第10章

类别:其他 作者:Swinburne, Algernon Charles字数:11232更新时间:19/01/07 15:14:13
Somonthbymonth,summerandwinter,theoldlifegoeson——reading,praying,weeping,praying。Theytelluswebecomeutterlystupid。Weknowit。Eventhemultiplicationtablewelearntwithsomuchcareweforgot。 Thephysicalworldrecedesfurtherandfurtherfromus。Trulywelovenottheworld,neitherthethingsthatareinit。Acrosstheboundsofsleepourgrieffollowsus。Whenwewakeinthenightwearesittingupinbedweepingbitterly,orfindourselfoutsideinthemoonlight,dressed,andwalkingupanddown,andwringingourhands,andwecannottellhowwecamethere。Sopasstwoyears,asmenreckonthem。 V。 Thenanewtime。 Beforeustherewerethreecoursespossible——togomad,todie,tosleep。 Wetakethelattercourse;ornaturetakesitforus。 Allthingstakerestinsleep;thebeasts,birds,theveryflowersclosetheireyes,andthestreamsarestillinwinter;allthingstakerest;thenwhynotthehumanreasonalso?Sothequestioningdevilinusdropsasleep,andinthatsleepabeautifuldreamrisesforus。Thoughyouhearallthedreamsofmen,youwillhardlyfindaprettieronethanours。Itranso: InthecentreofallthingsisamightyHeart,which,havingbegottenallthings,lovesthem;and,havingbornthemintolife,beatswithgreatthrobsoflovetowardsthem。NodeathforHisdearinsects,nohellforHisdearmen,noburningupforHisdearworld——Hisown,ownworldthathehasmade。Intheendallwillbebeautiful。Donotaskushowwemakeourdreamtallywithfacts;thegloryofadreamisthis——thatitdespisesfacts,andmakesitsown。Ourdreamsavesusfromgoingmad;thatisenough。 Itspeculiarpointofsweetnesslayhere。WhentheMightyHeart’syearningoflovebecametoogreatforotherexpression,itshapeditselfintothesweetRoseofheaven,thebelovedMan—god。 Jesus!youJesusofourdream!howwelovedyou;noBibletellsofyouasweknewyou。Yoursweethandsheldoursfast;yoursweetvoicesaidalways,\"Iamhere,mylovedone,notfaroff;putyourarmsaboutme,andholdfast。\" WefindHimineverythinginthosedays。Whenthelittlewearylambwedrivehomedragsitsfeet,weseizeonit,andcarryitwithitsheadagainstourface。Hislittlelamb!WefeelwehavegotHim。 WhenthedrunkenKafferliesbytheroadinthesunwedrawhisblanketoverhishead,andputgreenbranchesofmilk—bushonit。HisKaffer;whyshouldthesunhurthim? Intheevening,whenthecloudsliftthemselveslikegates,andtheredlightsshinethroughthem,wecry;forinsuchgloryHewillcome,andthehandsthatachetotouchHimwillholdhim,andweshallseethebeautifulhairandeyesofourGod。\"Liftupyourheads,O,yegates;andbeyeliftedup,yeeverlastingdoors,andourKingofgloryshallcomein!\" Thepurpleflowers,thelittlepurpleflowers,areHiseyes,lookingatus。 Wekissthem,andkneelaloneontheflat,rejoicingoverthem。AndthewildernessandthesolitaryplaceshallbegladforHim,andthedesertshallrejoiceandblossomasarose。 Ifever,inourtearful,joyfulecstasy,thepoor,sleepy,half—deaddevilshouldraisehishead,welaughathim。Itisnothishournow。 \"Ifthereshouldbeahell,afterall!\"hemutters。\"IfyourGodshouldbecruel!IfthereshouldbenoGod!Ifyoushouldfindoutitisallimagination!If——\" Welaughathim。Whenamansitsinthewarmsunshine,doyouaskhimforproofofit?Hefeels——thatisall。Andwefeel——thatisall。WewantnoproofofourGod。Wefeel,wefeel! WedonotbelieveinourGodbecausetheBibletellsusofHim。WebelieveintheBiblebecauseHetellsusofit。WefeelHim,wefeelHim,wefeel— —thatisall!Andthepoor,half—swampeddevilmutters: \"Butifthedayshouldcomewhenyoudonotfeel?