第11章

类别:其他 作者:Swinburne, Algernon Charles字数:8683更新时间:19/01/07 15:14:13
\"Dutchpeople?\" \"Yes。\" \"Andyoulikethelife?\" Theboyhesitated。 \"Ondayslikethese。\" \"Andwhyonthese?\" Theboywaited。 \"Theyareverybeautiful。\" Thestrangerlookedathim。Itseemedthatasthefellow’sdarkeyeslookedacrossthebrownearththeykindledwithanintensesatisfaction; thentheylookedbackatthecarving。 Whathadthatcreature,socoarse—cladandclownish,todowiththesubtlejoysoftheweather?Himself,white—handedanddelicate,hemighthearthemusicwithshimmeringsunshineandsolitudeplayonthefinely—strungchordsofnature;butthatfellow!Wasnottheearinthatgreatbodytoogrossforsuchdelicatemutterings? Presentlyhesaid: \"MayIseewhatyouworkat?\" Thefellowhandedhiswoodenpost。Itwasbynomeanslovely。Themenandbirdswerealmostgrotesqueintheirlabouredresemblancetonature,andboresignsofpatientthought。Thestrangerturnedthethingoveronhisknee。 \"Wheredidyoulearnthiswork?\" \"Itaughtmyself。\" \"Andthesezigzaglinesrepresent——\" \"Amountain。\" Thestrangerlooked。 \"Ithassomemeaning,hasitnot?\" Theboymutteredconfusedly。 \"Onlythings。\" Thequestionerlookeddownathim——thehuge,unwieldyfigure,insizeaman’s,inrightofhischildlikefeaturesandcurlinghairachild’s;andithurthim——itattractedhimandithurthim。Itwassomethingbetweenpityandsympathy。 \"Howlonghaveyouworkedatthis?\" \"Ninemonths。\" Fromhispocketthestrangerdrewhispocket—book,andtooksomethingfromit。Hecouldfastentheposttohishorseinsomeway,andthrowitawayinthesandwhenatasafedistance。 \"Willyoutakethisforyourcarving?\" Theboyglancedatthefive—poundnoteandshookhishead。 \"No;Icannot。\" \"Youthinkitisworthmore?\"askedthestrangerwithalittlesneer。 Hepointedwithhisthumbtoagrave。 \"No;itisforhim。\" \"Andwhoisthere?\"askedthestranger。 \"Myfather。\" Themansilentlyreturnedthenotetohispocket—book,andgavethecarvingtotheboy;and,drawinghishatoverhiseyes,composedhimselftosleep。 Notbeingabletodoso,afterawhileheglancedoverthefellow’sshouldertowatchhimwork。Theboycarvedlettersintotheback。 \"If,\"saidthestranger,withhismelodiousvoice,richwithasweetnessthatnevershoweditselfinthecloudedeyes——forsweetnesswilllingeroninthevoicelongafterithasdiedoutintheeyes——\"ifforsuchapurpose,whywritethatuponit?\" Theboyglancedroundathim,butmadenoanswer。Hehadalmostforgottenhispresence。 \"Yousurelybelieve,\"saidthestranger,\"thatsomeday,soonerorlater,thesegraveswillopen,andthoseBoer—uncleswiththeirwiveswalkabouthereintheredsand,withtheveryfleshlylegswithwhichtheywenttosleep?Thenwhysay,’Hesleepsforever?’Youbelievehewillstandupagain?\" \"Doyou?\"askedtheboy,liftingforaninstanthisheavyeyestothestranger’sface。 Halftakenabackthestrangerlaughed。Itwasasthoughacuriouslittletadpolewhichheheldunderhisglassshouldsuddenlyliftitstailandbegintoquestionhim。 \"I?——no。\"Helaughedhisshortthicklaugh。\"Iamamanwhobelievesnothing,hopesnothing,fearsnothing,feelsnothing。Iambeyondthepaleofhumanity;nocriterionofwhatyoushouldbewholivehereamongyourostrichesandbushes。