasm,andhisagreeablepersonalitymadehimwelcome。 WithTheaKronborghehadallowedhimselfmorelib— ertythanheusuallydidinhisfriendshipsorgallantrieswithyoungartists,becausesheseemedtohimdistinctlynotthemarryingkind。Sheimpressedhimasequippedtobeanartist,andtobenothingelse;alreadydirected,con— centrated,formedastomentalhabit。Hewasgenerousandsympathetic,andshewaslonelyandneededfriendship; neededcheerfulness。Shehadnotmuchpowerofreachingouttowardusefulpeopleorusefulexperiences,didnotseeopportunities。Shehadnotactaboutgoingaftergoodpositionsorenlistingtheinterestofinfluentialpersons。 Sheantagonizedpeopleratherthanconciliatedthem。Hediscoveredatoncethatshehadamerryside,arobusthumorthatwasdeepandhearty,likeherlaugh,butitsleptmostofthetimeunderherowndoubtsandthedull— nessofherlife。Shehadnotwhatiscalleda\"senseofhumor。\"Thatis,shehadnointellectualhumor;nopowertoenjoytheabsurditiesofpeople,norelishoftheirpreten— tiousnessandinconsistencies——whichonlydepressedher。 Butherjoviality,Fredfelt,wasanasset,andoughttobedeveloped。Hediscoveredthatshewasmorereceptiveandmoreeffectiveunderapleasantstimulusthanshewasunderthegraygrindwhichsheconsideredhersalvation。 ShewasstillMethodistenoughtobelievethatifathingwerehardandirksome,itmustbegoodforher。Andyet,whatevershedidwellwasspontaneous。Undertheleastglowofexcitement,asatMrs。Nathanmeyer’s,hehadseentheapprehensive,frowningdrudgeofBowers’sstudioflashintoaresourcefulandconsciouslybeautifulwoman。 HisinterestinTheawasserious,almostfromthefirst,andsosincerethathefeltnodistrustofhimself。Hebe— lievedthatheknewagreatdealmoreaboutherpossibili— tiesthanBowersknew,andhelikedtothinkthathehadgivenherastrongerholdonlife。Shehadneverseenher— selforknownherselfasshedidatMrs。Nathanmeyer’smusicalevenings。Shehadbeenadifferentgirleversince。 Hehadnotanticipatedthatshewouldgrowmorefondofhimthanhisimmediateusefulnesswarranted。Hethoughtheknewthewaysofartists,and,ashesaid,shemusthavebeen\"atitfromhercradle。\"Hehadimagined,perhaps,butneverreallybelieved,thathewouldfindherwaitingforhimsometimeashefoundherwaitingonthedayhereachedtheBiltmerranch。Oncehefoundherso—— well,hedidnotpretendtobeanythingmoreorlessthanareasonablywell—intentionedyoungman。Alovesickgirloraflirtatiouswomanhecouldhavehandledeasilyenough。Butapersonalitylikethat,unconsciouslyreveal— ingitselfforthefirsttimeundertheexaltationofaper— sonalfeeling,——whatcouldonedobutwatchit?Asheusedtosaytohimself,inrecklessmomentsbackthereinthecanyon,\"Youcan’tputoutasunrise。\"Hehadtowatchit,andthenhehadtoshareit。 Besides,washereallygoingtodoheranyharm?TheLordknewhewouldmarryherifhecould!Marriagewouldbeanincident,notanendwithher;hewassureofthat。 Ifitwerenothe,itwouldbesomeoneelse;someonewhowouldbeaweightaboutherneck,probably;whowouldholdherbackandbeatherdownanddivertherfromthefirstplungeforwhichhefeltshewasgatheringallherener— gies。Hemeanttohelpher,andhecouldnotthinkofanothermanwhowould。Hewentoverhisunmarriedfriends,EastandWest,andhecouldnotthinkofonewhowouldknowwhatshewasdrivingat——orcare。Thecleveroneswereselfish,thekindlyoneswerestupid。 \"Damnit,ifshe’sgoingtofallinlovewithsomebody,it hadbetterbemethananyoftheothers——ofthesortshe’dfind。