\" Andwelaughandcryhimdown。 \"Itwillnevercome——never,\"andthepoordevilslinkstosleepagain,withhistailbetweenhislegs。Fierceassertionmanytimesrepeatedishardtostandagainst;onlytimeseparatesthetruthfromthelie。Sowedreamon。 Onedaywegowithourfathertotown,tochurch。Thetownspeoplerustleintheirsilks,andthemenintheirsleekcloth,andsettlethemselvesintheirpews,andthelightshinesinthroughthewindowsontheartificialflowersinthewomen’sbonnets。Wehavethesamemiserablefeelingthatwehaveinashopwherealltheclerksareverysmart。Wewishourfatherhadn’tbroughtustotown,andwewereoutonthekaroo。Thenthemaninthepulpitbeginstopreach。Histextis\"Hethatbelievethnotshallbedamned。\" Thedaybeforethemagistrate’sclerk,whowasanatheist,hasdiedinthestreetstruckbylightning。 Themaninthepulpitmentionsnoname;buthetalksof\"ThehandofGodmadevisibleamongstus。\"Hetellsushow,whenthewhitestrokefell,quiveringandnaked,thesoulfled,robbedofhisearthlyfilament,andlayatthefootstoolofGod;howoveritsheadhasbeenpouredoutthewrathoftheMightyOne,whoseexistenceithasdenied;and,quiveringandterrified,ithasfledtotheeverlastingshade。 We,aswelisten,halfstartup;everydropofbloodinourbodyhasrushedtoourhead。Helies!helies!helies!Thatmaninthepulpitlies! Willnoonestophim?Havenoneofthemheard——dononeofthemknow,thatwhenthepoor,darksoulshutitseyesonearthitopenedtheminthestilllightofheaven?thatthereisnowrathwhereGod’sfaceis?thatifonecouldoncecreeptothefootstoolofGod,thereiseverlastingpeacethere,likethefreshstillnessoftheearlymorning?Whiletheatheistlaywonderingandafraid,Godbentdownandsaid:\"Mychild,hereIam——I,whomyouhavenotknown;I,whomyouhavenotbelievedin;Iamhere。I sentMymessenger,thewhitesheet—lightning,tocallyouhome。Iamhere。\" Thenthepoorsoulturnedtothelight——itsweaknessandpainweregoneforever。 Havetheynotknown,havetheynotheard,whoitisrules? \"ForalittlemomenthaveIhiddenmyfacefromthee;butwitheverlastingkindnesswillIhavemercyuponthee,saiththeLordthyRedeemer。\" Wemutterontoourselves,tillsomeonepullsusviolentlybythearmtoremindusweareinchurch。Weseenothingbutourownideas。 Presentlyeveryoneturnstopray。TherearesixhundredsoulsliftingthemselvestotheEverlastinglight。 Behindussittwoprettyladies;onehandsherscent—bottlesoftlytotheother,andamotherpullsdownherlittlegirl’sfrock。Oneladydropsherhandkerchief;agentlemanpicksitup;sheblushes。Thewomeninthechoirturnsoftlytheleavesoftheirtune—books,tobereadywhentheprayingisdone。ItisasthoughtheythoughtmoreofthesingingthantheEverlastingFather。Oh,woulditnotbemoreworshipofHimtositaloneinthekarooandkissonelittlepurpleflowerthathehadmade?Isitnotmockery?Thenthethoughtcomes,\"Whatdoestthouhere,Elijah?\"Wewhojudge,whatarewebetterthanthey?——ratherworse。Isitanyexcusetosay,\"Iambutachildandmustcome?\"DoesGodallowanysoultostepinbetweenthespirithemadeandhimself?Whatdowethereinthatplace,whereallthewordsareliesagainsttheAllFather?Filledwithhorror,weturnandfleeoutoftheplace。Onthepavementwesmiteourfoot,andswearinourchild’ssoulneveragaintoenterthoseplaceswheremencometosingandpray。Wearequestionedafterward。Whywasitwewentoutofthechurch。 Howcanweexplain?——westandsilent。Thenwearepressedfurther,andwetrytotell。Thenaheadisshakensolemnlyatus。