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类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:9892更新时间:19/01/07 15:03:41
IV ATnineo’clockthateveningourthreefriendswereseatedinthebalconyofaFrenchrestaurant,muchgayerandmoreintimatethananythatexistsinNewYorkto—day。Thisoldrestaurantwasbuiltbyaloverofplea— sure,whoknewthattodinegaylyhumanbeingsmusthavethereassuranceofcertainlimitationsofspaceandofacertaindefinitestyle;thatthewallsmustbenearenoughtosuggestshelter,theceilinghighenoughtogivethechandeliersasetting。Theplacewascrowdedwiththekindofpeoplewhodinelateandwell,andDr。Archie,ashewatchedtheanimatedgroupsinthelongroombelowthebalcony,foundthismuchthemostfestivescenehehadeverlookedoutupon。Hesaidtohimself,inajovialmoodsomewhatsustainedbythecheeroftheboard,thatthiseveningalonewasworthhislongjourney。Hefollowedattentivelytheorchestra,ensconcedatthefartherendofthebalcony,andtoldTheaitmadehimfeel\"quitemusi— cal\"torecognize\"TheInvitationtotheDance\"or\"TheBlueDanube,\"andthathecouldrememberjustwhatkindofdayitwaswhenheheardherpracticingthemathome,andlingeredatthegatetolisten。 Forthefirstfewmoments,whenhewasintroducedtoyoungOttenburgintheparloroftheEverettHouse,thedoctorhadbeenawkwardandunbending。ButFred,ashisfatherhadoftenobserved,\"wasnotagoodmixerfornothing。\"HehadbroughtDr。Archiearoundduringtheshortcabride,andinanhourtheyhadbecomeoldfriends。 Fromthemomentwhenthedoctorliftedhisglassand,lookingconsciouslyatThea,said,\"Toyoursuccess,\"Fredlikedhim。Hefelthisquality;understoodhiscourageinsomedirectionsandwhatTheacalledhistimidityinothers, hisunspentandmiraculouslypreservedyouthfulness。 Mencouldneverimposeuponthedoctor,heguessed,butwomenalwayscould。Fredliked,too,thedoctor’smannerwithThea,hisbashfuladmirationandthelittlehesitancybywhichhebetrayedhisconsciousnessofthechangeinher。Itwasjustthischangethat,atpresent,interestedFredmorethananythingelse。That,hefelt,washis\"createdvalue,\"anditwashisbestchanceforanypeaceofmind。Ifthatwerenotreal,obvioustoanoldfriendlikeArchie,thenhecutaverypoorfigure,indeed。 Fredgotagooddeal,too,outoftheirtalkaboutMoon— stone。Fromherquestionsandthedoctor’sanswershewasabletoformsomeconceptionofthelittleworldthatwasalmostthemeasureofThea’sexperience,theonebitofthehumandramathatshehadfollowedwithsympathyandunderstanding。Asthetworanoverthelistoftheirfriends,themeresoundofanameseemedtorecallvolumestoeachofthem,toindicateminesofknowledgeandobservationtheyhadincommon。Atsomenamestheylaugheddelightedly,atsomeindulgentlyandeventen— derly。 \"YoutwoyoungpeoplemustcomeouttoMoonstonewhenTheagetsback,\"thedoctorsaidhospitably。 \"Oh,weshall!\"Fredcaughtitup。\"I’mkeentoknowallthesepeople。Itisverytantalizingtohearonlytheirnames。\" \"Wouldtheyinterestanoutsiderverymuch,doyouthink,Dr。Archie?\"Thealeanedtowardhim。\"Isn’titonlybecausewe’veknownthemsinceIwaslittle?\" Thedoctorglancedatherdeferentially。