Gethertiedupwithsomeconceitedasswho’dtrytomakeherover,trainherlikeapuppy!Giveoneof’emabignaturelikethat,andhe’dbehorrified。Hewouldn’tshowhisfaceintheclubsuntilhe’dgoneafterherandcombedherdowntoconformtosomefoolideainhisownhead——puttherebysomeotherwoman,too,hisfirstsweetheartorhisgrandmotheroramaidenaunt。Atleast,Iunderstandher。Iknowwhatsheneedsandwhereshe’sbound,andImeantoseethatshehasafightingchance。\" Hisownconductlookedcrooked,headmitted;butheaskedhimselfwhether,betweenmenandwomen,allwayswerenotmoreorlesscrooked。Hebelievedthosewhicharecalledstraightwerethemostdangerousofall。Theyseemedtohim,forthemostpart,toliebetweenwindowlessstonewalls,andtheirrectitudehadbeenachievedattheexpenseoflightandair。Intheirunquestionedregularitylurkedeverysortofhumancrueltyandmeanness,andeverykindofhumiliationandsuffering。Hewouldratherhaveanywomanhecaredforwoundedthancrushed。Hewoulddeceivehernotonce,hetoldhimselffiercely,butahundredtimes,tokeepherfree。 WhenFredwentbacktotheobservationcaratoneo’clock,aftertheluncheoncall,itwasempty,andhefoundTheaaloneontheplatform。Sheputoutherhand,andmethiseyes。 \"It’sasIsaid。Thingshaveclosedbehindme。Ican’tgoback,soIamgoingon——toMexico?\"Sheliftedherfacewithaneager,questioningsmile。 Fredmetitwithasinkingheart。Hadhereallyhopedshewouldgivehimanotheranswer?Hewouldhavegivenprettymuchanything——Butthere,thatdidnogood。Hecouldgiveonlywhathehad。Thingswerenevercompleteinthisworld;youhadtosnatchatthemastheycameorgo without。Nobodycouldlookintoherfaceanddrawback,nobodywhohadanycourage。Shehadcourageenoughforanything——lookathermouthandchinandeyes!Wherediditcomefrom,thatlight?Howcouldaface,afamiliarface,becomesothepictureofhope,bepaintedwiththeverycolorsofyouth’sexaltation?Shewasright;shewasnotoneofthosewhodrawback。Somepeoplegetonbyavoidingdangers,othersbyridingthroughthem。 Theystoodbytherailinglookingbackatthesandlevels,bothfeelingthatthetrainwassteamingaheadveryfast。 Fred’smindwasaconfusionofimagesandideas。Onlytwothingswerecleartohim:theforceofherdetermination,andthebeliefthat,handicappedashewas,hecoulddobetterbyherthananothermanwoulddo。Heknewhewouldalwaysrememberher,standingtherewiththatex— pectant,forward—lookingsmile,enoughtoturnthefutureintosummer。 EndofPartIV PARTV DR。ARCHIE’SVENTURE I DR。HOWARDARCHIEhadcomedowntoDenverforameetingofthestockholdersintheSanFelipesilvermine。Itwasnotabsolutelynecessaryforhimtocome,buthehadnoverypressingcasesathome。WinterwasclosingdowninMoonstone,andhedreadedthedull— nessofit。Onthe10thdayofJanuary,therefore,hewasregisteredattheBrownPalaceHotel。Onthemorningofthe11thhecamedowntobreakfasttofindthestreetswhiteandtheairthickwithsnow。Awildnorthwesterwasblowingdownfromthemountains,oneofthosebeautifulstormsthatwrapDenverindry,furrysnow,andmakethecityaloadstonetothousandsofmeninthemountainsandontheplains。Thebrakemenoutontheirbox—cars,theminersupintheirdiggings,thelonelyhomesteadersinthesandhillsofYuccaandKitCarsonCounties,begintothinkofDenver,muffledinsnow,fulloffoodanddrinkandgoodcheer,andtoyearnforherwiththatadmirationwhichmakesher,morethanotherAmericancities,anobjectofsentiment。 