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类别:其他 作者:Willa Cather字数:9438更新时间:19/01/07 15:03:41
tinghereyesandliftinghercheektohis。\"Tellmeonething,\"Fredwhispered。\"Yousaidthatnightontheboat,whenIfirsttoldyou,thatifyoucouldyouwouldcrushitallupinyourhandsandthrowitintothesea。Wouldyou,allthoseweeks?\" Sheshookherhead。 \"Answerme,wouldyou?\" \"No,Iwasangrythen。I’mnotnow。I’dnevergivethemup。Don’tmakemepaytoomuch。\"Inthatembracetheylivedoveragainalltheothers。WhenTheadrewawayfromhim,shedroppedherfaceinherhands。\"Youaregoodtome,\"shebreathed,\"youare!\" Risingtohisfeet,heputhishandsunderherelbowsandliftedhergently。Hedrewhertowardthedoorwithhim。 \"Getallyoucan。Begenerouswithyourself。Don’tstopshortofsplendidthings。IwantthemforyoumorethanI wantanythingelse,morethanIwantonesplendidthingformyself。Ican’thelpfeelingthatyou’llgain,somehow,bymylosingsomuch。Thatyou’llgaintheverythingI lose。Takecareofher,asHarsanyisaid。She’swonder— ful!\"Hekissedherandwentoutofthedoorwithoutlook— ingback,justasifhewerecomingagainto—morrow。 Theawentquicklyintoherbedroom。Shebroughtoutanarmfulofmuslinthings,kneltdown,andbegantolaytheminthetrays。Suddenlyshestopped,droppedfor— wardandleanedagainsttheopentrunk,herheadonherarms。Thetearsfelldownonthedarkoldcarpet。Itcameoverherhowmanypeoplemusthavesaidgood—byeandbeenunhappyinthatroom。Otherpeople,beforehertime,hadhiredthisroomtocryin。Strangeroomsandstrangestreetsandfaces,howsickathearttheymadeone! Whywasshegoingsofar,whenwhatshewantedwassomefamiliarplacetohidein?——therockhouse,herlittleroominMoonstone,herownbed。Oh,howgooditwouldbetoliedowninthatlittlebed,tocutthenervethatkeptonestruggling,thatpulledoneonandon,tosink intopeacethere,withallthefamilysafeandhappydown— stairs。Afterall,shewasaMoonstonegirl,oneofthepreacher’schildren。EverythingelsewasinFred’simagi— nation。Whywasshecalledupontotakesuchchances? Anysafe,humdrumworkthatdidnotcompromiseherwouldbebetter。Butifshefailednow,shewouldlosehersoul。Therewasnowheretofall,afteronetookthatstep,exceptintoabyssesofwretchedness。Sheknewwhatabysses,forshecouldstillheartheoldmanplayinginthesnowstorm,\"\"Thatmelodywasreleasedinherlikeapassionoflonging。Everynerveinherbodythrilledtoit。Itbroughthertoherfeet,car— riedhersomehowtobedandintotroubledsleep。 ThatnightshetaughtinMoonstoneagain:shebeatherpupilsinhideousrages,shekeptonbeatingthem。Shesangatfunerals,andstruggledatthepianowithHarsanyi。 Inonedreamshewaslookingintoahand—glassandthink— ingthatshewasgettingbetter—looking,whentheglassbegantogrowsmallerandsmallerandherownreflectiontoshrink,untilsherealizedthatshewaslookingintoRayKennedy’seyes,seeingherfaceinthatlookofhiswhichshecouldneverforget。AllatoncetheeyeswereFredOttenburg’s,andnotRay’s。Allnightsheheardtheshriek— ingoftrains,whistlinginandoutofMoonstone,assheusedtoheartheminhersleepwhentheyblewshrillinthewinterair。Butto—nighttheywereterrifying,——thespec— tral,fatedtrainsthat\"racedwithdeath,\"aboutwhichtheoldwomanfromthedepotusedtopray。 InthemorningshewakenedbreathlessafterastrugglewithMrs。LiveryJohnson’sdaughter。Shestartedupwithabound,threwtheblanketsbackandsatontheedgeofthebed,hernight—dressopen,herlongbraidshangingoverherbosom,blinkingatthedaylight。