第16章

类别:其他 作者:Wiggin, Kate Douglas字数:10469更新时间:19/01/07 15:13:11
\"AllsummerlongIhavebeentryingtoremembersomething; somethinguntruethatyouhavebeenbelieving,somefalsehoodforwhichIwasresponsible。Ihavepursuedandpursuedit,butithasalwaysescapedme。Onceitwasclearasdaylight,forRodmanreadmefromtheBibleaplainanswertoallthequestionsthattorturedme。\" \"Thatmusthavebeenthenightthatshefainted,\"thoughtIvory。 \"WhenIawokenextmorningfrommylongsleep,theoldpuzzlehadcomeback,athousandtimesworsethanbefore,forthenIknewthatIhadheldtheclueinmyownhandandhadlostit。Now,praiseGod!Iknowthetruth,andyou,theonlyonetowhomIcantellit,arecloseathand。\" Ivorylookedathismotherandsawthattheveilthathadseparatedthemmentallyseemedtofivevanishedinthenightthathadpassed。Oftenandoftenithadblownaway,asitwere,forthefractionofamomentandthenblownbackagain。Nowhereyesmethiswithanaltogethernewclearnessthatstartledhim,whileherhealthcamewitheaseandsheseemedstrongerthanformanydays。 \"YourememberthewinterIwashereatthefarmalone,whenyouwereattheAcademy?\" \"Yes;itwasthenthatIcamehomeandfoundyousoterriblyill。 Doyouthinkweneedgobacktothatoldtimenow,motherdear?\" \"Yes,Imust,Imust!OnemorningIreceivedastrangeletter,bearingnosignature,inwhichthewritersaidthatifIwishedtoseemyhusbandIhadonlytogotoacertainaddressinBrentville,NewHampshire。TheletterwentontosaythatMr。 AaronBoyntonwasillandlongedfornothingsomuchastospeakwithme;buttherewerereasonswhyhedidnotwishtoreturntoEdgewood,——wouldIcometohimwithoutdelay。\" Ivorynowsatstraightinhischairandlistenedkeenly,feelingthatthiswastobenovague,uncertain,andmisleadingmemory,butsomethingtrueandtangible。 \"Theletterexcitedmegreatlyafteryourfather’slongabsenceandsilence。Iknewitcouldmeannothingbutsorrow,butalthoughIwashalfillatthetime,myplaindutywastogo,soIthought,andgowithoutmakinganyexplanationinthevillage。\" AllthiswasnewtoIvoryandhehunguponhismother’swords,dreadingyethopingforthelightthattheymightsheduponthepast。 \"IarrivedatBrentvillequiteexhaustedwiththejourneyandweigheddownbyanxietyanddread。Ifoundthehousementionedintheletteratseveno’clockintheevening,andknockedatthedoor。Acommon,hard—featuredwomanansweredtheknockand,seemingtoexpectme,usheredmein。Idonotremembertheroom; Irememberonlyachildleaningpatientlyagainstthewindow—silllookingoutintothedark,andthattheplacewasbareandcheerless。 \"IcametocalluponMr。AaronBoynton,’Isaid,withmyheartsinkinglowerandlowerasIspoke。ThewomanopenedadoorintothenextroomandwhenIwalkedin,insteadofseeingyourfather,I confrontedahaggard,death—strickenyoungwomansittingupinbed,hergreateyesbrightwithpain,herlipsaswhiteasherhollowcheeks,andherlong,blackhairstreamingoverthepillow。TheverysightofherstruckaknelltothelittlehopeI hadofsoothingyourfather’ssickbedandforgivinghimifhehaddonemeanywrong。 \"’Well,youcame,asIthoughtyouwould,’saidthegirl,lookingmeoverfromheadtofootinawaythatsomehowmademeburnwithshame。’NowsitdowninthatchairandhearwhatI’vegottosaywhileI’vegotthestrengthtosayit。Ihaven’tthetimenorthedesiretoputaglossonit。