第16章

类别:其他 作者:Swinburne, Algernon Charles字数:10607更新时间:19/01/07 15:14:13
\"Thereisnoonetohelpher;shemusthelpherself。Shelooks。Thesethingsshehas——asweetvoice,richinsubtileintonations;afair,veryfairface,withapowerofconcentratinginitself,andgivingexpressionto,feelingsthatotherwisemusthavebeendissipatedinwords;ararepowerofenteringintootherlivesunlikeherown,andintuitivelyreadingthemaright。Thesequalitiesshehas。Howshallsheusethem?Apoet,awriter,needsonlythemental;whatusehasheforabeautifulbodythatregistersclearlymentalemotions?Andthepainterwantsaneyeforformandcolour,andthemusiciananearfortimeandtune,andthemeredrudgehasnoneedformentalgifts。 \"Butthereisoneartinwhichallshehaswouldbeused,forwhichtheyareallnecessary——thedelicateexpressivebody,therichvoice,thepowerofmentaltransposition。Theactor,whoabsorbsandthenreflectsfromhimselfotherhumanlives,needsthemall,butneedsnotmuchmore。Thisisherend;buthowtoreachit?Beforeherareendlessdifficulties: seasmustbecrossed,povertymustbeendured,loneliness,want。Shemustbecontenttowaitlongbeforeshecanevengetherfeetuponthepath。Ifshehasmadeblundersinthepast,ifshehasweightedherselfwithaburdenwhichshemustbeartotheend,shemustbutbeartheburdenbravely,andlabouron。Thereisnouseinwailingandrepentancehere: thenextworldistheplaceforthat;thislifeistooshort。Byourerrorsweseedeeperintolife。Theyhelpus。\"Shewaitedforawhile。 \"Ifshedoesallthis——ifshewaitspatiently,ifsheisnevercastdown,neverdespairs,neverforgetsherend,movesstraighttowardit,bendingmenandthingsmostunlikelytoherpurpose——shemustsucceedatlast。Menandthingsareplastic;theyparttotherightandleftwhenonecomesamongthemmovinginastraightlinetooneend。Iknowitbymyownlittleexperience,\"shesaid。\"LongyearsagoIresolvedtobesenttoschool。Itseemedathingutterlyoutofmypower;butIwaited,I watched,Icollectedclothes,Iwrote,tookmyplaceattheschool;whenallwasreadyIborewithmyfullforceontheBoer—woman,andshesentmeatlast。Itwasasmallthing;butlifeismadeupofsmallthings,asabodyisbuiltupofcells。Whathasbeendoneinsmallthingscanbedoneinlarge。Shallbe,\"shesaidsoftly。 Waldolistened。Tohimthewordswerenoconfession,noglimpseintothestrong,proud,restlessheartofthewoman。Theyweregeneralwordswithageneralapplication。Helookedupintothesparklingskywithdulleyes。 \"Yes,\"hesaid;\"butwhenwelieandthink,andthink,weseethatthereisnothingworthdoing。Theuniverseissolarge,andmanissosmall——\" Sheshookherheadquickly。 \"Butwemustnotthinksofar;itismadness,itisadisease。Weknowthatnoman’sworkisgreat,andstandsforever。Mosesisdead,andtheprophetsandthebooksthatourgrandmothersfedonthemouldiseating。 Yourpoetandpainterandactor,——beforetheshoutsthatapplaudthemhavediedtheirnamesgrowstrange,theyaremilestonesthattheworldhaspassed。Menhavesettheirmarkonmankindforever,astheythought;buttimehaswasheditoutasithaswashedoutmountainsandcontinents。\"Sheraisedherselfonherelbow。\"Andwhatifwecouldhelpmankind,andleavethetracesofourworkuponittotheend?Mankindisonlyanephemeralblossomonthetreeoftime;therewereothersbeforeitopened;therewillbeothersafterithasfallen。