HowardArchiewasgladhehadgotinbeforethestormcame。Hefeltascheerfulasifhehadreceivedalegacythatmorning,andhegreetedtheclerkwithevengreaterfriendlinessthanusualwhenhestoppedatthedeskforhismail。Inthedining—roomhefoundseveraloldfriendsseatedhereandtherebeforesubstantialbreakfasts:cattle— menandminingengineersfromoddcornersoftheState,alllookingfreshandwellpleasedwiththemselves。Hehad awordwithoneandanotherbeforehesatdownatthelittletablebyawindow,wheretheAustrianheadwaiterstoodattentivelybehindachair。Afterhisbreakfastwasputbeforehim,thedoctorbegantorunoverhisletters。TherewasonedirectedinTheaKronborg’shandwriting,for— wardedfromMoonstone。Hesawwithastonishment,asheputanotherlumpofsugarintohiscup,thatthisletterboreaNewYorkpostmark。HehadknownthatTheawasinMexico,travelingwithsomeChicagopeople,butNewYork,toaDenverman,seemsmuchfartherawaythanMexicoCity。Heputtheletterbehindhisplate,uprightagainstthestemofhiswatergoblet,andlookedatitthoughtfullywhilehedrankhissecondcupofcoffee。HehadbeenalittleanxiousaboutThea;shehadnotwrittentohimforalongwhile。 Ashenevergotgoodcoffeeathome,thedoctoralwaysdrankthreecupsforbreakfastwhenhewasinDenver。 Oscarknewjustwhentobringhimasecondpot,freshandsmoking。\"Andmorecream,Oscar,please。YouknowI likelotsofcream,\"thedoctormurmured,asheopenedthesquareenvelope,markedintheupperright—handcor— ner,\"EverettHouse,UnionSquare。\"Thetextoftheletterwasasfollows:—— DEARDOCTORARCHIE:—— Ihavenotwrittentoyouforalongtime,butithasnotbeenunintentional。Icouldnotwriteyoufrankly,andsoIwouldnotwriteatall。Icanbefrankwithyounow,butnotbyletter。Itisagreatdealtoask,butIwonderifyoucouldcometoNewYorktohelpmeout?Ihavegotintodifficulties,andIneedyouradvice。Ineedyourfriendship。 IamafraidImustevenaskyoutolendmemoney,ifyoucanwithoutseriousinconvenience。IhavetogotoGer— manytostudy,anditcan’tbeputoffanylonger。Myvoiceisready。Needlesstosay,Idon’twantanywordofthistoreachmyfamily。TheyarethelastpeopleIwouldturnto, thoughIlovemymotherdearly。Ifyoucancome,pleasetelegraphmeatthishotel。Don’tdespairofme。I’llmakeituptoyouyet。 Youroldfriend,THEAKRONBORG。 Thisinabold,jaggedhandwritingwithaGothicturntotheletters,——somethingbetweenahighlysophisticatedhandandaveryunsophisticatedone,——notintheleastsmoothorflowing。 Thedoctorbitofftheendofacigarnervouslyandreadtheletterthroughagain,fumblingdistractedlyinhispock— etsformatches,whilethewaiterkepttryingtocallhisattentiontotheboxhehadjustplacedbeforehim。AtlastOscarcameout,asiftheideahadjuststruckhim,\"Matches,sir?\" \"Yes,thankyou。\"Thedoctorslippedacoinintohispalmandrose,crumplingThea’sletterinhishandandthrustingtheothersintohispocketunopened。Hewentbacktothedeskinthelobbyandbeckonedtotheclerk,uponwhosekindnesshethrewhimselfapologetically。 \"Harry,I’vegottopulloutunexpectedly。CalluptheBurlington,willyou,andaskthemtoroutemetoNewYorkthequickestway,andtoletusknow。AskforthehourI’llgetin。Ihavetowire。\" \"Certainly,Dr。Archie。Haveitforyouinaminute。\" Theyoungman’spallid,clean—scrapedfacewasallsympa— theticinterestashereachedforthetelephone。Dr。Archieputouthishandandstoppedhim。 \"Waitaminute。Tellme,first,isCaptainHarrisdownyet?