AaronBoyntonisn’there,asyouplainlysee,butthat’snotmyfault,forhebelongshereasmuchasanywhere,thoughhewouldn’thavemuchinterestinadyingwoman。Ifyouhavesufferedonaccountofhim,sohaveIandyouhaven’thadthispainboringintoyouandeatingyourlifeawayformonths,asIhave。’ \"Ipitiedher,sheseemedsodistraught,butIwasinterrorofherallthesame,andurgedhertotellherstorycalmlyandI woulddomybesttohearitinthesameway。 \"’Calm,’sheexclaimed,’withthisagonytearingmetopieces! Well,tomakebeginningandendinone,AaronBoyntonwasmyhusbandforthreeyears。’ \"Icaughtholdofthechairtokeepmyselffromfallingandcried:’Idonotbelieveit!’’Believeitornot,sheansweredscornfully,’itmakesnodifferencetome,butIcangiveyoutwentyproofsinasmanyseconds。WemetataCochranemeetingandhechosemefromalltheothersashistruewife。Fortwoyearswetravelledtogether,butlongbeforetheycametoanendtherewasnohappinessforeitherofus。Hehadaconscience——notmuchofaone,butjustenoughtokeephimmiserable。AtlastI felthewasnotbelievingthedoctrineshepreachedandIcaughthimtryingtogetnewsofyouandyourboy,justbecauseyouwereoutofreach,andneglectingmyboyandme,whohadgivenupeverythingtowanderwithhimandliveonwhateverthebrethrenandsisterschosetogiveus。’ \"’Sotherewasachild,aboy,’Igasped。’Did——didhelive?’ ’He’sinthenextroom,’sheanswered,’andit’shimIbroughtyouherefor。AaronBoyntonhasservedusboththesame。HeleftyouformeandmeforHeavenknowswho。IfIcouldliveI wouldn’taskanyfavors,ofyouleastofall,butIhaven’tapennyintheworld,thoughIshan’tneedoneverylong。Myfriendthat’snursingmehasn’tarooftoherheadandshewouldn’tshareitwiththeboyifshehad——she’sabigotedOrthodox。’ \"’Butwhatdoyouexpectmetodo?’Iaskedangrily,forshewasstabbingmewitheveryword。 \"’Theboyisyourhusband’schildandhealwaysrepresentedyouasasaintuponearth。Iexpectyoutotakehimhomeandprovideforhim。Hedoesn’tmeanverymuchtome——justenoughsothatI don’trelishhisgoingtothepoorhouse,that’sall。’ \"’He’llgotosomethingverylikethatifhecomestomine,’I said。 \"’Don’tworrymewithtalk,forIcan’tstandit,’shewailed,clutchingathernightgownandflingingbackherhair。’EitheryoutakethechildorIsendsomebodytoEdgewoodwithhim,somebodytotellthewholestory。SomeoftheCochranitescansupporthimifyouwon’t;or,attheworst,AaronBoynton’stowncantakecareofhisson。Thedoctorhasgivenmetwodaystolive。Ifit’saminutelongerI’vewarnedhimandIwarnyou,thatI’llenditmyself;andifyoudon’ttaketheboyI’lldothesameforhim。He’sagoodsightbetteroffdeadthanknockingabouttheworldalone;he’sinnocentandthere’snosenseinhisbeingpunishedforthesinsofotherfolks。’\" \"Iseeitall!WhydidIneverthinkofitbefore;mypoor,poorRod!\"saidIvory,clenchinghishandsandburyinghisheadinthem。 \"Don’tgrieve,Ivory;ithasallturnedoutsomuchbetterthanwecouldhavehoped;justlistentotheend。Shewasfrightfultohearandtolookat,thegirlwas,thoughallthetimeIcouldfeelthatshemusthavehadagipsybeautyandvigorthatansweredtosomethinginyourfather。 \"’Goalongoutnow,’shecriedsuddenly。’Ican’tstandanybodynear。