Wherewasmaninthetimeofthedicynodont,andwhenhoarymonsterswallowedinthemud?Willhebefoundintheaeonsthataretocome?Wearesparks,weareshadows,wearepollen,whichthenextwindwillcarryaway。Wearedyingalready;itisalladream。 \"Iknowthatthought。Whenthefeveroflivingisonus,whenthedesiretobecome,toknow,todo,isdrivingusmad,wecanuseitasananodyne,tostillthefeverandcoolourbeatingpulses。Butitisapoison,notafood。Ifweliveonititwillturnourbloodtoice;wemightaswellbedead。Wemustnot,Waldo;Iwantyourlifetobebeautiful,toendinsomething。YouarenoblerandstrongerthanI,\"shesaid;\"andasmuchbetterasoneofGod’sgreatangelsisbetterthanasinningman。Yourlifemustgoforsomething。\" \"Yes,wewillwork,\"hesaid。 Shemovedclosertohimandlaystill,hisblackcurlstouchinghersmoothlittlehead。 Doss,whohadlainathismaster’sside,climbedoverthebench,andcurledhimselfupinherlap。Shedrewherskirtupoverhim,andthethreesatmotionlessforalongtime。 \"Waldo,\"shesaid,suddenly,\"theyarelaughingatus。\" \"Who?\"heasked,startingup。 \"They——thestars!\"shesaid,softly。\"Doyounotsee?Thereisalittlewhite,mockingfingerpointingdownatusfromeachoneofthem!Wearetalkingoftomorrowandtomorrow,andourheartsaresostrong;wearenotthinkingofsomethingthatcantouchussoftlyinthedarkandmakeusstillforever。TheyarelaughingatusWaldo。\" Bothsatlookingupward。 \"Doyoueverpray?\"heaskedherinalowvoice。 \"No。\" \"Ineverdo;butImightwhenIlookupthere。Iwilltellyou,\"headded,inastilllowervoice,\"whereIcouldpray。Iftherewereawallofrockontheedgeofaworld,andonerockstretchedoutfar,farintospace,andIstoodaloneuponit,alone,withstarsaboveme,andstarsbelowme,——I wouldnotsayanything;butthefeelingwouldbeprayer。\" Therewasanendtotheirconversationafterthat,andDossfellasleeponherknee。Atlastthenight—windgrewverychilly。 \"Ah,\"shesaid,shivering,anddrawingtheskirtabouthershoulders,\"Iamcold。Span—inthehorses,andcallmewhenyouareready。\" Sheslippeddownandwalkedtowardthehouse,Dossstifflyfollowingher,notpleasedatbeingroused。AtthedoorshemetGregory。 \"Ihavebeenlookingforyoueverywhere;mayInotdriveyouhome?\"hesaid。 \"Waldodrivesme,\"shereplied,passingon;anditappearedtoGregorythatshelookedathimintheoldway,withoutseeinghim。Butbeforeshehadreachedthedooranideahadoccurredtoher,forsheturned。 \"Ifyouwishtodrivemeyoumay。\" GregorywenttolookforEm,whomhefoundpouringoutcoffeeinthebackroom。Heputhishandquicklyonhershoulder。 \"YoumustridewithWaldo;Iamgoingtodriveyourcousinhome。\" \"ButIcan’tcomejustnow,Greg;IpromisedTantAnnieMullertolookafterthethingswhileshewenttorestalittle。\" \"Well,youcancomepresently,can’tyou?Ididn’tsayyouweretocomenow。I’msickofthisthing,\"saidGregory,turningsharplyonhisheel。 \"WhymustIsitupthewholenightbecauseyourstepmotherchoosestogetmarried?\" \"Oh,it’sallright,Greg,Ionlymeant——\" Buthedidnothearher,andamanhadcomeuptohavehiscupfilled。 AnhourafterWaldocameintolookforher,andfoundherstillbusyatthetable。 \"Thehorsesareready,\"hesaid;\"butifyouwouldliketohaveonedancemoreIwillwait。\" Sheshookherheadwearily。 \"No;Iamquiteready。Iwanttogo。\" Andsoontheywereonthesandyroadthebuggyhadtravelledanhourbefore。