Afterall,itwasnottoolate。Shewasonlytwentyyearsold,andtheboatsailedatnoon。Therewasstilltime! EndofPartV PARTVI KRONBORG I Itisagloriouswinterday。Denver,standingonherhighplateauunderathrillinggreen—bluesky,ismaskedinsnowandglitteringwithsunlight。TheCapitolbuildingisactuallyinarmor,andthrowsofftheshaftsofthesununtilthebeholderisdazzledandtheoutlinesofthebuildingarelostinablazeofreflectedlight。Thestoneterraceisawhitefieldoverwhichfieryreflectionsdance,andthetreesandbushesarefaithfullyrepeatedinsnow——oneveryblacktwigasoft,blurredlineofwhite。Fromtheterraceonelooksdirectlyovertowherethemountainsbreakintheirsharp,familiarlinesagainstthesky。Snowfillsthegorges,hangsinscarfsonthegreatslopes,andonthepeaksthefierysunshineisgatheredupasbyaburning—glass。 HowardArchieisstandingatthewindowofhisprivateroomintheofficesoftheSanFelipeMiningCompany,onthesixthflooroftheRatonBuilding,lookingoffatthemountaingloriesofhisStatewhilehegivesdictationtohissecretary。Heistenyearsolderthanwhenwesawhimlast,andemphaticallytenyearsmoreprosperous。Adecadeofcomingintothingshasnotsomuchagedhimasithasforti— fied,smoothed,andassuredhim。Hissandyhairandimperialconcealwhatevergraytheyharbor。Hehasnotgrownheavier,butmoreflexible,andhismassiveshoulderscarryfiftyyearsandthecontrolofhisgreatmininginter— estsmorelightlythantheycarriedfortyyearsandacoun— trypractice。Inshort,heisoneofthefriendstowhomwefeelgratefulforhavinggotonintheworld,forhelpingto keepupthegeneraltemperatureandourownconfidenceinlife。Heisanacquaintancethatonewouldhurrytoover— takeandgreetamongahundred。Inhiswarmhandshakeandgeneroussmilethereisthestimulatingcordialityofgoodfellowscomeintogoodfortuneandeagertopassiton; somethingthatmakesonethinkbetterofthelotteryoflifeandresolvetotryagain。 WhenArchiehadfinishedhismorningmail,heturnedawayfromthewindowandfacedhissecretary。\"Didany— thingcomeupyesterdayafternoonwhileIwasaway,T。B。?\" ThomasBurkturnedovertheleafofhiscalendar。 \"GovernorAldensentdowntosaythathewantedtoseeyoubeforehesendshislettertotheBoardofPardons。 AskedifyoucouldgoovertotheStateHousethismorn— ing。\" Archieshruggedhisshoulders。\"I’llthinkaboutit。\" Theyoungmangrinned。 \"Anythingelse?\"hischiefcontinued。 T。B。swungroundinhischairwithalookofinterestonhisshrewd,clean—shavenface。\"OldJasperFlightwasin,Dr。Archie。Ineverexpectedtoseehimaliveagain。Seemshe’stuckedawayforthewinterwithasisterwho’sahousekeeperattheOxford。He’sallcrippledupwithrheumatism,butasfierceafteritasever。Wantstoknowifyouorthecompanywon’tgrub—stakehimagain。Sayshe’ssureofitthistime;hadlocatedsomethingwhenthesnowshutdownonhiminDecember。Hewantstocrawloutatthefirstbreakintheweather,withthatsameoldburrowiththesplitear。Hegotsomebodytowinterthebeastforhim。He’ssuperstitiousaboutthatburro,too; thinksit’sdivinelyguided。Yououghttohearthelineoftalkheputuphereyesterday;saidwhenherodeinhiscarriage,thatburrowasa—goingtoridealongwithhim。\" Archielaughed。\"Didheleaveyouhisaddress?\" \"Hedidn’tneglectanything,\"repliedtheclerkcynically。 \"Well,sendhimalineandtellhimtocomeinagain。I liketohearhim。OfallthecrazyprospectorsI’veeverknown,he’sthemostinteresting,becausehe’sreallycrazy。 