\" Thenextmomentthestrangerwassurprisedbyasuddenmovementonthepartofthefellow,whichbroughthimclosetothestranger’sfeet。Soonafterheraisedhiscarvingandlaiditacrosstheman’sknee。 \"Yes,Iwilltellyou,\"hemuttered;\"Iwilltellyouallaboutit。\" Heputhisfingeronthegrotesquelittlemannikinatthebottom(ah!thatmanwhobelievednothing,hopednothing,feltnothing;howhelovedhim!),andwitheagerfingerthefellowmovedupward,explainingoverfantasticfiguresandmountains,tothecrowningbirdfromwhosewingdroppedafeather。Attheendhespokewithbrokenbreath——shortwords,likeonewhouttersthingsofmightyimport。 Thestrangerwatchedmorethefacethanthecarving;andtherewasnowandthenashowofwhiteteethbeneaththemoustachesashelistened。 \"Ithink,\"hesaidblandly,whentheboyhaddone,\"thatIpartlyunderstandyou。Itissomethingafterthisfashion,isitnot?\"(Hesmiled。)\"Incertainvalleystherewasahunter。\"(Hetouchedthegrotesquelittlefigureatthebottom。)\"Daybydayhewenttohuntforwild—fowlinthewoods;anditchancedthatoncehestoodontheshoresofalargelake。Whilehestoodwaitingintherushesforthecomingofthebirds,agreatshadowfellonhim,andinthewaterhesawareflection。 Helookeduptothesky;butthethingwasgone。Thenaburningdesirecameoverhimtoseeonceagainthatreflectioninthewater,andalldayhewatchedandwaited;butnightcameandithadnotreturned。Thenhewenthomewithhisemptybag,moodyandsilent。Hiscomradescamequestioningabouthimtoknowthereason,butheansweredthemnothing;hesataloneandbrooded。Thenhisfriendcametohim,andtohimhespoke。 \"’Ihaveseentoday,’hesaid,’thatwhichIneversawbefore——avastwhitebird,withsilverwingsoutstretched,sailingintheeverlastingblue。Andnowitisasthoughagreatfireburntwithinmybreast。Itwasbutasheen,ashimmer,areflectioninthewater;butnowIdesirenothingmoreonearththantoholdher。’ \"Hisfriendlaughed。 \"’Itwasbutabeamplayingonthewater,ortheshadowofyourownhead。 Tomorrowyouwillforgether,’hesaid。 \"Buttomorrow,andtomorrow,andtomorrowthehunterwalkedalone。Hesoughtintheforestandinthewoods,bythelakesandamongtherushes,buthecouldnotfindher。Heshotnomorewildfowl;whatweretheytohim? \"’Whatailshim?’saidhiscomrades。 \"’Heismad,’saidone。 \"’No;butheisworse,’saidanother;’hewouldseethatwhichnoneofushaveseen,andmakehimselfawonder。’ \"’Come,letusforswearhiscompany,’saidall。 \"Sothehunterwalkedalone。 \"Onenight,ashewanderedintheshade,veryheartsoreandweeping,anoldmanstoodbeforehim,granderandtallerthanthesonsofmen。 \"’Whoareyou?’askedthehunter。 \"’IamWisdom,’answeredtheoldman;’butsomemencallmeKnowledge。AllmylifeIhavegrowninthesevalleys;butnomanseesmetillhehassorrowedmuch。Theeyesmustbewashedwithtearsthataretobeholdme; and,accordingasamanhassuffered,Ispeak。’ \"Andthehuntercried: \"’Oh,youwhohavelivedheresolong,tellme,whatisthatgreatwildbirdIhaveseensailingintheblue?Theywouldhavemebelievesheisadream;theshadowofmyownhead。’ \"Theoldmansmiled。 \"’HernameisTruth。Hewhohasonceseenherneverrestsagain。Tilldeathhedesiresher。’ \"Andthehuntercried: \"’Oh,tellmewhereImayfindher。’ \"Buttheoldmansaid: \"’Youhavenotsufferedenough,’andwent。 \"ThenthehuntertookfromhisbreasttheshuttleofImagination,andwoundonitthethreadofhisWishes;andallnighthesatandwoveanet。 \"Inthemorninghespreadthegoldennetupontheground,andintoithethrewafewgrainsofcredulity,whichhisfatherhadlefthim,andwhichhekeptinhisbreast—pocket。Theywerelikewhitepuff—balls,andwhenyoutrodonthemabrowndustflewout。Thenhesatbytoseewhatwouldhappen。Thefirstthatcameintothenetwasasnow—whitebird,withdove’seyes,andhesangabeautifulsong——’Ahuman—God!ahuman—God!ahuman—God!’itsang。Thesecondthatcamewasblackandmystical,withdark,lovelyeyes,thatlookedintothedepthsofyoursoul,andhesangonlythis——’Immortality!’ \"Andthehuntertookthembothinhisarmsforhesaid—— \"’TheyaresurelyofthebeautifulfamilyofTruth。’ \"Thencameanother,greenandgold,whosanginashrillvoice,likeonecryinginthemarketplace,——’RewardafterDeath!RewardafterDeath!’ \"Andhesaid—— \"’Youarenotsofair;butyouarefairtoo,’andhetookit。 \"Andotherscame,brightlycoloured,singingpleasantsongs,tillallthegrainswerefinished。Andthehuntergatheredallhisbirdstogether,andbuiltastrongironcagecalledanewcreed,andputallhisbirdsinit。 \"Thenthepeoplecameaboutdancingandsinging。 \"’Oh,happyhunter!’theycried。’Oh,wonderfulman!Oh,delightfulbirds!Oh,lovelysongs!’ \"Nooneaskedwherethebirdshadcomefrom,norhowtheyhadbeencaught; buttheydancedandsangbeforethem。Andthehuntertoowasglad,forhesaid: \"’SurelyTruthisamongthem。Intimeshewillmoultherfeathers,andI shallseehersnow—whiteform。’ \"Butthetimepassed,andthepeoplesanganddanced;butthehunter’sheartgrewheavy。Hecreptalone,asofold,toweep;theterribledesirehadawakenedagaininhisbreast。Oneday,ashesataloneweeping,itchancedthatWisdommethim。Hetoldtheoldmanwhathehaddone。 \"AndWisdomsmiledsadly。 \"’Manymen,’hesaid,’havespreadthatnetforTruth;buttheyhaveneverfoundher。Onthegrainsofcredulityshewillnotfeed;inthenetofwishesherfeetcannotbeheld;intheairofthesevalleysshewillnotbreathe。ThebirdsyouhavecaughtareofthebroodofLies。Lovelyandbeautiful,butstilllies;Truthknowsthemnot。’ \"Andthehuntercriedoutinbitterness—— \"’AndmustIthensitstill,tobedevouredofthisgreatburning?’ \"Andtheoldmansaid,\"’Listen,andinthatyouhavesufferedmuchandweptmuch,IwilltellyouwhatIknow。HewhosetsouttosearchforTruthmustleavethesevalleysofsuperstitionforever,takingwithhimnotoneshredthathasbelongedtothem。AlonehemustwanderdownintotheLandofAbsoluteNegationandDenial;hemustabidethere;hemustresisttemptation;whenthelightbreakshemustariseandfollowitintothecountryofdrysunshine。Themountainsofsternrealitywillrisebeforehim;hemustclimbthem;beyondthemliesTruth。’ \"’Andhewillholdherfast!hewillholdherinhishands!’thehuntercried。 \"Wisdomshookhishead。 \"’Hewillneverseeher,neverholdher。Thetimeisnotyet。’ \"’Thenthereisnohope?’criedthehunter。 \"’Thereisthis,’saidWisdom:’Somemenhaveclimbedonthosemountains; circleabovecircleofbarerocktheyhavescaled;and,wanderingthere,inthosehighregions,somehavechancedtopickuponthegroundonewhitesilverfeather,droppedfromthewingofTruth。Anditshallcometopass,’saidtheoldman,raisinghimselfpropheticallyandpointingwithhisfingertothesky,’itshallcometopass,thatwhenenoughofthosesilverfeathersshallhavebeengatheredbythehandsofmen,andshallhavebeenwovenintoacord,andthecordintoanet,thatinthatnetTruthmaybecaptured。NothingbutTruthcanholdTruth。’ \"Thehunterarose。’Iwillgo,’hesaid。 \"Butwisdomdetainedhim。 \"’Markyouwell——wholeavesthesevalleysneverreturnstothem。Thoughheshouldweeptearsofbloodsevendaysandnightsupontheconfines,hecanneverputhisfootacrossthem。Left——theyareleftforever。Upontheroadwhichyouwouldtravelthereisnorewardoffered。Whogoes,goesfreely——forthegreatlovethatisinhim。Theworkishisreward。’ \"’Igo’saidthehunter;’butuponthemountains,tellme,whichpathshallItake?’ \"’IamthechildofThe—Accumulated—Knowledge—of—Ages,’saidtheman;’I canwalkonlywheremanymenhavetrodden。Onthesemountainsfewfeethavepassed;eachmanstrikesoutapathforhimself。Hegoesathisownperil:myvoicehehearsnomore。Imayfollowafterhim,butcannotgobeforehim。’ \"ThenKnowledgevanished。 \"Andthehunterturned。Hewenttohiscage,andwithhishandsbrokedownthebars,andthejaggedirontorehisflesh。Itissometimeseasiertobuildthantobreak。 \"Onebyonehetookhisplumedbirdsandletthemfly。Butwhenhecametohisdark—plumedbirdheheldit,andlookedintoitsbeautifuleyes,andthebirduttereditslow,deepcry——’Immortality!’ \"Andhesaidquickly:’Icannotpartwithit。Itisnotheavy;iteatsnofood。Iwillhideitinmybreast;Iwilltakeitwithme。’Andheburieditthereandcovereditoverwithhiscloak。 \"Butthethinghehadhiddengrewheavier,heavier,heavier——tillitlayonhisbreastlikelead。Hecouldnotmovewithit。Hecouldnotleavethosevalleyswithit。Thenagainhetookitoutandlookedatit。 \"’Oh,mybeautiful!myheart’sown!’hecried,’mayInotkeepyou?’ \"Heopenedhishandssadly。 \"’Go!’hesaid。’ItmayhappenthatinTruth’ssongonenoteislikeyours;butIshallneverhearit。’ \"Sadlyheopenedhishand,andthebirdflewfromhimforever。 \"Thenfromtheshuttleofimaginationhetookthethreadofhiswishes,andthrewitontheground;andtheemptyshuttleheputintohisbreast,forthethreadwasmadeinthosevalleys,buttheshuttlecamefromanunknowncountry。Heturnedtogo,butnowthepeoplecameabouthim,howling。 \"’Fool,hound,dementedlunatic!’theycried。’Howdaredyoubreakyourcageandletthebirdsfly?’ \"Thehunterspoke;buttheywouldnothearhim。 \"’Truth!whoisshe?Canyoueather?canyoudrinkher?Whohaseverseenher?Yourbirdswerereal:allcouldhearthemsing!Oh,fool!vilereptile!atheist!’theycried,’youpollutetheair。’ \"’Come,letustakeupstonesandstonehim,’criedsome。 \"’Whataffairisitofours?’saidothers。’Lettheidiotgo,’andwentaway。Buttherestgatheredupstonesandmudandthrewathim。Atlast,whenhewasbruisedandcut,thehuntercreptawayintothewoods。Anditwaseveningabouthim。\" Ateverywordthestrangerspokethefellow’seyesflashedbackonhim—— yes,andyes,andyes!Thestrangersmiled。