ThedoctornevergivesmehalfenoughmedicineandforthehourbeforehecomesIfairlydieforlackofit——thoughlittlehecares!Goupstairsandhaveyoursleepandto—morrowyoucanmakeupyourmind。’ \"’Youdon’tleavememuchfreedomtodothat,’Itriedtoanswer; butsheinterruptedme,rockingherbodytoandfro。’Neitherofuswi11everseeAaronBoyntonagain;younomorethanI。He’sintheWest,andamanwithtwofamiliesandnomeansofprovidingforthemdoesn’tcomebackwherehe’sknown。——Comeandtakeheraway,Eliza!Takeheraway,quick!’shecalled。 \"Istumbledoutoftheroomandthewomanwavedmeupstairs。’Youmustn’tmindHetty,’sheapologized;’sheneverhadagooddispositionatthebest,butshe’sfranticwiththepainnow,andgoodreason,too。It’saboutoverandI’11bethankfulwhenitis。You’dbetterswallowtheshameandtakethechild;Ican’tandwon’thavehimandit’11beeasyenoughforyoutosayhebelongstosomeofyourownfolks。’ \"BythistimeIwasmentallybewildered。Whentheironfirstenteredmysoul,whenIfirstheardthetruthaboutyourfather,atthatmomentmymindgaveway——Iknowitnow。\" \"Poor,poormother!Mypoor,gentlelittlemother!\"murmuredIvorybrokenly,asheaskedherhand。 \"Don’tcry,myson;itisallpast;thesorrowandthebitternessandthestruggle。Iwilljustfinishthestoryandthenwe’11 closethebookforever。Thewomangavemesomebreadandtea,andIflungmyselfonthebedwithoutundressing。Idon’tknowhowlongafterwarditwas,butthedooropenedandalittleboystolein;asad,strange,dark—eyedlittleboywhosaid:’CanIsleepuphere?Mother’sscreamingandI’mafraid。’Heclimbedtothecouch。Icoveredhimwithablanket,andIsoonheardhisdeepbreathing。Butlaterinthenight,whenImusthavefallenasleepmyself,Isuddenlyawokeandfelthimlyingbesideme。HehaddraggedtheblanketalongandcreptuponthebedtogetclosetomysideforthewarmthIcouldgive,orthecomfortofmynearness。Thetouchofhimalmostbrokemyheart;Icouldnotpushthelittlecreatureawaywhenhewaslyingtheresonearandwarmandconfiding——he,allunconsciousoftheagonyhismereexistencewastome。ImusthavesleptagainandwhenthedaybrokeIwasalone。IthoughtthepresenceofthechildinthenightwasadreamandIcouldnotrememberwhereIwas,norwhyI wasthere。\" \"Mother,dearmother,don’ttellmeanymoreto—night。Ifearforyourstrength,\"urgedIvory,hiseyesfulloftearsattheremembranceofhersufferings。 \"Thereisonlyalittlemoreandtheweightwillbeoffmyheartandonyours,mypoorson。WouldthatIneednottellyou!ThehousewasstillandIthoughtatfirstthatnoonewasawake,butwhenIopenedthesitting—roomdoorthechildrantowardsmeandtookmyhandasthewomancameinfromthesick—room。’Gointothekitchen,Rodman,’shesaid,’andlaceupyourboots;you’regoingrightoutwiththislady。Hettydiedinthenight,’shecontinuedimpassively。’Thedoctorwashereaboutteno’clockandI’veneverseenhersobad。Hegaveherabigdoseofsleepingpowderandputanotherinthetabledrawerformetomixforhertowardsmorning。Shewashelplesstomove,wethought,butallthesameshemusthavegotoutofbedwhenmybackwasturnedandtakenthepowderdryonhertongue,foritwasgonewhenIlookedforit。Itdidn’thastenthingsmuchandIdon’tblameher。Ifevertherewasawild,recklesscreatureitwasHettyRodman,butI,whoamjusttheopposite,wouldhavedonethesameifI’dbeenher。’ \"Shehurriedlygavemeacupofcoffee,and,puttingacoatandacapontheboy,literallypushedmeoutofthehouse。’