It’sareligiousconvictionwithhim,andwithmostof’emit’sagamblingfeverorpurevagrancy。ButJasperFlightbelievesthattheAlmightykeepsthesecretofthesilverdepositsinthesehills,andgivesitawaytothedeserving。 He’sadownrightnoblefigure。OfcourseI’llstakehim! Aslongashecancrawloutinthespring。Heandthatburroareasighttogether。ThebeastisnearlyaswhiteasJasper;mustbetwentyyearsold。\" \"Ifyoustakehimthistime,youwon’thavetoagain,\" saidT。B。knowingly。\"He’llcroakupthere,markmyword。Sayshenevertiestheburroatnightnow,forfearhemightbecalledsudden,andthebeastwouldstarve。Iguessthatanimalcouldeatalariatrope,allright,andenjoyit。\" \"Iguessifweknewthethingsthosetwohaveeaten,andhaven’teaten,intheirtime,T。B。,itwouldmakeusvege— tarians。\"Thedoctorsatdownandlookedthoughtful。 \"That’sthewayfortheoldmantogo。Itwouldbeprettyhardluckifhehadtodieinahospital。Iwishhecouldturnupsomethingbeforehecashesin。Buthiskindseldomdo;they’rebewitched。Still,therewasStratton。I’vebeenmeetingJasperFlight,andhissidemeatandtinpans,upinthemountainsforyears,andI’dmisshim。Ialwayshalfwaybelievethefairytaleshespinsme。OldJasperFlight,\"Archiemurmured,asifhelikedthenameorthepictureitcalledup。 AclerkcameinfromtheouterofficeandhandedArchieacard。Hesprangupandexclaimed,\"Mr。Ottenburg? Bringhimin。\" FredOttenburgentered,cladinalong,fur—linedcoat,holdingachecked—clothhatinhishand,hischeeksandeyesbrightwiththeoutdoorcold。ThetwomenmetbeforeArchie’sdeskandtheirhandclaspwaslongerthanfriend— shippromptsexceptinregionswherethebloodwarmsand quickenstomeetthedrycold。Underthegeneralkeying— upofthealtitude,mannerstakeonaheartiness,avivacity,thatisoneexpressionofthehalf—unconsciousexcitementwhichColoradopeoplemisswhentheydropintolowerstrataofair。Theheart,wearetold,wearsoutearlyinthathighatmosphere,butwhileitpumpsitsendsoutnosluggishstream。Ourtwofriendsstoodgrippingeachotherbythehandandsmiling。 \"Whendidyougetin,Fred?Andwhathaveyoucomefor?\"Archiegavehimaquizzicalglance。 \"I’vecometofindoutwhatyouthinkyou’redoingouthere,\"theyoungermandeclaredemphatically。\"Iwanttogetnext,Ido。Whencanyouseeme?\" \"Anythingonto—night?Thensupposeyoudinewithme。WherecanIpickyouupatfive—thirty?\" \"Bixby’soffice,generalfreightagentoftheBurlington。\" Ottenburgbegantobuttonhisovercoatanddrewonhisgloves。\"I’vegottohaveoneshotatyoubeforeIgo,Archie。Didn’tItellyouPinkyAldenwasacheapsquirt?\" Alden’sbackerlaughedandshookhishead。\"Oh,he’sworsethanthat,Fred。Itisn’tpolitetomentionwhatheis,outsideoftheArabianNights。Iguessedyou’dcometorubitintome。\" Ottenburgpaused,hishandonthedoorknob,hishighcolorchallengingthedoctor’scalm。\"I’mdisgustedwithyou,Archie,fortrainingwithsuchapup。Amanofyourexperience!\" \"Well,he’sbeenanexperience,\"Archiemuttered。\"I’mnotcoyaboutadmittingit,amI?\" Ottenburgflungopenthedoor。\"Smallcredittoyou。 Eventhewomenareoutforcapitalandcorruption,Ihear。 YourGovernor’sdonemorefortheUnitedBreweriesinsixmonthsthanI’vebeenabletodoinsixyears。He’sthelily—liveredsortwe’relookingfor。Good—morning。\" Thatafternoonatfiveo’clockDr。ArchieemergedfromtheStateHouseafterhistalkwithGovernorAlden,and crossedtheterraceunderasaffronsky。Thesnow,beatenhard,wasblueinthedusk;adayofblindingsunlighthadnotevenstartedathaw。