Itwasalmostworththetroubleofexertingoneself,evenonalazyafternoon,towinthosepassionateflashes,morethirstyanddesiringthanthelove—glancesofawoman。 \"Hewanderedonandon,\"saidthestranger,\"andtheshadegrewdeeper。Hewasonthebordersnowofthelandwhereitisalwaysnight。Thenhesteppedintoit,andtherewasnolightthere。Withhishandshegroped; buteachbranchashetoucheditbrokeoff,andtheearthwascoveredwithcinders。Ateverystephisfootsankin,andafinecloudofimpalpableashesflewupintohisface;anditwasdark。Sohesatdownuponastoneandburiedhisfaceinhishands,towaitintheLandofNegationandDenialtillthelightcame。 \"Anditwasnightinhisheartalso。 \"Thenfromthemarshestohisrightandleftcoldmistsaroseandclosedabouthim。Afine,imperceptiblerainfellinthedark,andgreatdropsgatheredonhishairandclothes。Hisheartbeatslowly,andanumbnesscreptthroughallhislimbs。Then,lookingup,twomerrywisplightscamedancing。Heliftedhisheadtolookatthem。Nearer,nearertheycame。 Sowarm,sobright,theydancedlikestarsoffire。Theystoodbeforehimatlast。Fromthecentreoftheradiatingflameinonelookedoutawoman’sface,laughing,dimpled,withstreamingyellowhair。Inthecentreoftheotherweremerrylaughingripples,likethebubblesonaglassofwine。Theydancedbeforehim。 \"’Whoareyou,’askedthehunter,’whoalonecometomeinmysolitudeanddarkness?’ \"’WearethetwinsSensuality,’theycried。’Ourfather’snameisHuman— Nature,andourmother’snameisExcess。Weareasoldasthehillsandrivers,asoldasthefirstman;butweneverdie,’theylaughed。 \"’Oh,letmewrapmyarmsaboutyou!;criedthefirst;’theyaresoftandwarm。Yourheartisfrozennow,butIwillmakeitbeat。Oh,cometome!’ \"’Iwillpourmyhotlifeintoyou,’saidthesecond;’yourbrainisnumb,andyourlimbsaredeadnow;buttheyshalllivewithafiercefreelife。 Oh,letmepouritin!’ \"’Oh,followus,’theycried,’andlivewithus。Noblerheartsthanyourshavesathereinthisdarknesstowait,andtheyhavecometousandwetothem;andtheyhaveneverleftus,never。Allelseisadelusion,butwearereal,wearereal,wearereal。Truthisashadow;thevalleysofsuperstitionareafarce:theearthisofashes,thetreesallrotten;butwe——feelus——welive!Youcannotdoubtus。Feelushowwarmweare!Oh,cometous!Comewithus!’ \"Nearerandnearerroundhisheadtheyhovered,andthecolddropsmeltedonhisforehead。Thebrightlightshotintohiseyes,dazzlinghim,andthefrozenbloodbegantorun。Andhesaid: \"’Yes,whyshouldIdiehereinthisawfuldarkness?Theyarewarm,theymeltmyfrozenblood!’andhestretchedouthishandstotakethem。 \"Theninamomenttherearosebeforehimtheimageofthethinghehadloved,andhishanddroppedtohisside。 \"’Oh,cometous!’theycried。 \"Butheburiedhisface。 \"’Youdazzlemyeyes,’hecried,’youmakemyheartwarm;butyoucannotgivemewhatIdesire。Iwillwaithere——waittillIdie。Go!’ \"Hecoveredhisfacewithhishandsandwouldnotlisten;andwhenhelookedupagaintheyweretwotwinklingstars,thatvanishedinthedistance。 \"Andthelong,longnightrolledon。 \"Allwholeavethevalleyofsuperstitionpassthroughthatdarkland;butsomegothroughitinafewdays,somelingerthereformonths,someforyears,andsomediethere。