Fredhadnoticedthatheseemedalittleafraidtolookathersquarely——per— hapsatrifleembarrassedbyamodeofdresstowhichhewasunaccustomed。\"Well,youarepracticallyanoutsideryourself,Thea,now,\"heobservedsmiling。\"Oh,Iknow,\" hewentonquicklyinresponsetohergestureofprotest,—— \"Iknowyoudon’tchangetowardyouroldfriends,but youcanseeusallfromadistancenow。It’salltoyouradvantagethatyoucanstilltakeyouroldinterest,isn’tit,Mr。Ottenburg?\" \"That’sexactlyoneofheradvantages,Dr。Archie。 Nobodycanevertakethatawayfromher,andnoneofuswhocamelatercaneverhopetorivalMoonstoneintheimpressionwemake。HerscaleofvalueswillalwaysbetheMoonstonescale。And,withanartist,thatISanadvantage。\"Frednodded。 Dr。Archielookedathimseriously。\"Youmeanitkeepsthemfromgettingaffected?\" \"Yes;keepsthemfromgettingoffthetrackgenerally。\" Whilethewaiterfilledtheglasses,FredpointedouttoTheaabigblackFrenchbarytonewhowaseatingancho— viesbytheirtailsatoneofthetablesbelow,andthedoctorlookedaboutandstudiedhisfellowdiners。 \"Doyouknow,Mr。Ottenburg,\"hesaiddeeply,\"thesepeoplealllookhappiertomethanourWesternpeopledo。 Isitsimplygoodmannersontheirpart,ordotheygetmoreoutoflife?\" FredlaughedtoTheaabovetheglasshehadjustlifted。 \"Someofthemaregettingagooddealoutofitnow,doctor。Thisisthehourwhenbench—joybrightens。\" Theachuckledanddartedhimaquickglance。\"Bench— joy!Wheredidyougetthatslang?\" \"Thathappenstobeveryoldslang,mydear。OlderthanMoonstoneorthesovereignStateofColorado。OuroldfriendMr。Nathanmeyercouldtelluswhyithappenstohityou。\"HeleanedforwardandtouchedThea’swrist,\"Seethatfurcoatjustcomingin,Thea。It’sD’Albert。 He’sjustbackfromhisWesterntour。Finehead,hasn’the?\" \"Togoback,\"saidDr。Archie;\"Iinsistthatpeopledolookhappierhere。I’venoticeditevenonthestreet,andespeciallyinthehotels。\" Fredturnedtohimcheerfully。\"NewYorkpeoplelive agooddealinthefourthdimension,Dr。Archie。It’sthatyounoticeintheirfaces。\" Thedoctorwasinterested。\"Thefourthdimension,\"herepeatedslowly;\"andisthatslang,too?\" \"No,\"——Fredshookhishead,——\"that’smerelyafigure。Imeanthatlifeisnotquitesopersonalhereasitisinyourpartoftheworld。Peoplearemoretakenupbyhobbies,intereststhatarelesssubjecttoreversesthantheirpersonalaffairs。Ifyou’reinterestedinThea’svoice,forinstance,orinvoicesingeneral,thatinterestisjustthesame,evenifyourminingstocksgodown。\" Thedoctorlookedathimnarrowly。\"Youthinkthat’sabouttheprincipaldifferencebetweencountrypeopleandcitypeople,don’tyou?\" Fredwasalittledisconcertedatbeingfollowedupsoresolutely,andheattemptedtodismissitwithapleasantry。 \"I’veneverthoughtmuchaboutit,doctor。ButIshouldsay,onthespurofthemoment,thatthatisoneoftheprincipaldifferencesbetweenpeopleanywhere。It’stheconsolationoffellowslikemewhodon’taccomplishmuch。 Thefourthdimensionisnotgoodforbusiness,butwethinkwehaveabettertime。\" Dr。Archieleanedbackinhischair。Hisheavyshoulderswerecontemplative。