I’vegottoreportthingstothedoctor,’shesaid,’andyou’rebetteroutoftheway。Godownthatsidestreettothestationandmindyousaytheboybelongedtoyoursisterwhodiedandlefthimtoyou。 You’reaCochranite,ain’tyou?SowasHetty,andthey’reallsisters,soyou’llbetellingnolies。Good—bye,Rodman,beagoodboyanddon’tbeanytroubletothelady。’ \"HowIfoundthestationIdonotknow,norhowImadethejourney,norwhereItookthestage—coach。Thesnowbegantofallandbynoontherewasadriftingstorm。IcouldnotrememberwhereIwasgoing,norwhotheboywas,forjustasthesnowwaswhirlingoutside,soitwaswhirlinginmybrain。\" \"Mother,Icanhardlybeartohearanymore;itistooterrible!\" criedIvory,risingfromhischairandpacingthefloor。 \"IcanrecallnothingofanyaccounttillIawokeinmyownbedweeksafterwards。Thestrangelittleboywasthere,butMrs。DayandDr。PerrytoldmewhatImusthavetoldthem——thathewasthechildofmydeadsister。ThosewerethelastwordsutteredbythewomaninBrentville;Icarriedthemstraightthroughmyillnessandbroughtthemoutontheothersidemorefirmlyintrenchedthanever。\" \"Ifonlythetruthhadcomebacktoyousooner!\"sighedIvory,comingbacktoherbedside。\"Icouldhavehelpedyoutobearitalltheseyears。Sorrowissomuchlighterwhenyoucanshareitwithsomeoneelse。AndthegirlwhodiedwascalledHettyRodman,then,andshesimplygavethechildherlastname?\" \"Yes,poorsufferingcreature。Ifeelnoangeragainsthernow; ithasburneditselfallaway。NordoIfeelanybitternessagainstyourfather。Iforgotallthismiserablestoryforsolong,lovingandwatchingforhimallthetime,thatitisasifitdidnotbelongtomyownlife,buthadtodowithsomeunhappystranger。Canyouforgive,too,Ivory?\" \"Icantry,\"heanswered。\"GodknowsIoughttobeabletoifyoucan!\" \"AndwillitturnyouawayfromRod?\" \"No,itdrawsmenearertohimthanever。Heshallneverknowthetruth——whyshouldhe?Justashecreptclosetoyouthatnight,allunconsciousofthereasonyouhadforshrinkingfromhim,sohehascreptclosetomeintheseyearsoftrial,whenyourmindhasbeenwandering。\" \"Lifeissostrange。Tothinkthatthischild,ofallothers,shouldhavebeenacomforttoyou。TheLord’shandisinit!\" whisperedMrs。Boyntonfeebly。 \"Hisboyishbeliefinme,hiscompanionship,havekeptthebreathofhopealiveinme——that’sallIcansay。\" \"TheBiblestoryishappeningoveragaininourlives,then。 Don’tyourememberthatAaron’srodbuddedandblossomedandborefruit,andthatthemiraclekepttherebelsfrommurmuring?\" \"Thisrebelneverwillmurmuragain,mother,andIvoryrosetoleavetheroom。\"Nowthatyouhaveshedyourburdenyouwillgrowstrongerandlifewillbealljoy,forWaitstillwillcometoussoonandwecanshakeoffthesemiseriesandbeahappyfamilyoncemore。\" \"Itisshewhohashelpedmemosttofindthethread;pouringsympathyandstrengthintome,nursingme,lovingme,becauseshelovedmywonderfulson。Oh!howblestamongwomenIamtohavelivedlongenoughtoseeyouhappy!\" AndasIvorykissedhismotherandblewoutthecandle,shewhisperedtoherself:\"Evenso,LordJesus,comequickly!\" XXXIV THEDEACON’SWATERLOO MRS。MASON’SwelcometoWaitstillwasunexpectedlyhearty——muchheartierthanitwouldhavebeenSixmonthsbefore,whensheregardedMrs。