NoonecanthinkitwrongtogotothehouseoftheLord;itistheidleexcuseofawickedboy。Whenwillwethinkseriouslyofoursouls,andlovegoingtochurch? Wearewicked,verywicked。Andwe——weslinkawayandgoalonetocry。 Willitbealwaysso?Whetherwehateanddoubt,orwhetherwebelieveandlove,toourdearest,arewetoseemalwayswicked? Wedonotyetknowthatinthesoul’ssearchfortruththebitternesslieshere,thestrivingcannotalwayshideitselfamongthethoughts;soonerorlateritwillclotheitselfinoutwardaction;thenitstepsinanddividesbetweenthesoulandwhatitloves。Allthingsonearthhavetheirprice; andfortruthwepaythedearest。Webarteritforloveandsympathy。Theroadtohonourispavedwiththorns;butonthepathtotruth,ateverystepyousetyourfootdownonyourownheart。 VI。 Thenatlastanewtime——thetimeofwaking;short,sharp,andnotpleasant,aswakingsoftenare。 Sleepanddreamsexistonthiscondition——thatnoonewakethedreamer。 Andnowlifetakesusupbetweenherfingerandthumb,shakesusfuriously,tillourpoornoddingheadiswell—nighrolledfromourshoulders,andshesetsusdownalittlehardonthebareearth,bruisedandsore,butpreternaturallywideawake。 Wehavesaidinourdaysofdreaming,\"Injusticeandwrongareaseeming; painisashadow。OurGod,Heisreal,Hewhomadeallthings,andHeonlyisLove。\" Nowlifetakesusbytheneckandshowsusafewotherthings,——new—madegraveswiththeredsandflyingaboutthem;eyesthatwelovewiththewormseatingthem;evilmenwalkingsleekandfat,thewholeterriblehurly—burlyofthethingcalledlife,——andshesays,\"Whatdoyouthinkofthese?\"Wedarenotsay\"Nothing。\"Wefeelthem;theyareveryreal。Butwetrytolayourhandsaboutandfeelthatotherthingwefeltbefore。Inthedarknightinthefuel—roomwecrytoourBeautifuldream—god:\"Oh,letuscomenearyou,andlayourheadagainstyourfeet。Nowinourhourofneedbenearus。\"ButHeisnotthere;Heisgoneaway。Theoldquestioningdevilisthere。 Wemusthavebeenawakenedsoonerorlater。Theimaginationcannotalwaystriumphoverreality,thedesireovertruth。Wemusthavebeenawakened。 Ifitwasdonealittlesharply,whatmatter?Itwasdonethoroughly,andithadtobedone。 VII。 Andanewlifebeginsforus——anewtime,alifeascoldasthatofamanwhositsonthepinnacleofanicebergandseestheglitteringcrystalsallabouthim。Theoldlooksindeedlikealonghotdelirium,peopledwithphantasies。Thenewiscoldenough。 NowwehavenoGod。Wehavehadtwo:theoldGodthatourfathershandeddowntous,thatwehated,andneverliked:thenewonethatwemadeforourselves,thatweloved;butnowhehasflittedawayfromus,andweseewhathewasmadeof——theshadowofourhighestideal,crownedandthroned。 NowwehavenoGod。 \"Thefoolhathsaidinhisheart,ThereisnoGod。\"Itmaybeso。Mostthingssaidorwrittenhavebeentheworkoffools。 Thisthingiscertain——heisafoolwhosays,\"Nomanhathsaidinhisheart,ThereisnoGod。\" Ithasbeensaidmanythousandtimesinheartswithprofoundbitternessofearnestfaith。 Wedonotcryandweep:wesitdownwithcoldeyesandlookattheworld。 Wearenotmiserable。Whyshouldwebe?Weeatanddrink,andsleepallnight;butthedeadarenotcolder。 Andwesayitslowly,butwithoutsighing,\"Yes,weseeitnow;thereisnoGod。\" And,weadd,growingalittlecolderyet。\"Thereisnojustice。Theoxdiesintheyoke,beneathitsmaster’swhip;itturnsitsanguish—filledeyesonthesunlight,butthereisnosignofrecompensetobemadeit。 Theblackmanisshotlikeadog,anditgoeswellwiththeshooter。Theinnocentareaccusedandtheaccusertriumphs。Ifyouwilltakethetroubletoscratchthesurfaceanywhere,youwillseeundertheskinasentientbeingwrithinginimpotentanguish。