\"Andshe,\"hesaidslowly;\"shouldyousaythatsheisoneofthekindyoureferto?\"Hein— clinedhisheadtowardtheshimmerofthepale—greendressbesidehim。Theawasleaning,justthen,overthebalconyrail,herheadinthelightfromthechandeliersbelow。 \"Never,never!\"Fredprotested。\"She’sashard—headedastheworstofyou——withadifference。\" Thedoctorsighed。\"Yes,withadifference;somethingthatmakesagoodmanyrevolutionstothesecond。WhenshewaslittleIusedtofeelherheadtotrytolocateit。\" Fredlaughed。\"Didyou,though?Soyouwereonthetrackofit?Oh,it’sthere!Wecan’tgetroundit,miss,\" asThealookedbackinquiringly。\"Dr。Archie,there’sa fellowtownsmanofyoursIfeelarealkinshipfor。\"HepressedacigaruponDr。Archieandstruckamatchforhim。 \"TellmeaboutSpanishJohnny。\" Thedoctorsmiledbenignantlythroughthefirstwavesofsmoke。\"Well,Johnny’sanoldpatientofmine,andhe’sanoldadmirerofThea’s。Shewasbornacosmopolitan,andIexpectshelearnedagooddealfromJohnnywhensheusedtorunawayandgotoMexicanTown。Wethoughtitaqueerfreakthen。\" Thedoctorlaunchedintoalongstory,inwhichhewasofteneagerlyinterruptedorjoyouslyconfirmedbyThea,whowasdrinkinghercoffeeandforcingopenthepetalsoftheroseswithanardentandratherrudehand。Fredset— tleddownintoenjoyinghiscomprehensionofhisguests。 Thea,watchingDr。Archieandinterestedinhispresenta— tion,wasunconsciouslyimpersonatinghersuave,gold— tintedfriend。Itwasdelightfultoseehersoradiantandresponsiveagain。Shehadkeptherpromiseaboutlookingherbest;whenonecouldsoeasilygettogetherthecolorsofanapplebranchinearlyspring,thatwasnothardtodo。 EvenDr。Archiefelt,eachtimehelookedather,afreshconsciousness。Herecognizedthefinetextureofhermother’sskin,withthedifferencethat,whenshereachedacrossthetabletogivehimabunchofgrapes,herarmwasnotonlywhite,butsomehowalittledazzling。Sheseemedtohimtaller,andfreerinallhermovements。Shehadnowawayoftakingadeepbreathwhenshewasinterested,thatmadeherseemverystrong,somehow,andbroughtheratonequiteoverpoweringly。Ifheseemedshy,itwasnotthathewasintimidatedbyherworldlyclothes,butthathergreaterpositiveness,herwholeaugmentedself,madehimfeelthathisaccustomedmannertowardherwasinadequate。 Fred,onhispart,wasreflectingthattheawkwardposi— tioninwhichhehadplacedherwouldnotconfineorchafeherlong。Shelookedaboutatotherpeople,atotherwomen, curiously。Shewasnotquitesureofherself,butshewasnotintheleastafraidorapologetic。Sheseemedtositthereontheedge,emergingfromoneworldintoanother,takingherbearings,gettinganideaoftheconcertedmovementabouther,butwithabsoluteself—confidence。Sofarfromshrink— ing,sheexpanded。ThemerekindlyefforttopleaseDr。 Archiewasenoughtobringherout。 Therewasmuchtalkofauraeatthattime,andFredmusedthateverybeautiful,everycompellinglybeautifulwoman,hadanaura,whetherotherpeopledidorno。Therewas,certainly,aboutthewomanhehadbroughtupfromMexico,suchanemanation。Sheexistedinmorespacethansheoccupiedbymeasurement。