\" \"No,sir。TheCaptainhasn’tcomedownyetthismorning。\" \"I’llwaithereforhim。IfIdon’thappentocatchhim,nailhimandgetme。Thankyou,Harry。\" Thedoctorspokegratefullyandturnedaway。Hebegan topacethelobby,hishandsbehindhim,watchingthebronzeelevatordoorslikeahawk。AtlastCaptainHarrisissuedfromoneofthem,tallandimposing,wearingaStetsonandfiercemustaches,afurcoatonhisarm,asoli— taireglitteringuponhislittlefingerandanotherinhisblacksatinascot。Hewasoneofthegrandoldbluffersofthosegoodolddays。Asgullibleasaschoolboy,hehadmanaged,withhissharpeyeandknowingairandtwistedblondmustaches,topasshimselfoffforanastutefinancier,andtheDenverpapersrespectfullyreferredtohimastheRothschildofCrippleCreek。 Dr。ArchiestoppedtheCaptainonhiswaytobreakfast。 \"Mustseeyouaminute,Captain。Can’twait。WanttosellyousomesharesintheSanFelipe。Gottoraisemoney。\" TheCaptaingrandlybestowedhishatuponaneagerporterwhohadalreadyliftedhisfurcoattenderlyfromhisarmandstoodnursingit。Inremovinghishat,theCap— tainexposedabald,flusheddome,thatchedabouttheearswithyellowishgrayhair。\"Badtimetosell,doctor。YouwanttoholdontoSanFelipe,andbuymore。Whathaveyougottoraise?\" \"Oh,notagreatsum。Fiveorsixthousand。I’vebeenbuyingupcloseandhaverunshort。\" \"Isee,Isee。Well,doctor,you’llhavetoletmegetthroughthatdoor。Iwasoutlastnight,andI’mgoingtogetmybacon,ifyouloseyourmine。\"HeclappedArchieontheshoulderandpushedhimalonginfrontofhim。 \"Comeaheadwithme,andwe’lltalkbusiness。\" Dr。ArchieattendedtheCaptainandwaitedwhilehegavehisorder,takingtheseattheoldpromoterindi— cated。 \"Now,sir,\"theCaptainturnedtohim,\"youdon’twanttosellanything。YoumustbeundertheimpressionthatI’moneofthesedamnedNewEnglandsharksthatgettheirpoundoffleshoffthewidowandorphan。Ifyou’rea littleshort,signanoteandI’llwriteacheck。That’sthewaygentlemendobusiness。IfyouwanttoputupsomeSanFelipeascollateral,lethergo,butIshan’ttouchashareofit。Pensandink,please,Oscar,\"——heliftedalargeforefingertotheAustrian。 TheCaptaintookouthischeckbookandabookofblanknotes,andadjustedhisnose—nippers。HewroteafewwordsinonebookandArchiewroteafewintheother。Thentheyeachtoreacrossperforationsandexchangedslipsofpaper。 \"That’stheway。Savesofficerent,\"theCaptaincom— mentedwithsatisfaction,returningthebookstohispocket。 \"Andnow,Archie,whereareyouoffto?\" \"GottogoEastto—night。AdealwaitingformeinNewYork。\"Dr。Archierose。 TheCaptain’sfacebrightenedashesawOscarapproach— ingwithatray,andhebegantuckingthecornerofhisnapkininsidehiscollar,overhisascot。\"Don’tletthemunloadanythingonyoubackthere,doctor,\"hesaidgen— ially,\"anddon’tletthemrelieveyouofanything,either。 Don’tletthemgetanyCripplestuffoffyou。Wecanman— ageourownsilverouthere,andwe’regoingtotakeitoutbytheton,sir!\" Thedoctorleftthedining—room,andafteranothercon— sultationwiththeclerk,hewrotehisfirsttelegramtoThea:—— MissTheaKronborg,EverettHouse,NewYork。 Willcallatyourhoteleleveno’clockFridaymorning。 Gladtocome。Thankyou。 ARCHIE Hestoodandheardthemessageactuallyclickedoffonthewire,withthefeelingthatshewashearingtheclickattheotherend。Thenhesatdowninthelobbyandwrotea notetohiswifeandonetotheotherdoctorinMoonstone。 