第27章

类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:9509更新时间:19/01/07 15:03:41
\"Well,that’sgood,atanyrate,\"hervisitorrepliedwithadeterminedeffortatcheerfulness。Then,turningtothefire,headdedblankly,\"Ifyouwanthim。\" \"OfcourseIwanthim。IwouldneverhaveaskedsuchathingofhimifIhadn’twantedhimagreatdeal。It’saveryexpensivetrip。\"Theaspokeseverely。Thenshewenton,inamildertone。\"Hedoesn’tsayanythingaboutthemoney,butIthinkhiscomingmeansthathecanletmehaveit。\" Fredwasstandingbeforethemantel,rubbinghishandstogethernervously。\"Probably。Youarestilldeterminedtocallonhim?\"HesatdowntentativelyinthechairTheahadindicated。\"Idon’tseewhyyouwon’tborrowfromme,andlethimsignwithyou,forinstance。Thatwouldconstituteaperfectlyregularbusinesstransaction。Icouldbringsuitagainsteitherofyouformymoney。\" Theaturnedtowardhimfromthedesk。\"Wewon’ttakethatupagain,Fred。IshouldhaveadifferentfeelingaboutitifIwentonyourmoney。InawayIshallfeelfreeronDr。Archie’s,andinanotherwayIshallfeelmorebound。 Ishalltryevenharder。\"Shepaused。\"Heisalmostlikemyfather,\"sheaddedirrelevantly。 \"Still,heisn’t,youknow,\"Fredpersisted。\"Itwouldn’tbeanythingnew。I’veloanedmoneytostudentsbefore,andgotitback,too。\" \"Yes;Iknowyou’regenerous,\"Theahurriedoverit,\"butthiswillbethebestway。HewillbehereonFridaydidItellyou?\" \"Ithinkyoumentionedit。That’srathersoon。MayIsmoke?\"hetookoutasmallcigarettecase。\"Isup— poseyou’llbeoffnextweek?\"heaskedashestruckamatch。 \"JustassoonasIcan,\"sherepliedwitharestlessmove— mentofherarms,asifherdark—bluedressweretootightforher。\"ItseemsasifI’dbeenhereforever。\" \"Andyet,\"theyoungmanmused,\"wegotinonlyfour daysago。Factsreallydon’tcountformuch,dothey?It’sallinthewaypeoplefeel:eveninlittlethings。\" Theawinced,butshedidnotanswerhim。Sheputthetelegrambackinitsenvelopeandplaceditcarefullyinoneofthepigeonholesofthedesk。 \"Isuppose,\"Fredbroughtoutwitheffort,\"thatyourfriendisinyourconfidence?\" \"Healwayshasbeen。Ishallhavetotellhimaboutmy— self。IwishIcouldwithoutdraggingyouin。\" Fredshookhimself。\"Don’tbotheraboutwhereyoudragme,please,\"heputin,flushing。\"Idon’tgive——\" hesubsidedsuddenly。 \"I’mafraid,\"Theawentongravely,\"thathewon’tunderstand。He’llbehardonyou。\" Fredstudiedthewhiteashofhiscigarettebeforeheflickeditoff。\"Youmeanhe’llseemeasevenworsethanIam。Yes,IsupposeIshalllookverylowtohim:afifth— ratescoundrel。Butthatonlymattersinsofarasithurtshisfeelings。\" Theasighed。\"We’llbothlookprettylow。Andafterall,wemustreallybejustaboutasweshalllooktohim。\" Ottenburgstartedupandthrewhiscigaretteintothegrate。\"ThatIdeny。Haveyoueverbeenreallyfrankwiththispreceptorofyourchildhood,evenwhenyouWEREachild?Thinkaminute,haveyou?Ofcoursenot!Fromyourcradle,asIoncetoldyou,you’vebeen`doingit’ontheside,livingyourownlife,admittingtoyourselfthingsthatwouldhorrifyhim。You’vealwaysdeceivedhimtotheextentoflettinghimthinkyoudifferentfromwhatyouare。Hecouldn’tunderstandthen,hecan’tunder— standnow。Sowhynotspareyourselfandhim?\" Sheshookherhead。\"Ofcourse,I’vehadmyownthoughts。Maybehehashadhis,too。ButI’veneverdoneanythingbeforethathewouldmuchmind。Imustputmyselfrightwithhim,——asrightasIcan,——tobegin over。He’llmakeallowancesforme。Healwayshas。ButI’mafraidhewon’tforyou。