Theenvelopingairaboutherheadandshoulderswassubsidized——wasmoremovingthansheherself,forinitlivedtheawakenings,allthefirstsweetnessthatlifekillsinpeople。OnefeltinhersuchawealthofJUGENDZEIT,allthoseflowersofthemindandthebloodthatbloomandperishbythemyriadinthefewexhaustlessyearswhentheimaginationfirstkindles。Itwasinwatchingherassheemergedlikethis,inbeingnearandnottoonear,thatonegot,foramoment,somuchthatonehadlost;amongotherlegendarythingsthelegendarythemeoftheabsolutelymagicalpowerofabeautifulwoman。 AftertheyhadleftTheaatherhotel,Dr。Archieadmit— tedtoFred,astheywalkedupBroadwaythroughtherap— idlychillingair,thatoncebeforehehadseentheiryoungfriendflashupintoamorepotentself,butinadarkermood。 Itwasinhisofficeonenight,whenshewasathomethesummerbeforelast。\"AndthenIgottheidea,\"headdedsimply,\"thatshewouldnotlivelikeotherpeople:that,forbetterorworse,shehaduncommongifts。\" \"Oh,we’llseethatit’sforbetter,youandI,\"Fredreassuredhim。\"Won’tyoucomeuptomyhotelwithme? Ithinkweoughttohavealongtalk。\" \"Yes,indeed,\"saidDr。Archiegratefully;\"Ithinkweought。\" V THEAwastosailonTuesday,atnoon,andonSaturdayFredOttenburgarrangedforherpassage,whilesheandDr。Archiewentshopping。Withrugsandsea—clothesshewasalreadyprovided;FredhadgoteverythingofthatsortsheneededforthevoyageupfromVeraCruz。OnSundayafternoonTheawenttoseetheHarsanyis。Whenshereturnedtoherhotel,shefoundanotefromOttenburg,sayingthathehadcalledandwouldcomeagainto—morrow。 OnMondaymorning,whileshewasatbreakfast,Fredcamein。Sheknewbyhishurried,distractedairasheenteredthedining—roomthatsomethinghadgonewrong。 Hehadjustgotatelegramfromhome。Hismotherhadbeenthrownfromhercarriageandhurt;aconcussionofsomesort,andshewasunconscious。HewasleavingforSt。Louisthatnightontheeleveno’clocktrain。Hehadagreatdealtoattendtoduringtheday。Hewouldcomethatevening,ifhemight,andstaywithheruntiltraintime,whileshewasdoingherpacking。Scarcelywaitingforherconsent,hehurriedaway。 AlldayTheawassomewhatcastdown。ShewassorryforFred,andshemissedthefeelingthatshewastheonepersoninhismind。Hehadscarcelylookedatherwhentheyexchangedwordsatthebreakfast—table。Shefeltasifsheweresetaside,andshedidnotseemsoimportanteventoherselfasshehadyesterday。Certainly,shereflected,itwashightimethatshebegantotakecareofherselfagain。Dr。Archiecamefordinner,butshesenthimawayearly,tellinghimthatshewouldbereadytogototheboatwithhimathalf—pasttenthenextmorning。Whenshewentupstairs,shelookedgloomilyattheopentrunkinhersitting—room,andatthetrayspiledonthesofa。She stoodatthewindowandwatchedaquietsnowstormspendingitselfoverthecity。Morethananythingelse,fallingsnowalwaysmadeherthinkofMoonstone;oftheKohlers’garden,ofThor’ssled,ofdressingbylamplightandstartingofftoschoolbeforethepathswerebroken。 WhenFredcame,helookedtired,andhetookherhandalmostwithoutseeingher。 \"I’msosorry,Fred。Haveyouhadanymoreword?\" \"Shewasstillunconsciousatfourthisafternoon。Itdoesn’tlookveryencouraging。