Whenheatlastissuedoutintothestorm,itwaswithafeelingofelationratherthanofanxiety。Whateverwaswrong,hecouldmakeitright。Herletterhadpracticallysaidso。 Hetrampedaboutthesnowystreets,fromthebanktotheUnionStation,whereheshovedhismoneyunderthegratingoftheticketwindowasifhecouldnotgetridofitfastenough。HehadneverbeeninNewYork,neverbeenfarthereastthanBuffalo。\"That’sratherashame,\"hereflectedboyishlyasheputthelongticketsinhispocket,\"foramannearlyfortyyearsold。\"However,hethoughtashewalkeduptowardtheclub,hewasonthewholegladthathisfirsttriphadahumaninterest,thathewasgoingforsomething,andbecausehewaswanted。Helovedholi— days。HefeltasifheweregoingtoGermanyhimself。 \"Queer,\"——hewentoveritwiththesnowblowinginhisface,——\"butthatsortofthingismoreinterestingthanminesandmakingyourdailybread。It’sworthpayingouttobeinonit,——forafellowlikeme。Andwhenit’sThea——Oh,Ibackher!\"helaughedaloudasheburstinatthedooroftheAthleticClub,powderedwithsnow。 ArchiesatdownbeforetheNewYorkpapersandranovertheadvertisementsofhotels,buthewastoorestlesstoread。Probablyhehadbettergetanewovercoat,andhewasnotsureabouttheshapeofhiscollars。\"Idon’twanttolookdifferenttoherfromeverybodyelsethere,\" hemused。\"IguessI’llgodownandhaveVanlookmeover。He’llputmeright。\" Soheplungedoutintothesnowagainandstartedforhistailor’s。Whenhepassedaflorist’sshophestoppedandlookedinatthewindow,smiling;hownaturallypleasantthingsrecalledoneanother。Atthetailor’shekeptwhis— tling,\"Flowgently,SweetAfton,\"whileVanDusenad— visedhim,untilthatresourcefultailorandhaberdasherexclaimed,\"Youmusthaveadatebackthere,doctor;you behavelikeabridegroom,\"andmadehimrememberthathewasn’tone。 Beforehelethimgo,VanputhisfingerontheMasonicpininhisclient’slapel。\"Mustn’twearthat,doctor。Verybadformbackthere。\" II FREDOTTENBURG,smartlydressedfortheafter— noon,withalongblackcoatandgaiterswassittinginthedustyparloroftheEverettHouse。Hismannerwasnotinaccordwithhispersonalfreshness,thegoodlinesofhisclothes,andtheshiningsmoothnessofhishair。Hisattitudewasoneofdeepdejection,andhisface,thoughithadthecool,unimpeachablefairnesspossibleonlytoaveryblondyoungman,wasbynomeanshappy。Apageshuffledintotheroomandlookedabout。Whenhemadeoutthedarkfigureinashadowycorner,tracingoverthecarpetpatternwithacane,hedroned,\"Theladysaysyoucancomeup,sir。\" Fredpickeduphishatandglovesandfollowedthecrea— ture,whoseemedanagedboyinuniform,throughdarkcorridorsthatsmelledofoldcarpets。ThepageknockedatthedoorofThea’ssitting—room,andthenwanderedaway。Theacametothedoorwithatelegraminherhand。 SheaskedOttenburgtocomeinandpointedtooneoftheclumsy,sullen—lookingchairsthatwereasthickastheywerehigh。Theroomwasbrownwithtime,darkinspiteoftwowindowsthatopenedonUnionSquare,withdullcurtainsandcarpet,andheavy,respectable—lookingfurni— tureinsombercolors。Theplacewassavedfromutterdis— malnessbyacoalfireundertheblackmarblemantelpiece,——brilliantlyreflectedinalongmirrorthathungbetweenthetwowindows。ThiswasthefirsttimeFredhadseentheroom,andhetookitinquickly,asheputdownhishatandgloves。 Theaseatedherselfatthewalnutwriting—desk,stillholdingtheslipofyellowpaper。\"Dr。Archieiscoming,\" shesaid。\"HewillbehereFridaymorning。\"