\" \"Leavethattohimandme。Itakeityouwantmetoseehim?\"Fredsatdownagainandbeganabsentlytotracethecarpetpatternwithhiscane。\"Attheworst,\"hespokewanderingly,\"Ithoughtyou’dperhapsletmegoinonthebusinessendofitandinvestalongwithyou。You’dputinyourtalentandambitionandhardwork,andI’dputinthemoneyand——well,nobody’sgoodwishesaretobescorned,notevenmine。Then,whenthethingpannedoutbig,wecouldsharetogether。Yourdoctorfriendhasn’tcaredhalfsomuchaboutyourfutureasIhave。\" \"He’scaredagooddeal。Hedoesn’tknowasmuchaboutsuchthingsasyoudo。Ofcourseyou’vebeenagreatdealmorehelptomethananyoneelseeverhas,\"Theasaidquietly。Theblackclockonthemantelbegantostrike。Shelistenedtothefivestrokesandthensaid,\"I’dhavelikedyourhelpingmeeightmonthsago。Butnow,you’dsimplybekeepingme。\" \"Youweren’treadyforiteightmonthsago。\"Fredleanedbackatlastinhischair。\"Yousimplyweren’treadyforit。Youweretootired。Youweretootimid。Yourwholetonewastoolow。Youcouldn’trisefromachairlikethat,\"——shehadstartedupapprehensivelyandgonetowardthewindow。——\"Youwerefumblingandawkward。 Sincethenyou’vecomeintoyourpersonality。Youwerealwayslockinghornswithitbefore。Youwereasullenlittledrudgeeightmonthsago,afraidofbeingcaughtateitherlookingormovinglikeyourself。Nobodycouldtellanythingaboutyou。Avoiceisnotaninstrumentthat’sfoundready—made。Avoiceispersonality。Itcanbeasbigasacircusandascommonasdirt。——There’sgoodmoneyinthatkind,too,butIdon’thappentobeinterestedinthem。——Nobodycouldtellmuchaboutwhatyoumightbeabletodo,lastwinter。Idivinedmorethananybodyelse。\" \"Yes,Iknowyoudid。\"Theawalkedovertotheold— fashionedmantelandheldherhandsdowntotheglowofthefire。\"Iowesomuchtoyou,andthat’swhatmakesthingshard。That’swhyIhavetogetawayfromyoualtogether。Idependonyouforsomanythings。Oh,Ididevenlastwinter,inChicago!\"Shekneltdownbythegrateandheldherhandsclosertothecoals。\"Andonethingleadstoanother。\" Ottenburgwatchedherasshebenttowardthefire。Hisglancebrightenedalittle。\"Anyhow,youcouldn’tlookasyoudonow,beforeyouknewme。YouWEREclumsy。Andwhateveryoudonow,youdosplendidly。Andyoucan’tcryenoughtospoilyourfaceformorethantenminutes。 Itcomesrightback,inspiteofyou。It’sonlysinceyou’veknownmethatyou’veletyourselfbebeautiful。\" Withoutrisingsheturnedherfaceaway。Fredwentonimpetuously。\"Oh,youcanturnitawayfromme,Thea; youcantakeitawayfromme!Allthesame——\"hisspurtdiedandhefellback。\"Howcanyouturnonmeso,afterall!\"hesighed。 \"Ihaven’t。Butwhenyouarrangedwithyourselftotakemeinlikethat,youcouldn’thavebeenthinkingverykindlyofme。Ican’tunderstandhowyoucarrieditthrough,whenIwassoeasy,andallthecircumstancesweresoeasy。\" Hercrouchingpositionbythefirebecamethreatening。 Fredgotup,andTheaalsorose。 \"No,\"hesaid,\"Ican’tmakeyouseethatnow。Sometimelater,perhaps,youwillunderstandbetter。Foronething,Ihonestlycouldnotimaginethatwords,names,meantsomuchtoyou。\"Fredwastalkingwiththedes— perationofamanwhohasputhimselfinthewrongandwhoyetfeelsthattherewasanideaoftruthinhisconduct。 \"Supposethatyouhadmarriedyourbrakemanandlivedwithhimyearafteryear,caringforhimevenlessthanyoudoforyourdoctor,orforHarsanyi。Isupposeyouwould havefeltquiteallrightaboutit,becausethatrelationhasanameingoodstanding。Tome,thatseems——sickening!