Boyntonaslittlelessthanaharmlesslunatic,ofnouseasaneighbor;andwhensheknewnothingmoreofIvorythanshecouldgatherbyhisoccasionaldriveorwalkpastherdoorwithacivilgreeting。Rodmanhadbeenuntillatelytheonlymemberofthefamilyforwhomshehadafriendlyfeeling;butallthathadchangedinthelastfewweeks,whenshehadbeenallowedtotakeahandintheBoyntons’affairs。Astothisnewestdevelopmentinthelifeoftheirhousehold,shehadoncebeenyoungherself,andtheveriestblockofstonewouldhavebecomehumanwhenthetwoloversdroveuptothedoorandtoldtheirexcitingstory。 Ivorymadehimselfquicklyathome,andhelpedtheoldladytogetaroomreadyforWaitstillbeforehedrovebackforalookathismotherandthenontocarryouthisimpetuousandromanticschemeofroutingoutthetownclerkandannouncinghisintendedmarriage。 345 Waitstillsleptliketheshepherdboyin\"ThePilgrim’sProgress,\"withthe\"herbcalledHeart’sEase\"inherbosom。SheopenedhereyesnextmorningfromthedepthsofMrs。Mason’sbestfeatherbed,andlookedwonderinglyabouttheroom,withallitsunaccustomedsurroundings。Sheheardtherattleoffire—ironsandtheflatterofdishesbelow;thefirsttimeinallherwoman’slifethatpreparationsforbreakfasthadevergreetedherearswhenshehadnotbeenanactiveparticipatorinthem。 Shelayquitestillforaquarterofanhour,tiredinbodyandmind,butincrediblyhappyinspirit,marvellingatthechangeswroughtinherduringthedaypreceding,themosteventfuloneinherhistory。Onlyyesterdayherlovehadbeenabud,socloselyfoldedthatshescarcelyrecognizeditsbeautyorcolororfragrance;onlyyesterday,andnowsheheldinherhandaperfectflower。Whenandhowhaditgrown,andbywhatmagicprocess? TheimageofIvoryhadbeenallthroughthenightintheforegroundofherdreamsandinhermomentsofwakefulness,bothmadeblissfulbytheheavenofanticipationthatdawneduponher。 Wasevermansowise,sotenderandgentle,sostrong,socomprehending?Whatmatteredtheabsenceofworldlygoods,thepresenceofcareandanxiety,whennwomanhadasteadyhandtohold,asteadfasthearttotrust,amanwhowouldloveherandstandbyher,whate’erbefell? ThenthefaceofIvory’smotherwouldswimintothementalpicture;thepaleface,aswhiteasthepillowitlayupon;thefacewithitsaureoleofashenhair,andthewistfulblueeyesthatbeggedofGodandherchildrensomepeacebeforetheyclosedonlife。 Thevisionofhersisterwasajoyfulone,andherheartwasatpeaceabouther,thepluckylittleprincesswhohadblazedthewayoutoftheogre’scastle。 ShesawPattyclearlyasafuturefinelady,invelvetsandsatinsandfurs,bewitchingevery—bodybyhergayspirits,herpiquantvivacity,andthelovingheartthatlayunderneathallthenonsenseandgaveitwarmthandcolor。 TheremembranceofherfatheraloneonthehilltopdidindeedtroubleWaitstill。Self—reproach,inthetruesenseoftheword,shedidnot,couldnot,feel。Neversincethedayshewasbornhadshebeenfathered,anddaughterlylovewasabsent;butshesufferedwhenshethoughtofthefierce,self—willedoldman,cuttinghimselfofffromallpossiblefriendships,whilehisvigorwasbeingsappeddailyandhourlybyhisterriblegreedofmoney。 TruehousewifethatWaitstillwas,hermindrevertedtoeveryseparatecrockandcanisterinhercupboards,everyarticleofherbakingorcookingthatreposedontheswing—shehinthecellar,thinkinghowlongherfathercouldbecomfortablewithoutherministrations,andso,howlonghewoulddelaybeforeengagingtheuinevitablehousekeeper。