\"Heapproachedthefireandwarmedhishands。Heseemedtohavecontracted,andhehadnotatallhishabitualeaseofmanner。\"Poormother!\"heexclaimed;\"nothinglikethisshouldhavehappenedtoher。Shehassomuchprideofperson。She’snotatallanoldwoman,youknow。She’snevergotbeyondvigorousandratherdashingmiddleage。\"HeturnedabruptlytoTheaandforthefirsttimereallylookedather。 \"Howbadlythingscomeout!She’dhavelikedyouforadaughter—in—law。Oh,you’dhavefoughtlikethedevil,butyou’dhaverespectedeachother。\"Hesankintoachairandthrusthisfeetouttothefire。\"Still,\"hewentonthoughtfully,seemingtoaddresstheceiling,\"itmighthavebeenbadforyou。OurbigGermanhouses,ourgoodGermancooking——youmighthavegotlostintheuphol— stery。Thatsubstantialcomfortmighttakethetemperoutofyou,dullyouredge。Yes,\"hesighed,\"Iguessyouweremeantforthejoltofthebreakers。\" \"IguessI’llgetplentyofjolt,\"Theamurmured,turn— ingtohertrunk。 \"I’mrathergladI’mnotstayingoveruntilto—morrow,\" Fredreflected。\"Ithinkit’seasierformetoglideoutlikethis。Ifeelnowasifeverythingwererathercasual,any— how。Athinglikethatdullsone’sfeelings。\" Thea,standingbyhertrunk,madenoreply。Presentlyheshookhimselfandrose。\"Wantmetoputthosetraysinforyou?\" \"No,thankyou。I’mnotreadyforthemyet。\" Fredstrolledovertothesofa,liftedascarffromoneofthetraysandstoodabstractedlydrawingitthroughhisfingers。\"You’vebeensokindtheselastfewdays,Thea,thatIbegantohopeyoumightsoftenalittle;thatyoumightaskmetocomeoverandseeyouthissummer。\" \"Ifyouthoughtthat,youweremistaken,\"shesaidslowly。\"I’vehardened,ifanything。ButIshan’tcarryanygrudgeawaywithme,ifyoumeanthat。\" Hedroppedthescarf。\"Andthere’snothing——nothingatallyou’llletmedo?\" \"Yes,thereisonething,andit’sagooddealtoask。IfI getknockedout,ornevergeton,I’dlikeyoutoseethatDr。Archiegetshismoneyback。I’mtakingthreethousanddollarsofhis。\" \"Why,ofcourseIshall。Youmaydismissthatfromyourmind。Howfussyyouareaboutmoney,Thea。Youmakesuchapointofit。\"Heturnedsharplyandwalkedtothewindows。 Theasatdowninthechairhehadquitted。\"It’sonlypoorpeoplewhofeelthatwayaboutmoney,andwhoarereallyhonest,\"shesaidgravely。\"SometimesIthinkthattobereallyhonest,youmusthavebeensopoorthatyou’vebeentemptedtosteal。\" \"Towhat?\" \"Tosteal。Iusedtobe,whenIfirstwenttoChicagoandsawallthethingsinthebigstoresthere。Neverany— thingbig,butlittlethings,thekindI’dneverseenbeforeandcouldneverafford。Ididtakesomethingonce,beforeIknewit。\" Fredcametowardher。Forthefirsttimeshehadhiswholeattention,inthedegreetowhichshewasaccustomedtohavingit。\"Didyou?Whatwasit?\"heaskedwithinterest。 \"Asachet。Alittlebluesilkbagoforris—rootpowder。 Therewasawholecounterfulofthem,markeddownto fiftycents。I’dneverseenanybefore,andtheyseemedirresistible。Itookoneupandwanderedaboutthestorewithit。Nobodyseemedtonotice,soIcarrieditoff。\" Fredlaughed。\"Crazychild!Why,yourthingsalwayssmelloforris;isitapenance?\" \"No,Iloveit。ButIsawthatthefirmdidn’tloseany— thingbyme。