\" HetookarapidturnabouttheroomandthenasThearemainedstanding,herolledoneoftheelephantinechairsuptothehearthforher。 \"Sitdownandlistentomeforamoment,Thea。\"Hebeganpacingfromthehearthrugtothewindowandbackagain,whileshesatdowncompliantly。\"Don’tyouknowmostofthepeopleintheworldarenotindividualsatall? Theyneverhaveanindividualideaorexperience。Alotofgirlsgotoboarding—schooltogether,comeoutthesameseason,danceatthesameparties,aremarriedoffingroups,havetheirbabiesataboutthesametime,sendtheirchildrentoschooltogether,andsothehumancroprenewsitself。Suchwomenknowasmuchabouttherealityoftheformstheygothroughastheyknowaboutthewarstheylearnthedatesof。Theygettheirmostper— sonalexperiencesoutofnovelsandplays。Everythingissecond—handwiththem。Why,youCOULDN’Tlivelikethat。\" Theasatlookingtowardthemantel,hereyeshalfclosed,herchinlevel,herheadsetasifshewereenduringsome— thing。Herhands,verywhite,laypassiveonherdarkgown。FromthewindowcornerFredlookedatthemandather。Heshookhisheadandflashedanangry,tormentedlookoutintothebluetwilightovertheSquare,throughwhichmuffledcriesandcallsandtheclangofcarbellscameupfromthestreet。Heturnedagainandbegantopacethefloor,hishandsinhispockets。 \"Saywhatyouwill,TheaKronborg,youarenotthatsortofperson。Youwillneversitalonewithapacifierandanovel。Youwon’tsubsistonwhattheoldladieshaveputintothebottleforyou。Youwillalwaysbreakthroughintotherealities。ThatwasthefirstthingHarsanyifoundoutaboutyou;thatyoucouldn’tbekeptontheoutside。 Ifyou’dlivedinMoonstoneallyourlifeandgotonwiththediscreetbrakeman,you’dhavehadjustthesame nature。Yourchildrenwouldhavebeentherealitiesthen,probably。Ifthey’dbeencommonplace,you’dhavekilledthemwithdriving。You’dhavemanagedsomewaytolivetwentytimesasmuchasthepeoplearoundyou。\" Fredpaused。Hesoughtalongtheshadowyceilingandheavymouldingsforwords。Whenhebeganagain,hisvoicewaslower,andatfirsthespokewithlessconviction,thoughagainitgrewonhim。\"NowIknewallthis——oh,knewitbetterthanIcanevermakeyouunderstand! You’vebeenrunningahandicap。Youhadnotimetolose。 Iwantedyoutohavewhatyouneedandtogetonfast—— getthroughwithme,ifneedbe;Icountedonthat。You’venotimetositroundandanalyzeyourconductoryourfeelings。Otherwomengivetheirwholelivestoit。They’venothingelsetodo。Helpingamantogethisdivorceisacareerforthem;justthesortofintellectualexercisetheylike。\" Freddivedfiercelyintohispocketsasifhewouldripthemoutandscattertheircontentstothewinds。Stop— pingbeforeher,hetookadeepbreathandwentonagain,thistimeslowly。\"Allthatsortofthingisforeigntoyou。You’dbenowhereatit。Youhaven’tthatkindofmind。Thegrammaticalnicetiesofconductaredarktoyou。You’resimple——andpoetic。\"Fred’svoiceseemedtobewanderingaboutinthethickeningdusk。\"Youwon’tplaymuch。Youwon’t,perhaps,lovemanytimes。\"Hepaused。\"Andyoudidloveme,youknow。Yourrailroadfriendwouldhaveunderstoodme。ICOULDhavethrownyouback。Thereversewasthere,——itstaredmeintheface,—— butIcouldn’tpullit。Iletyoudriveahead。\"Hethrewouthishands。WhatTheanoticed,oddlyenough,wastheflashofthefirelightonhiscufflink。Heturnedagain。 \"Andyou’llalwaysdriveahead,\"hemuttered。\"It’syourway。\" Therewasalongsilence。Fredhaddroppedintoachair。 Heseemed,aftersuchanexplosion,nottohaveaword leftinhim。Theaputherhandtothebackofherneckandpressedit,asifthemusclestherewereaching。 \"Well,\"shesaidatlast,\"IatleastoverlookmoreinyouthanIdoinmyself。Iamalwaysexcusingyoutomyself。 Idon’tdomuchelse。\" \"Thenwhy,inHeaven’sname,won’tyouletmebeyourfriend?Youmakeascoundrelofme,borrowingmoneyfromanothermantogetoutofmyclutches。\" \"IfIborrowfromhim,it’stostudy。AnythingItookfromyouwouldbedifferent。AsIsaidbefore,you’dbekeepingme。\" \"Keeping!Ilikeyourlanguage。It’spureMoonstone,Thea,——likeyourpointofview。Iwonderhowlongyou’llbeaMethodist。\"Heturnedawaybitterly。 \"Well,I’veneversaidIwasn’tMoonstone,haveI?I am,andthat’swhyIwantDr。Archie。Ican’tseeanythingsofunnyaboutMoonstone,youknow。\"Shepushedherchairbackalittlefromthehearthandclaspedherhandsoverherknee,stilllookingthoughtfullyintotheredcoals。 \"Wealwayscomebacktothesamething,Fred。Thename,asyoucallit,makesadifferencetomehowIfeelaboutmyself。Youwouldhaveactedverydifferentlywithagirlofyourownkind,andthat’swhyIcan’ttakeanythingfromyounow。You’vemadeeverythingimpossible。Beingmarriedisonethingandnotbeingmarriedistheotherthing,andthat’sallthereistoit。Ican’tseehowyoureasonedwithyourself,ifyoutookthetroubletoreason。 YousayIwastoomuchalone,andyetwhatyoudidwastocutmeoffmorethanIeverhadbeen。NowI’mgoingtotrytomakegoodtomyfriendsoutthere。That’sallthereisleftforme。\" \"Makegoodtoyourfriends!\"Fredburstout。\"WhatoneofthemcaresasIcare,orbelievesasIbelieve?I’vetoldyouI’llneveraskagraciouswordfromyouuntilI canaskitwithallthechurchesinChristendomatmyback。\" Thealookedup,andwhenshesawFred’sface,shethoughtsadlythathe,too,lookedasifthingswerespoiledforhim。\"Ifyouknowmeaswellasyousayyoudo,Fred,\" shesaidslowly,\"thenyouarenotbeinghonestwithyour— self。YouknowthatIcan’tdothingshalfway。Ifyoukeptmeatall——you’dkeepme。\"Shedroppedherheadwearilyonherhandandsatwithherforeheadrestingonherfingers。 Fredleanedoverherandsaidjustabovehisbreath,\"Then,whenIgetthatdivorce,you’lltakeitupwithmeagain?You’llatleastletmeknow,warnme,beforethereisaseriousquestionofanybodyelse?\" Withoutliftingherhead,Theaansweredhim。\"Oh,I don’tthinktherewilleverbeaquestionofanybodyelse。 NotifIcanhelpit。IsupposeI’vegivenyoueveryreasontothinktherewillbe,——atonce,onshipboard,anytime。\" Ottenburgdrewhimselfuplikeashot。\"Stopit,Thea!\" hesaidsharply。\"That’sonethingyou’veneverdone。 That’slikeanycommonwoman。\"Hesawhershouldersliftalittleandgrowcalm。Thenhewenttotheothersideoftheroomandtookuphishatandglovesfromthesofa。 Hecamebackcheerfully。\"Ididn’tdropintobullyyouthisafternoon。Icametocoaxyoutogooutforteawithmesomewhere。\"Hewaited,butshedidnotlookuporliftherhead,stillsunkonherhand。 Herhandkerchiefhadfallen。Fredpickeditupandputitonherknee,pressingherfingersoverit。\"Good—night,dearandwonderful,\"hewhispered,——\"wonderfulanddear! HowcanyouevergetawayfrommewhenIwillalwaysfollowyou,througheverywall,througheverydoor,wher— everyougo。\"Helookeddownatherbenthead,andthecurveofherneckthatwassosad。Hestooped,andwithhislipsjusttouchedherhairwherethefirelightmadeitruddiest。\"Ididn’tknowIhaditinme,Thea。Ithoughtitwasallafairytale。Idon’tknowmyselfanymore。\"Heclosedhiseyesandbreatheddeeply。\"Thesalt’sallgone outofyourhair。It’sfullofsunandwindagain。Ibelieveithasmemories。\"Againsheheardhimtakeadeepbreath。 \"Icoulddowithoutyouforalifetime,ifthatwouldgiveyoutoyourself。Awomanlikeyoudoesn’tfindherself,alone。\" Shethrustherfreehanduptohim。Hekisseditsoftly,asifshewereasleepandhewereafraidofwakingher。 Fromthedoorheturnedbackirrelevantly。\"Astoyouroldfriend,Thea,ifhe’stobehereonFriday,why,\"——hesnatchedouthiswatchandhelditdowntocatchthelightfromthegrate,——\"he’sonthetrainnow!Thatoughttocheeryou。Good—night。\"Sheheardthedoorclose。 III ONFridayafternoonTheaKronborgwaswalkingex— citedlyupanddownhersitting—room,whichatthathourwasfloodedbythin,clearsunshine。Bothwindowswereopen,andthefireinthegratewaslow,forthedaywasoneofthosefalsespringsthatsometimesblowintoNewYorkfromtheseainthemiddleofwinter,soft,warm,withapersuasivesaltymoistureintheairandarelaxingthawunderfoot。Theawasflushedandanimated,andsheseemedasrestlessasthesootysparrowsthatchirpedandcheepeddistractinglyaboutthewindows。Shekeptlookingattheblackclock,andthendownintotheSquare。Theroomwasfullofflowers,andshestoppednowandthentoarrangethemortomovethemintothesunlight。Afterthebellboycametoannounceavisitor,shetooksomeRomanhyacinthsfromaglassandstucktheminthefrontofherdark—bluedress。 WhenatlastFredOttenburgappearedinthedoorway,shemethimwithanexclamationofpleasure。\"Iamgladyou’vecome,Fred。Iwasafraidyoumightnotgetmynote,andIwantedtoseeyoubeforeyouseeDr。Archie。 He’ssonice!\"Shebroughtherhandstogethertoem— phasizeherstatement。 \"Ishe?I’mglad。YouseeI’mquiteoutofbreath。 Ididn’twaitfortheelevator,butranupstairs。Iwassopleasedatbeingsentfor。\"Hedroppedhishatandover— coat。\"Yes,Ishouldsayheisnice!Idon’tseemtorecognizeallofthese,\"wavinghishandkerchiefaboutattheflowers。 \"Yes,hebroughtthemhimself,inabigbox。Hebroughtlotswithhimbesidesflowers。Oh,lotsofthings!TheoldMoonstonefeeling,\"——Theamovedherhandbackand forthintheair,flutteringherfingers,——\"thefeelingofstartingout,earlyinthemorning,totakemylesson。\" \"Andyou’vehadeverythingoutwithhim?\" \"No,Ihaven’t。\" \"Haven’t?\"Helookedupinconsternation。 \"No,Ihaven’t!\"Theaspokeexcitedly,movingaboutoverthesunnypatchesonthegrimycarpet。\"I’veliedtohim,justasyousaidIhadalwaysliedtohim,andthat’swhyI’msohappy。I’velethimthinkwhathelikestothink。Oh,Icouldn’tdoanythingelse,Fred,\"—— sheshookherheademphatically。\"Ifyou’dseenhimwhenhecamein,sopleasedandexcited!Youseethisisagreatadventureforhim。FromthemomentIbegantotalktohim,heentreatedmenottosaytoomuch,nottospoilhisnotionofme。Notinsomanywords,ofcourse。 Butifyou’dseenhiseyes,hisface,hiskindhands!Oh,no!Icouldn’t。\"Shetookadeepbreath,asifwitharenewedsenseofhernarrowescape。 \"Then,whatdidyoutellhim?\"Freddemanded。 Theasatdownontheedgeofthesofaandbeganshuttingandopeningherhandsnervously。\"Well,Itoldhimenough,andnottoomuch。Itoldhimallabouthowgoodyouweretomelastwinter,gettingmeengagementsandthings,andhowyouhadhelpedmewithmyworkmorethananybody。ThenItoldhimabouthowyousentmedowntotheranchwhenIhadnomoneyoranything。\" Shepausedandwrinkledherforehead。\"AndItoldhimthatIwantedtomarryyouandranawaytoMexicowithyou,andthatIwasawfullyhappyuntilyoutoldmethatyoucouldn’tmarrymebecause——well,Itoldhimwhy。\" Theadroppedhereyesandmovedthetoeofhershoeaboutrestlesslyonthecarpet。 \"Andhetookitfromyou,likethat?