Thelightsofthecitytwinkledpalebelowhiminthequiveringvioletair,andthedomeoftheStateHousebehindhimwasstillredwiththelightfromthewest。Beforehegotintohiscar,thedoctorpausedtolookabouthimatthesceneofwhichhenevertired。 ArchielivedinhisownhouseonColfaxAvenue,wherehehadroomygroundsandarosegardenandaconserva— tory。HishousekeepingwasdonebythreeJapaneseboys,devotedandresourceful,whowereabletomanageArchie’sdinnerparties,toseethathekepthisengagements,andtomakevisitorswhostayedatthehousesocomfortablethattheywerealwaysloathtogoaway。 Archiehadneverknownwhatcomfortwasuntilhebecameawidower,thoughwithcharacteristicdelicacy,ordishonesty,heinsisteduponaccreditinghispeaceofmindtotheSanFelipe,toTime,toanythingbuthisreleasefromMrs。Archie。 Mrs。ArchiediedjustbeforeherhusbandleftMoonstoneandcametoDenvertolive,sixyearsago。Thepoorwo— man’sfightagainstdustwasherundoingatlast。Onesummerdaywhenshewasrubbingtheparlorupholsterywithgasoline,——thedoctorhadoftenforbiddenhertouseitonanyaccount,sothatwasoneofthepleasuressheseizeduponinhisabsence,——anexplosionoccurred。No— bodyeverknewexactlyhowithappened,forMrs。Archiewasdeadwhentheneighborsrushedintosaveherfromtheburninghouse。Shemusthaveinhaledtheburninggasanddiedinstantly。 Moonstoneseverityrelentedtowardhersomewhatafterherdeath。ButevenwhileheroldcroniesatMrs。Smiley’smillinerystoresaidthatitwasaterriblething,theyaddedthatnothingbutapowerfulexplosiveCOULDhavekilledMrs。Archie,andthatitwasonlyrightthedoctorshouldhaveachance。 Archie’spastwasliterallydestroyedwhenhiswifedied。 Thehouseburnedtotheground,andallthosematerialreminderswhichhavesuchpoweroverpeopledisappearedinanhour。HismininginterestsnowtookhimtoDenversooftenthatitseemedbettertomakehisheadquartersthere。HegaveuphispracticeandleftMoonstoneforgood。Sixmonthsafterward,whileDr。ArchiewaslivingattheBrownPalaceHotel,theSanFelipeminebegantogiveupthatsilverhoardwhicholdCaptainHarrishadalwaysaccuseditofconcealing,andSanFelipeheadedthelistofminingquotationsineverydailypaper,EastandWest。InafewyearsDr。Archiewasaveryrichman。 Hisminewassuchanimportantiteminthemineralout— putoftheState,andArchiehadahandinsomanyofthenewindustriesofColoradoandNewMexico,thathispoli— ticalinfluencewasconsiderable。Hehadthrownitall,twoyearsago,tothenewreformparty,andhadbroughtabouttheelectionofagovernorofwhoseconducthewasnowheartilyashamed。HisfriendsbelievedthatArchiehimselfhadambitiouspoliticalplans。 II WHENOttenburgandhishostreachedthehouseonColfaxAvenue,theywentdirectlytothelibrary,alongdoubleroomonthesecondfloorwhichArchiehadarrangedexactlytohisowntaste。Itwasfullofbooksandmountedspecimensofwildgame,withabigwriting—tableateitherend,stiff,old—fashionedengravings,heavyhang— ingsanddeepupholstery。 WhenoneoftheJapaneseboysbroughtthecocktails,Fredturnedfromthefinespecimenofpeccorayhehadbeenexaminingandsaid,\"Amanisanowltoliveinsuchaplacealone,Archie。Whydon’tyoumarry?Asforme,justbecauseIcan’tmarry,Ifindtheworldfullofcharm— ing,unattachedwomen,anyoneofwhomIcouldfitupahouseforwithalacrity。\" \"You’remoreknowingthanI。\"Archiespokepolitely。 \"I’mnotverywideawakeaboutwomen。I’dbelikelytopickoutoneoftheuncomfortableones——andthereareafewofthem,youknow。