IwentbackandboughtittherewheneverI hadaquartertospend。IgotalottotaketoArizona。I madeituptothem。\" \"I’llbetyoudid!\"Fredtookherhand。\"Whydidn’tIfindyouthatfirstwinter?I’dhavelovedyoujustasyoucame!\" Theashookherhead。\"No,youwouldn’t,butyoumighthavefoundmeamusing。TheHarsanyissaidyester— dayafternoonthatIworesuchafunnycapeandthatmyshoesalwayssqueaked。TheythinkI’veimproved。ItoldthemitwasyourdoingifIhad,andthentheylookedscared。\" \"DidyousingforHarsanyi?\" \"Yes。HethinksI’veimprovedthere,too。Hesaidnicethingstome。Oh,hewasverynice!HeagreeswithyouaboutmygoingtoLehmann,ifshe’lltakeme。Hecameouttotheelevatorwithme,afterwehadsaidgood—bye。 Hesaidsomethingniceoutthere,too,butheseemedsad。\" \"Whatwasitthathesaid?\" \"Hesaid,`Whenpeople,seriouspeople,believeinyou,theygiveyousomeoftheirbest,so——takecareofit,MissKronborg。’Thenhewavedhishandsandwentback。\" \"Ifyousang,Iwishyouhadtakenmealong。Didyousingwell?\"Fredturnedfromherandwentbacktothewindow。\"IwonderwhenIshallhearyousingagain。\" Hepickedupabunchofvioletsandsmelledthem。\"Youknow,yourleavingmelikethis——well,it’salmostinhu— mantobeabletodoitsokindlyandunconditionally。\" \"Isupposeitis。Itwasalmostinhumantobeabletoleavehome,too,——thelasttime,whenIknewitwasfor good。Butallthesame,Icaredagreatdealmorethananybodyelsedid。Ilivedthroughit。Ihavenochoicenow。 Nomatterhowmuchitbreaksmeup,Ihavetogo。DoI seemtoenjoyit?\" Fredbentoverhertrunkandpickedupsomethingwhichprovedtobeascore,clumsilybound。\"What’sthis?Didyouevertrytosingthis?\"Heopeneditandontheengravedtitle—pagereadWunsch’sinscription,\"EINST,O WUNDER!\"HelookedupsharplyatThea。 \"Wunschgavemethatwhenhewentaway。I’vetoldyouabouthim,myoldteacherinMoonstone。Helovedthatopera。\" Fredwenttowardthefireplace,thebookunderhisarm,singingsoftly:—— \"EINST,OWUNDER,ENTBLUHTAUFMEINEMGRABE,EINEBLUMEDERASCHEMEINESHERZENS;\" \"Youhavenoideaatallwhereheis,Thea?\"Heleanedagainstthemantelandlookeddownather。 \"No,IwishIhad。Hemaybedeadbythistime。Thatwasfiveyearsago,andheusedhimselfhard。Mrs。Kohlerwasalwaysafraidhewoulddieoffalonesomewhereandbestuckundertheprairie。Whenwelastheardofhim,hewasinKansas。\" \"Ifheweretobefound,I’dliketodosomethingforhim。 Iseemtogetagooddealofhimfromthis。\"Heopenedthebookagain,wherehekepttheplacewithhisfinger,andscrutinizedthepurpleink。\"HowlikeaGerman!Hadheeversungthesongforyou?\" \"No。Ididn’tknowwherethewordswerefromuntilonce,whenHarsanyisangitforme,Irecognizedthem。\" Fredclosedthebook。\"Letmesee,whatwasyournoblebrakeman’sname?\" Thealookedupwithsurprise。\"Ray,RayKennedy。\" \"RayKennedy!\"helaughed。\"Itcouldn’twellhavebeenbetter!WunschandDr。Archie,andRay,andI,\"—— hetoldthemoffonhisfingers,——\"yourwhistling—posts! Youhaven’tdonesobadly。We’vebackedyouaswecould,someinourweaknessandsomeinourmight。Inyourdarkhours——andyou’llhavethem——youmayliketorememberus。\"Hesmiledwhimsicallyanddroppedthescoreintothetrunk。