Sherevolvedthenumberofpossiblepersonstowhomthepositionwouldbeoffered,andwishedthatMrs。Mason,whosoneededhelp,mightbethechosenone:butthefactofherhavingbeenfriendlytotheBoyntonswouldstrikeheratoncefromthelist。 WhenshewasthankfullyeatingherbreakfastwithMrs。Masonalittlelater,andwaitingforIvorytocallforthembothandtakethemtotheBoyntonfarm,shelittleknewwhatwasgoingonatheroldhomeintheseveryhours,whentotellthetruthshewouldhavelikedtoslipin,haditbeenpossible,washthemorningdishes,skimthecream,dotheweek’schurning,makeherfather’sbed,andslipoutagainintothedearshelteroflovethatawaitedher。 TheDeaconhadpassedagoodpartofthenightinschemingandcontriving,andwhenhedrankhisself—madecupofmuddycoffeeatseveno’clocknextmorninghehadformedseveralplansthatweretobeimmediatelyfrustrated,hadheknownit,bytheexasperatingandsuspiciousnatureoftheladiesinvolvedinthem。 Ateighthehadleftthehouse,startedBillMorrillatthestore,andwasontheroadinsearchofvengeanceandahousekeeper。OldMrs。AtkinsofDeerwandersniffedatthewagesoffered。MissPeters,ofUnionFalls,anagedspinsterwithweaklungs,hadtheimpertinencetotellhimthatshefearedshecouldn’tstandthecoldinhishouse;shehadheardhewasveryparticularabouttheamountofwoodthatwasburned。Afour—miledrivebroughthimtothevillagepoeticallynamedtheBrickKiln,whereheofferedtoMrs。PeterUphamanadvanceoftwenty—fivecentsaweekoverandabovethesalarywithwhichhehadsoughttotemptMrs。Atkins。Farfrombeingimpressed,Mrs。Uphill,beingofahightemperandcandidturnofmind,toldhimshe’dprefertostarveathome。Therewasnotanotherfreewomanwithineightmiles,andtheDeaconwaschafingundertemortificationofbeingcontinuallyobligedtostatethereasonforhisneedingahousekeeper。Theonlyhope,itseemed,layingoingtoSacoandhiringastranger,aplannotatalltohisliking,asitwassuretoinvolvehiminextraexpense。 Mutteringthreatsagainsttheuniverseingeneral,hedrovehomebywayofMilliken’sMills,thinkingoftheunfedhens,theunmilkedcow,theunwasheddishes,theunchurnedcreamandaboveallofhisunchasteneddaughters;hisrageincreasingwitheverystepuntilitwasnearlyatthewhiteheatofthenightbefore。 Alongstretchofhillbroughtthetiredoldmaretoaslowwalk,andenabledtheDeacontoseetheWidowTillmanclippingthegeraniumsthatstoodintincansontheshelfofherkitchenwindow。 Now,FoxwellBaxterhadneverbeenavillageLotharioatanyage,norfrequentedthesocietyofsuch。Oflateyears,indeed,hehadfrequentednosocietyofanykind,sothathehadmissed,forinstance,AbelDay’sdescriptionoftheWidowTillmanasa\"reg’larsyreen,\"thoughhevaguelyrememberedthatsomeoftheBaptistsistershadquestionedtheauthenticityofherconversionbytheiryoungandattractiveminister。Shemadeapleasantpictureatthewindow;shewasafreewoman(alittletoofree,theneighborswouldhavesaid;buttheDeacondidn’tknowthat); shewasacomparativenewcomertothevillage,andhermindhadnotbeenpoisonedwithfemininegossip——inaword,shewasadistinctlyhopefulsubject,and,actingonablindandsuddenimpulse,heturnedintotheyard,’dungthereinsoverthemare’sneck,andknockedatthebackdoor。 \"Hercharacter’snoworsethanminebynowifAuntAbbyCole’sontheroad,\"hethoughtgrimly,\"an’iftheWilsonsseemysleighinsideofwidder’sfence,somuchthebetter;it’llgive’emajog。——GoodmorningMis’Tillman,\"hesaidtothesmilinglady。\"I’llcometothep’intatonce。MyyoungestdaughterhasmarriedMarkWilsonagainstmywill,an’goneawayfromtown,an’ theolderone’schosenahusbandstilllesstomylikin’。Doyouwanttocomeandhousekeepforme?\" \"Isurmisedsomethingwasgoingon,\"re—turnedMrs。Tillman。\"I sawPattyandMarkdriveawayearlythismorning,withMr。andMrs。Wilsonwrappingthegirlupandputtingahotsoapstoneinthesleigh,andconsid’ablekissingandhuggingthrownin。\" ThisknowledgeaddedfueltotheflamethatwasburningfiercelyintheDeacon’sbreast。 \"Well,howaboutthehousekeepingheasked,tryingnottoshowhiseagerness,andnotrecognizinghimselfatallintheenterpriseinwhichhefoundhimselfindulging。 \"I’mverycomfortablehere,\"theladyrespondedartfully,\"andI don’tknow’sIcaretomakeanychange,thankyou。Ididn’tlikethevillagemuchatfirst,afterlivinginlargerplaces,butnowI’macquainted,itkindofgainsonme。 Herreplywascarefullyframed,forhermindworkedwithgreatrapidity,andshewasmistressofthesituationalmostassoonasshesawtheDeaconalightingfromhissleigh。Hewasnotthesortofmantobeacasualcaller,andhismannerbespokeanurgenterrand。Shehadapensionofsixdollarsamonth,butoverandabovethatsumherlivingwasprecarious。Shemadecoats,andshehadneverknownwant,forshewasamasterhandatdealingwiththeoppositesex。DeaconBaxter,accordingtocommonreport,hadtenorfifteenthousanddollarsstowedawayinthebanks,sothesituationwouldbeassimpleaspossibleunderordinarycircumstances;itwasaseasytoturnoutoneman’spocketsasall—other’swhenhewasanormalhumanbeing;butDeaconBaxterwasadifferentproposition。 \"Iwonderhowlonghe’slikelytolive,\"shethought,glancingathimcovertly,outofthetailofhereye。\"Hiseviltempermusthavedrivenmorethanonenailinhiscoffin。Iwonder,iflrefusetohousekeep,whetherI’11get——abetteroffer。IwonderifIcouldmanagehimifIgothim!I’dratherliketositintheBaxterpewattheOrthodoxmeeting—houseafterthewaysomeoftheBaptistsistershavesnubbedmesinceIcomehere。\" Notavestigeoftheseincendiarythoughtsshowedinhercomelycountenance,andhersoulmighthavebeenaswhiteasthehigh—bibbedapronthatcoveredit,tojudgebyhergenialsmile。 \"I’dmakethewagesfair,\"urgedtheDeacon,lookingroundthecleankitchen,withthebreak—fast—tablesittingnearthesunnywindowandtheodorofcornedbeefandcabbageissuingtemptinglyfromaboilingpotonthefire。\"Ihopesheain’tagreatmeat—eater,\"hethought,\"butit’stoosoontocrossthatbridgeyetawhile。\" \"I’venodoubtofit,\"saidthewidow,wonderingifhervoicerangtrue;\"butI’vegotapension,andwhyshouldIleavethiscosylittlehome?WouldIbettermyselfany,that’sthequestion? I’mkindoflonesomehere,that’stheonlyreasonI’dconsideramove。\" \"Noneedo’bein’lonesomedowntotheFalls,\"saidtheDeacon。 \"AndI’minan’outallday,betweenthebarnan’thestore。\" This,indeed,wasnotapleasantprospect,butJaneTillmanhadfacedworseonesinhertime。