\"Hedrankhiscocktailandrubbedhishandstogetherinafriendlyway。\"Myfriendsherehavecharmingwives,andtheydon’tgivemeachancetogetlonely。Theyareverykindtome,andIhaveagreatmanypleasantfriendships。\" Fredputdownhisglass。\"Yes,I’vealwaysnoticedthatwomenhaveconfidenceinyou。Youhavethedoctor’swayofgettingnext。Andyouenjoythatkindofthing?\" \"Thefriendshipofattractivewomen?Oh,dear,yes! Idependuponitagreatdeal。\" Thebutlerannounceddinner,andthetwomenwentdownstairstothedining—room。Dr。Archie’sdinnerswerealwaysgoodandwellserved,andhiswineswereexcellent。 \"IsawtheFuelandIronpeopleto—day,\"Ottenburgsaid, lookingupfromhissoup。\"Theirheartisintherightplace。 Ican’tseewhyinthemischiefyouevergotmixedupwiththatreformgang,Archie。You’vegotnothingtoreformouthere。ThesituationhasalwaysbeenassimpleastwoandtwoinColorado;mostlyamatterofafriendlyunder— standing。\" \"Well,\"——Archiespoketolerantly,——\"someoftheyoungfellowsseemedtohavered—hotconvictions,andI thoughtitwasbettertoletthemtrytheirideasout。\" Ottenburgshruggedhisshoulders。\"Afewdullyoungmenwhohaven’tabilityenoughtoplaytheoldgametheoldway,sotheywanttoputonanewgamewhichdoesn’ttakesomuchbrainsandgivesawaymoreadvertisingthat’swhatyouranti—saloonleagueandvicecommissionamountsto。Theyprovidenotorietyforthefellowswhocan’tdistinguishthemselvesatrunningabusinessorprac— ticinglawordevelopinganindustry。Hereyouhaveamediocrelawyerwithnobrainsandnopractice,tryingtogetalook—inonsomething。Hecomesupwiththenovelpropositionthattheprostitutehasahardtimeofit,putshispictureinthepaper,andthefirstthingyouknow,he’sacelebrity。Hegetstherake—offandshe’sjustwhereshewasbefore。Howcouldyoufallforamouse—traplikePinkAlden,Archie?\" Dr。Archielaughedashebegantocarve。\"Pinkseemstogetunderyourskin。He’snotworthtalkingabout。 He’sgonehislimit。Peoplewon’treadabouthisblame— lesslifeanymore。Iknewthoseinterviewshegaveoutwouldcookhim。Theywerealastresort。Icouldhavestoppedhim,butbythattimeI’dcometotheconclusionthatI’dletthereformersdown。I’mnotagainstageneralshaking—up,butthetroublewithPinky’scrowdistheynevergetbeyondageneralwriting—up。Wegavethemachancetodosomething,andtheyjustkeptonwritingabouteachotherandwhattemptationstheyhadover— come。\" WhileArchieandhisfriendwerebusywithColoradopolitics,theimpeccableJapaneseattendedswiftlyandintelligentlytohisduties,andthedinner,asOttenburgatlastremarked,wasworthyofmoreprofitableconversation。 \"Soitis,\"thedoctoradmitted。\"Well,we’llgoup— stairsforourcoffeeandcutthisout。Bringupsomecognacandarak,Tai,\"headdedasherosefromthetable。 Theystoppedtoexamineamoose’sheadonthestair— way,andwhentheyreachedthelibrarythepinelogsinthefireplacehadbeenlighted,andthecoffeewasbubblingbeforethehearth。Taiplacedtwochairsbeforethefireandbroughtatrayofcigarettes。 \"Bringthecigarsinmylowerdeskdrawer,boy,\"thedoctordirected。\"Toomuchlightinhere,isn’tthere,Fred?Lightthelampthereonmydesk,Tai。\"HeturnedofftheelectricglareandsettledhimselfdeepintothechairoppositeOttenburg’s。 \"Togobacktoourconversation,doctor,\"Fredbeganwhilehewaitedforthefirststeamtoblowoffhiscoffee; \"whydon’tyoumakeupyourmindtogotoWashington? There’dbenofightmadeagainstyou。Ineedn’tsaytheUnitedBrewerieswouldbackyou。