\"Youaretakingthatwithyou?\" \"SurelyIam。Ihaven’tsomanykeepsakesthatIcanaffordtoleavethat。Ihaven’tgotmanythatIvaluesohighly。\" \"Thatyouvaluesohighly?\"Fredechoedhergravityplayfully。\"Youaredeliciouswhenyoufallintoyourvernacular。\"Helaughedhalftohimself。 \"What’sthematterwiththat?Isn’titperfectlygoodEnglish?\" \"PerfectlygoodMoonstone,mydear。Liketheready— madeclothesthathanginthewindows,madetofitevery— bodyandfitnobody,aphrasethatcanbeusedonallocca— sions。Oh,\"——hestartedacrosstheroomagain,——\"that’soneofthefinethingsaboutyourgoing!You’llbewiththerightsortofpeopleandyou’lllearnagood,live,warmGerman,thatwillbelikeyourself。You’llgetanewspeechfullofshadesandcolorlikeyourvoice;alive,likeyourmind。 Itwillbealmostlikebeingbornagain,Thea。\" Shewasnotoffended。Fredhadsaidsuchthingstoherbefore,andshewantedtolearn。Inthenaturalcourseofthingsshewouldneverhavelovedamanfromwhomshecouldnotlearnagreatdeal。 \"Harsanyisaidonce,\"sheremarkedthoughtfully,\"thatifonebecameanartistonehadtobebornagain,andthatoneowednothingtoanybody。\" \"Exactly。AndwhenIseeyouagainIshallnotseeyou,butyourdaughter。MayI?\"Hehelduphiscigarettecasequestioninglyandthenbegantosmoke,takingupagainthesongwhichraninhishead:—— \"DEUTLICHSCHIMMERTAUFJEDEM,PURPURBLATTCHEN,ADELAIDE!\" \"Ihavehalfanhourwithyouyet,andthen,exitFred。\" Hewalkedabouttheroom,smokingandsingingthewordsunderhisbreath。\"You’lllikethevoyage,\"hesaidab— ruptly。\"Thatfirstapproachtoaforeignshore,stealinguponitandfindingit——there’snothinglikeit。Itwakesupeverythingthat’sasleepinyou。Youwon’tmindmywritingtosomepeopleinBerlin?They’llbenicetoyou。\" \"Iwishyouwould。\"Theagaveadeepsigh。\"Iwishonecouldlookaheadandseewhatiscomingtoone。\" \"Oh,no!\"Fredwassmokingnervously;\"thatwouldneverdo。It’stheuncertaintythatmakesonetry。You’veneverhadanysortofchance,andnowIfancyyou’llmakeituptoyourself。You’llfindthewaytoletyourselfoutinonelongflight。\" Theaputherhandonherheart。\"Andthendropliketherocksweusedtothrow——anywhere。\"Sheleftthechairandwentovertothesofa,huntingforsomethinginthetrunktrays。WhenshecamebackshefoundFredsit— tinginherplace。\"Herearesomehandkerchiefsofyours。 I’vekeptoneortwo。They’relargerthanmineandusefulifonehasaheadache。\" \"Thankyou。Hownicelytheysmellofyourthings!\" Helookedatthewhitesquaresforamomentandthenputtheminhispocket。Hekeptthelowchair,andasshestoodbesidehimhetookherhandsandsatlookingintentlyatthem,asifhewereexaminingthemforsomespecialpur— pose,tracingthelongroundfingerswiththetipsofhisown。\"Ordinarily,youknow,therearereefsthatamancatchestoandkeepshisnoseabovewater。Butthisisacasebyitself。ThereseemstobenolimitastohowmuchIcanbeinlovewithyou。Ikeepgoing。\"Hedidnotlifthiseyesfromherfingers,whichhecontinuedtostudywiththesamefervor。\"Everykindofstringedinstrumentthereisplaysinyourhands,Thea,\"hewhispered,pressingthemtohisface。 Shedroppedbesidehimandslippedintohisarms,shut—