\" And,wesayfurther,andourheartisastheheartofthedeadforcoldness,\"Thereisnoorder:allthingsaredrivenaboutbyablindchance。\" Whatasouldrinksinwithitsmother’smilkwillnotleaveitinaday。 Fromourearliesthourwehavebeentaughtthatthethoughtoftheheart,theshapingoftherain—cloud,theamountofwoolthatgrowsonasheep’sback,thelengthofadrought,andthegrowingofthecorn,dependonnothingthatmovesimmutable,attheheartofallthings;butonthechangeablewillofachangeablebeing,whomourprayerscanalter。Tous,fromthebeginning,naturehasbeenbutapoorplasticthing,tobetoyedwiththiswayorthat,asmanhappenstopleasehisdeityornot;togotochurchornot;tosayhisprayersrightornot;totravelonaSundayornot。WasitpossibleforusinaninstanttoseeNatureassheis——theflowingvestmentofanunchangingreality?Whenthesoulbreaksfreefromthearmsofasuperstition,bitsoftheclawsandtalonsbreakthemselvesoffinhim。Itisnottheworkofadaytosqueezethemout。 Andso,forus,thehuman—likedriverandguidebeinggone,allexistence,aswelookoutatitwithourchilled,wonderingeyes,isanaimlessriseandswellofshiftingwaters。Inallthatwelteringchaoswecanseenospotsolargeasaman’shandonwhichwemayplantourfoot。 Whetheramanbelievesinahuman—likeGodornoisasmallthing。Whetherhelooksintothementalandphysicalworldandseesnorelationbetweencauseandeffect,noorder,butablindchancesporting,thisisthemightiestfactthatcanberecordedinanyspiritualexistence。Itwerealmostamercytocuthisthroat,ifindeedhedoesnotdoitforhimself。 We,however,donotcutourthroats。Todosowouldimplysomedesireandfeeling,andwehavenodesireandnofeeling;weareonlycold。Wedonotwishtolive,andwedonotwishtodie。OnedayasnakecurlsitselfroundthewaistofaKafferwoman。Wetakeitinourhand,swingitroundandround,andflingitontheground——dead。Everyonelooksatuswitheyesofadmiration。Wealmostlaugh。Isitwonderfultoriskthatforwhichwecarenothing? Intruth,nothingmatters。Thisdirtylittleworldfullofconfusion,andthebluerag,stretchedoverheadforasky,issolowwecouldtouchitwithourhand。 Existenceisagreatpot,andtheoldFatewhostirsitroundcaresnothingwhatrisestothetopandwhatgoesdown,andlaughswhenthebubblesburst。Andwedonotcare。Letitboilabout。Whyshouldwetroubleourselves?Neverthelessthephysicalsensationsarereal。Hungerhurts,andthirst,thereforeweeatanddrink:inactionpainsus,thereforeweworklikegalley—slaves。Noonedemandsit,butwesetourselvestobuildagreatdaminredsandbeyondthegraves。Inthegreydawnbeforethesheepareletoutweworkatit。Allday,whiletheyoungostricheswetendfeedaboutus,weworkonthroughthefiercestheat。Thepeoplewonderwhatnewspirithasseizedusnow。Theydonotknowweareworkingforlife。Webearthegreateststones,andfeelasatisfactionwhenwestaggerunderthem,andarehurtbyapangthatshootsthroughourchest。 Whileweeatourdinnerwecarryonbasketsfullofearth,asthoughthedevildroveus。TheKafferservantshaveastorythatatnightawitchandtwowhiteoxencometohelpus。Nowall,theysay,couldgrowsoquicklyunderoneman’shands。 Atnight,aloneinourcabin,wesitnomorebroodingoverthefire。Whatshouldwethinkofnow?Allisemptiness。Sowetaketheoldarithmetic; andthemultiplicationtable,whichwithsomuchpainswelearntlongagoandforgotdirectly,welearnnowinafewhours,andneverforgetagain。 Wetakeastrangesatisfactioninworkingarithmeticalproblems。