\" Theboyhadcreptcloser;hishotbreathalmosttouchedthestranger’shand;amysticwonderfilledhiseyes。 \"Atlastforthehunterafaintlightplayedalongthehorizon,andherosetofollowit;andhereachedthatlightatlast,andsteppedintothebroadsunshine。ThenbeforehimrosethealmightymountainsofDry—factsandRealities。Theclearsunshineplayedonthem,andthetopswerelostintheclouds。Atthefootmanypathsranup。Anexultantcryburstfromthehunter。Hechosethestraightestandbegantoclimb;andtherocksandridgesresoundedwithhissong。Theyhadexaggerated;afterall,itwasnotsohigh,norwastheroadsosteep!Afewdays,afewweeks,afewmonthsatmost,andthenthetop!Notonefeatheronlywouldhepickup; hewouldgatherallthatothermenhadfound——weavethenet——captureTruth— —holdherfast——touchherwithhishands——claspher! \"Helaughedinthemerrysunshine,andsangloud。Victorywasverynear。 Nevertheless,afterawhilethepathgrewsteeper。Heneededallhisbreathforclimbing,andthesingingdiedaway。Ontherightandleftrosehugerocks,devoidoflichenormoss,andinthelava—likeearthchasmsyawned。Hereandtherehesawasheenofwhitebones。Nowtoothepathbegantogrowlessandlessmarked;thenitbecameameretrace,withafootmarkhereandthere;thenitceasedaltogether。Hesangnomore,butstruckforthapathforhimself,untilitreachedamightywallofrock,smoothandwithoutbreak,stretchingasfarastheeyecouldsee。’Iwillrearastairagainstit;and,oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere,’hesaidbravely;andworked。Withhisshuttleofimaginationhedugoutstones;buthalfofthemwouldnotfit,andhalfamonth’sworkwouldrolldownbecausethosebelowwereillchosen。Butthehunterworkedon,sayingalwaystohimself,’Oncethiswallclimbed,Ishallbealmostthere。Thisgreatworkended!’ \"Atlasthecameoutuponthetop,andhelookedabouthim。Farbelowrolledthewhitemistoverthevalleysofsuperstition,andabovehimtoweredthemountains。Theyhadseemedlowbefore;theywereofanimmeasurableheightnow,fromcrowntofoundationsurroundedbywallsofrock,thatrosetierabovetierinmightycircles。Uponthemplayedtheeternalsunshine。Heutteredawildcry。Hebowedhimselfontotheearth,andwhenherosehisfacewaswhite。Inabsolutesilencehewalkedon。Hewasverysilentnow。Inthosehighregionstherarefiedairishardtobreathebythoseborninthevalleys;everybreathhedrewhurthim,andthebloodoozedoutfromthetipsofhisfingers。Beforethenextwallofrockhebegantowork。Theheightofthisseemedinfinite,andhesaidnothing。Thesoundofhistoolrangnightanddayupontheironrocksintowhichhecutsteps。Yearspassedoverhim,yetheworkedon;butthewalltoweredupalwaysabovehimtoheaven。Sometimesheprayedthatalittlemossorlichenmightspringuponthosebarewallstobeacompaniontohim;butitnevercame。\"Thestrangerwatchedtheboy’sface。 \"Andtheyearsrolledon;hecountedthembythestepshehadcut——afewforayear——onlyafew。Hesangnomore;hesaidnomore,’Iwilldothisorthat’——heonlyworked。Andatnight,whenthetwilightsettleddown,therelookedoutathimfromtheholesandcrevicesintherocksstrangewildfaces。 \"’Stopyourwork,youlonelyman,andspeaktous,’theycried。