There’dbesomeKUDOS comingtous,too;backingareformcandidate。\" Dr。Archiemeasuredhislengthinhischairandthrusthislargebootstowardthecracklingpitch—pine。Hedrankhiscoffeeandlitabigblackcigarwhilehisguestlookedovertheassortmentofcigarettesonthetray。\"Yousaywhydon’tI,\"thedoctorspokewiththedeliberationofamaninthepositionofhavingseveralcoursestochoosefrom,\"but,ontheotherhand,whyshouldI?\"Hepuffedawayandseemed,throughhishalf—closedeyes,tolookdownseverallongroadswiththeintentionofluxuriouslyrejectingallofthemandremainingwherehewas。\"I’msickofpolitics。I’mdisillusionedaboutservingmycrowd,andIdon’tparticularlywanttoserveyours。NothinginitthatIparticularlywant;andaman’snoteffectiveinpoli— ticsunlesshewantssomethingforhimself,andwantsithard。Icanreachmyendsbystraighterroads。Thereareplentyofthingstokeepmebusy。Wehaven’tbeguntodevelopourresourcesinthisState;wehaven’thadalookinonthemyet。That’stheonlythingthatisn’tfake—— makingmenandmachinesgo,andactuallyturningoutaproduct。\" ThedoctorpouredhimselfsomewhitecordialandlookedoverthelittleglassintothefirewithanexpressionwhichledOttenburgtobelievethathewasgettingatsomethinginhisownmind。Fredlitacigaretteandlethisfriendgropeforhisidea。 \"Myboys,here,\"Archiewenton,\"havegotmeratherinterestedinJapan。ThinkI’llgooutthereinthespring,andcomebacktheotherway,throughSiberia。I’vealwayswantedtogotoRussia。\"Hiseyesstillhuntedforsome— thinginhisbigfireplace。Withaslowturnofhisheadhebroughtthembacktohisguestandfixedthemuponhim。 \"Justnow,I’mthinkingofrunningontoNewYorkforafewweeks,\"heendedabruptly。 Ottenburgliftedhischin。\"Ah!\"heexclaimed,asifhebegantoseeArchie’sdrift。\"ShallyouseeThea?\" \"Yes。\"Thedoctorreplenishedhiscordialglass。\"Infact,IsuspectIamgoingexactlyTOseeher。I’mgettingstaleonthingshere,Fred。Bestpeopleintheworldandalwaysdoingthingsforme。I’mfondofthem,too,butI’vebeenwiththemtoomuch。I’mgettingill—tempered,andthefirstthingIknowI’llbehurtingpeople’sfeelings。 IsnappedMrs。DandridgeupoverthetelephonethisafternoonwhensheaskedmetogoouttoColoradoSpringsonSundaytomeetsomeEnglishpeoplewhoarestayingattheAntlers。Veryniceofhertowantme,andIwasassourasifshe’dbeentryingtoworkmeforsomething。 I’vegottogetoutforawhile,tosavemyreputation。\" TothisexplanationOttenburghadnotpaidmuchatten— tion。Heseemedtobelookingatafixedpoint:theyellow glasseyesofafinewildcatoveroneofthebookcases。 \"You’veneverheardheratall,haveyou?\"heaskedreflectively。\"Curious,whenthisishersecondseasoninNewYork。\" \"IwasgoingonlastMarch。Hadeverythingarranged。 AndthenoldCapHarristhoughthecoulddrivehiscarandmethroughalamp—postandIwaslaidupwithacom— poundfracturefortwomonths。SoIdidn’tgettoseeThea。\" Ottenburgstudiedtheredendofhiscigaretteattentively。 \"Shemighthavecomeouttoseeyou。Irememberyoucoveredthedistancelikeastreakwhenshewantedyou。\" Archiemoveduneasily。\"Oh,shecouldn’tdothat。ShehadtogetbacktoViennatoworkonsomenewpartsforthisyear。ShesailedtwodaysaftertheNewYorkseasonclosed。\" \"Well,thenshecouldn’t,ofcourse。\"Fredsmokedhiscigarettecloseandtossedtheendintothefire。\"I’mtre— mendouslygladyou’regoingnow。Ifyou’restale,she’lljackyouup。That’soneofherspecialties。ShegotariseoutofmelastDecemberthatlastedmeallwinter。\"