Wepauseinourbuildingtocoverthestoneswithfiguresandcalculations。WesavemoneyforaLatinGrammarandAlgebra,andcarrythemaboutinourpockets,poringoverthemasoverourBibleofold。Wehavethoughtwewereutterlystupid,incapableofrememberinganything,oflearninganything。Nowwefindthatalliseasy。Hasanewsoulcreptintothisoldbody,thatevenourintellectualfacultiesarechanged?Wemarvel;notperceivingthatwhatamanexpendsinprayerandecstasyhecannothaveoverforacquiringknowledge。Younevershedatear,orcreateabeautifulimage,orquiverwithemotion,butyoupayforitatthepractical,calculatingendofyournature。Youhavejustsomuchforce:whentheonechannelrunsovertheotherrunsdry。 AndnowweturntoNature。Alltheseyearswehavelivedbesideher,andwehaveneverseenher;andnowweopenoureyesandlookather。 Therockshavebeentousablurofbrown:webendoverthem,andthedisorganisedmassesdissolveintoamany—coloured,many—shaped,carefully— arrangedformofexistence。Heremassesofrainbow—tintedcrystals,half— fusedtogether;therebandsofsmoothgreyandredmethodicallyoverlyingeachother。Thisrockhereiscoveredwithadelicatesilvertracery,insomemineral,resemblingleavesandbranches;thereontheflatstone,onwhichwesooftenhavesattoweepandpray,welookdown,andseeitcoveredwiththefossilfootprintsofgreatbirds,andthebeautifulskeletonofafish。Wehaveoftentriedtopictureinourmindwhatthefossiledremainsofcreaturesmustbelike,andallthewhilewesatonthem,wehavebeensoblindedbythinkingandfeelingthatwehaveneverseentheworld。 Theflatplainhasbeentousareachofmonotonousred。Welookatit,andeveryhandfulofsandstartsintolife。Thatwonderfulpeople,theants,welearntoknow;seethemmakewarandpeace,playandwork,andbuildtheirhugepalaces。Andthatsmallerpeoplewemakeacquaintancewith,wholiveintheflowers。Thebittoflowerhasbeenforusamereblurofyellow;wefinditsheartcomposedofahundredperfectflowers,thehomesofthetinyblackpeoplewithredstripes,whomoveinandoutinthatlittleyellowcity。Everybluebellhasitsinhabitant。Everydaythekarooshowsusanewwondersleepinginitsteemingbosom。 Onourwaybacktoworkwepauseandstandtoseetheground—spidermakeitstrap,buryitselfinthesand,andthenwaitforthefallinginofitsenemy。 Furtheronwalksahornedbeetle,andnearhimstartsopenthedoorofaspider,whopeepsoutcarefully,andquicklypullsitdownagain。Onakaroo—bushagreenflyislayinghersilvereggs。Wecarrythemhome,andseetheshellspierced,thespottedgrubcomeout,turntoagreenfly,andflitaway。WearenotsatisfiedwithwhatNatureshowsus,andweseesomethingforourselves。Underthewhitehenweputadozeneggs,andbreakonedaily,toseethewhitespotwaxintothechicken。Wearenotexcitedorenthusiasticaboutit;butamanisnottolayhisthroatopen,hemustthinkofsomething。Soweplantseedsinrowsonourdam—wall,andpulloneupdailytoseehowitgoeswiththem。Alladeenburiedherwonderfulstone,andagoldenpalacesprungupatherfeet。Wedofarmore。Weputabrownseedintheearth,andalivingthingstartsout—— startsupward——why,nomorethanAlladeencanwesay——startsupward,anddoesnotdesisttillitishigherthanourheads,sparklingwithdewintheearlymorning,glitteringwithyellowblossoms,shakingbrownseedswithlittleembryosoulsontotheground。Welookatitsolemnly,fromthetimeitconsistsoftwoleavespeepingabovethegroundandasoftwhiteroot,tillwehavetoraiseourfacestolookatit;butwefindnoreasonforthatupwardstarting。 Welookintodeadducksandlambs。