\"Fredasked,almostwithawe。 \"Yes,justlikethat,andaskednoquestions。Hewashurt;hehadsomewretchedmoments。Icouldseehim squirmingandsquirmingandtryingtogetpastit。Hekeptshuttinghiseyesandrubbinghisforehead。ButwhenItoldhimthatIabsolutelyknewyouwantedtomarryme,thatyouwouldwheneveryoucould,thatseemedtohelphimagooddeal。\" \"Andthatsatisfiedhim?\"Fredaskedwonderingly。 HecouldnotquiteimaginewhatkindofpersonDr。Archiemightbe。 \"Hetookmebytheshouldersonceandasked,oh,insuchafrightenedway,`Thea,washeGOODtoyou,thisyoungman?’WhenItoldhimyouwere,helookedatmeagain:`Andyoucareforhimagreatdeal,youbelieveinhim?’Thenheseemedsatisfied。\"Theapaused。\"Yousee,he’sjusttremendouslygood,andtremendouslyafraidofthings——ofsomethings。OtherwisehewouldhavegotridofMrs。Archie。\"Shelookedupsuddenly:\"Youwereright,though;onecan’ttellpeopleaboutthingstheydon’tknowalready。\" Fredstoodinthewindow,hisbacktothesunlight,fingeringthejonquils。\"Yes,youcan,mydear。Butyoumusttellitinsuchawaythattheydon’tknowyou’retellingit,andthattheydon’tknowthey’rehear— ingit。\" Theasmiledpasthim,outintotheair。\"Isee。It’sasecret。Likethesoundintheshell。\" \"What’sthat?\"Fredwaswatchingherandthinkinghowmovingthatfarawayexpression,inher,happenedtobe。\"Whatdidyousay?\" Shecameback。\"Oh,somethingoldandMoonstony! Ihavealmostforgottenitmyself。ButIfeelbetterthanI thoughtIevercouldagain。Ican’twaittobeoff。Oh,Fred,\"shesprangup,\"Iwanttogetatit!\" Asshebrokeoutwiththis,shethrewupherheadandliftedherselfalittleonhertoes。Fredcoloredandlookedatherfearfully,hesitatingly。Hereyes,whichlookedoutthroughthewindow,werebright——theyhadnomemories。 No,shedidnotremember。Thatmomentaryelevationhadnoassociationsforher。Itwasunconscious。 Helookedherupanddownandlaughedandshookhishead。\"YouarejustallIwantyoutobe——andthatis,—— notforme!Don’tworry,you’llgetatit。Youareatit。 MyGod!haveyouever,foronemoment,beenatanythingelse?\" Theadidnotanswerhim,andclearlyshehadnotheardhim。Shewaswatchingsomethingoutinthethinlightofthefalsespringanditstreacherouslysoftair。 Fredwaitedamoment。\"Areyougoingtodinewithyourfriendto—night?\" \"Yes。HehasneverbeeninNewYorkbefore。Hewantstogoabout。WhereshallItellhimtogo?\" \"Wouldn’titbeabetterplan,sinceyouwishmetomeethim,foryoubothtodinewithme?Itwouldseemonlynaturalandfriendly。You’llhavetoliveupalittletohisnotionofus。\"Theaseemedtoconsiderthesuggestionfavorably。\"Ifyouwishhimtobeeasyinhismind,\" Fredwenton,\"thatwouldhelp。Ithink,myself,thatwearerathernicetogether。Putononeofthenewdressesyougotdownthere,andlethimseehowlovelyyoucanbe。Youowehimsomepleasure,afterallthetroublehehastaken。\" Thealaughed,andseemedtofindtheideaexcitingandpleasant。\"Oh,verywell!I’lldomybest。Onlydon’twearadresscoat,please。Hehasn’tone,andhe’snervousaboutit。\" Fredlookedathiswatch。\"Yourmonumentupthereisfast。I’llbeherewithacabateight。I’manxioustomeethim。You’vegivenmethestrangestideaofhiscallowinnocenceandagedindifference。\" Sheshookherhead。\"No,he’snoneofthat。He’sverygood,andhewon’tadmitthings。Ilovehimforit。Now,asIlookbackonit,IseethatI’vealways,evenwhenIwaslittle,shieldedhim。\" Asshelaughed,Fredcaughtthebrightsparkinhereyethatheknewsowell,andhelditforahappyin— stant。Thenheblewherakisswithhisfinger—tipsandfled。