Intheeveningwecarrythemhome,spreadnewspapersonthefloor,andlieworkingwiththemtillmidnight。 Withastartedfeelingnearakintoecstasyweopenthelumpoffleshcalledaheart,andfindlittledoorsandstringsinside。Wefeelthem,andputtheheartaway;buteverynowandthenreturntolook,andtofeelthemagain。Whywelikethemsowecanhardlytell。 Aganderdrownsitselfinourdam。Wetakeitout,andopenitonthebank,andkneellookingatit。Abovearetheorgansdividedbydelicatetissues;belowaretheintestinesartisticallycurvedinaspiralform,andeachtiercoveredbyadelicatenetworkofblood—vesselsstandingoutredagainstthefaintbluebackground。Eachbranchoftheblood—vesselsiscomprisedofatrunk,bifurcatingandrebifurcatingintothemostdelicate,hair—likethreads,symmetricallyarranged。Wearestruckwithitssingularbeauty。And,moreover——andherewedropfromourkneelingintoasittingposture——thisalsoweremark:ofthatsameexactshapeandoutlineisourthorn—treeseenagainsttheskyinmid—winter:ofthatshapealsoisdelicatemetallictracerybetweenourrocks;inthatexactpathdoesourwaterflowwhenwithoutafurrowweleaditfromthedam;soshapedaretheantlersofthehornedbeetle。Howarethesethingsrelatedthatsuchdeepunionshouldexistbetweenthemall?Isitchance?Or,aretheynotallthefinebranchesofonetrunk,whosesapflowsthroughusall?Thatwouldexplainit。Wenodoverthegander’sinside。 Thisthingwecallexistence;isitnotasomethingwhichhasitsrootsfardownbelowinthedark,anditsbranchesstretchingoutintotheimmensityabove,whichweamongthebranchescannotsee?Notachancejungle;alivingthing,aOne。Thethoughtgivesusintensesatisfaction,wecannottellwhy。 Wenodoverthegander;thenstartupsuddenly,lookintothebluesky,throwthedeadganderandtherefuseintothedam,andgotoworkagain。 Andso,itcomestopassintime,thattheearthceasesforustobeawelteringchaos。Wewalkinthegreathalloflife,lookingupandroundreverentially。Nothingisdespicable——allismeaning—full;nothingissmall——allispartofawhole,whosebeginningandendweknownot。Thelifethatthrobsinusisabeginningandendweknownot。Thelifethatthrobsinusisapulsationfromit;toomightyforourcomprehension,nottoosmall。 Andso,itcomestopassatlast,thatwhereastheskywasatfirstasmallblueragstretchedoutoverus,andsolowthatourhandsmighttouchit,pressingdownonus,itraisesitselfintoanimmeasurablebluearchoverourheads,andwebegintoliveagain。 Chapter2。II。Waldo’sStranger。 Waldolayonhisstomachontheredsand。Thesmallostrichesheherdedwanderedabouthim,peckingatthefoodhehadcut,oratpebblesanddrysticks。Onhisrightlaythegraves;tohisleftthedam;inhishandwasalargewoodenpostcoveredwithcarvings,atwhichheworked。Dosslaybeforehimbaskinginthewintersunshine,andnowandagaincastinganexpectantglanceatthecornerofthenearestostrichcamp。Thescrubbythorn—treesunderwhichtheylayyieldednoshade,butnonewasneededinthatgloriousJuneweather,wheninthehottestpartoftheafternoonthesunwasbutpleasantlywarm;andtheboycarvedon,notlookingup,yetconsciousofthebrownsereneearthabouthimandtheintenselyblueskyabove。 Presently,atthecornerofthecamp,Emappeared,bearingacoveredsaucerinonehandandintheotherajug,withacupinthetop。Shewasgrownintoaprematurelittleoldwomanofsixteen,ridiculouslyfat。Thejugandsaucersheputdownonthegroundbeforethedogandhismasteranddroppeddownbesidethemherself,pantingandoutofbreath。 \"Waldo,asIcameupthecampsImetsomeoneonhorseback,andIdobelieveitmustbethenewmanthatiscoming。\" ThenewmanwasanEnglishmantowhomtheBoer—womanhadhiredhalfthefarm。 \"Hum!\"saidWaldo。 \"Heisquiteyoung,\"saidEm,holdingherside,\"andhehasbrownhair,andbeardcurlingclosetohisface,andsuchdarkblueeyes。And,Waldo,I wassoashamed!Iwasjustlookingbacktosee,youknow,andhehappenedjusttobelookingbacktoo,andwelookedrightintoeachother’sfaces; andhegotred,andIgotsored。Ibelieveheisthenewman。\" \"Yes,\"saidWaldo。 \"Imustgonow。PerhapshehasbroughtuslettersfromthepostfromLyndall。Youknowshecan’tstayatschoolmuchlonger,shemustcomebacksoon。Andthenewmanwillhavetostaywithustillhishouseisbuilt。 Imustgethisroomready。Good—bye!\" Shetrippedoffagain,andWaldocarvedonathispost。Dosslaywithhisnoseclosetothecoveredsaucer,andsmeltthatsomeonehadmadenicelittlefatcakesthatafternoon。Bothweresointentontheiroccupationthatnottillahorse’shoofsbeatbesidetheminthesanddidtheylookuptoseeariderdrawinginhissteed。 HewascertainlynotthestrangerwhomEmhaddescribed。Adark,somewhatFrench—lookinglittlemanofeight—and—twenty,ratherstout,withheavy,cloudyeyesandpointedmoustaches。Hishorsewasafierycreature,wellcaparisoned;ahighly—finishedsaddlebaghungfromthesaddle;theman’shandsweregloved,andhepresentedtheappearance—anappearancerareonthatfarm——ofawell—dressedgentleman。 Inanuncommonlymelodiousvoiceheinquiredwhetherhemightbeallowedtoremainthereforanhour。Waldodirectedhimtothefarmhouse,butthestrangerdeclined。Hewouldmerelyrestunderthetreesandgivehishorsewater。HeremovedthesaddleandWaldoledtheanimalawaytothedam。 Whenhereturned,thestrangerhadsettledhimselfunderthetrees,withhisbackagainstthesaddle。Theboyofferedhimofthecakes。Hedeclined,buttookadraughtfromthejug;andWaldolaydownnotfaroffandfelltoworkagain。Itmatterednothingifcoldeyessawit。Itwasnothissheep—shearingmachine。Withmaterialloves,aswithhuman,wegomadonce,loveout,andhavedone。Wenevergetupthetrueenthusiasmasecondtime。Thiswasbutathinghehadmade,labouredover,lovedandliked——nothingmore——nothismachine。 Thestrangerforcedhimselflowerdowninthesaddleandyawned。Itwasadrowsyafternoon,andheobjectedtotravelintheseout—of—the—worldparts。Helikedbettercivilisedlife,whereateveryhourofthedayamanmaylookforhisglassofwine,andhiseasy—chair,andpaper;whereatnighthemaylockhimselfintohisroomwithhisbooksandabottleofbrandy,andtastejoysmentalandphysical。Theworldsaidofhim——theall—knowing,omnipotentworld,whomnolockscanbar,whohasthecat—likepropensityofseeingbestinthedark——theworldsaid,thatbetterthanthebookshelovedthebrandy,andbetterthanbooksorbrandythatwhichithadbeenbetterhadhelovedless。Butfortheworldhecarednothing;hesmiledblandlyinitsteeth。Alllifeisadream;ifwineandphilosophyandwomenkeepthedreamfrombecominganightmare,somuchthebetter。Itisalltheyarefitfor,alltheycanbeusedfor。Therewasanothersidetohislifeandthought;butofthattheworldknewnothing,andsaidnothing,asthewayofthewiseworldis。 Thestrangerlookedfrombeneathhissleepyeyelidsatthebrownearththatstretchedaway,beautifulinspiteofitselfinthatJunesunshine;lookedatthegraves,thegablesofthefarmhouseshowingoverthestonewallsofthecamps,attheclownishfellowathisfeet,andyawned。Buthehaddrunkofthehind’stea,andmustsaysomething。 \"Yourfather’splaceIpresume?\"heinquiredsleepily。 \"No;Iamonlyaservant。\"