Theirhorses,withheadsclosetogether,noddingsleepilyastheywalkedinthestarlight,youmighthavecountedtheriseandfalloftheirfeetinthesand;andWaldoinhissaddlenoddeddrowsilyalso。OnlyEmwasawake,andwatchedthestarlitroadwithwide—openeyes。Atlastshespoke。 \"Iwonderifallpeoplefeelsoold,soveryold,whentheygettobeseventeen?\" \"Notolderthanbefore,\"saidWaldosleepily,pullingathisbridle。 Presentlyshesaidagain: \"IwishIcouldhavebeenalittlechildalways。Youaregoodthen。Youareneverselfish;youlikeeveryonetohaveeverything;butwhenyouaregrownuptherearesomethingsyouliketohavealltoyourself,youdon’tlikeanyoneelsetohaveanyofthem。\" \"Yes,\"saidWaldosleepily,andshedidnotspeakagain。 Whentheyreachedthefarmhouseallwasdark,forLyndallhadretiredassoonastheygothome。 WaldoliftedEmfromhersaddle,andforamomentsheleanedherheadonhisshoulderandclungtohim。 \"Youareverytired,\"hesaid,ashewalkedwithhertothedoor;\"letmegoinandlightacandleforyou。\" \"No,thankyou;itisallright,\"shesaid。\"Goodnight,Waldo,dear。\" Butwhenshewentinshesatlongaloneinthedark。 Chapter2。VII。WaldoGoesOuttoTasteLife,andEmStaysAtHomeandTastesIt。 Atnineo’clockintheevening,packinghisbundlesforthenextmorning’sstart,Waldolookedup,andwassurprisedtoseeEm’syellowheadpeepinginathisdoor。Itwasmanyamonthsinceshehadbeenthere。Shesaidshehadmadehimsandwichesforhisjourney,andshestayedawhiletohelphimputhisgoodsintothesaddlebags。 \"Youcanleavetheoldthingslyingabout,\"shesaid;\"Iwilllocktheroom,andkeepitwaitingforyoutocomebacksomeday。\" Tocomebacksomeday!Wouldthebirdeverreturntoitscage?Buthethankedher。Whenshewentawayhestoodonthedoorstepholdingthecandletillshehadalmostreachedthehouse。ButEmwasthateveninginnohurrytoenter,and,insteadofgoinginatthebackdoor,walkedwithlaggingfootstepsroundthelowbrickwallthatranbeforethehouse。 Oppositetheopenwindowoftheparlourshestopped。Thelittleroom,keptcarefullyclosedinTantSannie’stime,waswelllightedbyaparaffinlamp;booksandworklaystrewnaboutit,anditworeabright,habitableaspect。BesidethelampatthetableinthecornersatLyndall,theopenlettersandpapersoftheday’spostlyingscatteredbeforeher,whilesheperusedthecolumnsofanewspaper。Atthecentretable,withhisarmsfoldedonanopenpaper,whichtherewasnotlightenoughtoread,satGregory。Hewaslookingather。ThelightfromtheopenwindowfellonEm’slittlefaceunderitswhitekapjeasshelookedin,butnooneglancedthatway。 \"Goandfetchmeaglassofwater!\"Lyndallsaid,atlast。 Gregorywentouttofindit;whenheputitdownathersideshemerelymovedherheadinrecognition,andhewentbacktohisseatandhisoldoccupation。ThenEmmovedslowlyawayfromthewindow,andthroughitcameinspotted,hard—wingedinsects,toplayroundthelamp,till,onebyone,theystucktoitsglass,andfelltothefootdead。 Teno’clockstruck。ThenLyndallrose,gatheredupherpapersandletters,andwishedGregorygoodnight。SometimeafterEmentered;shehadbeensittingallthewhileontheloftladder,andhaddrawnherkapjedownverymuchoverherface。 Gregorywaspiecingtogetherthebitsofanenvelopewhenshecamein。 \"Ithoughtyouwerenevercoming,\"hesaid,turningroundquickly,andthrowingthefragmentsontothefloor。\"YouknowIhavebeenshearingallday,anditisteno’clockalready。\" \"I’msorry。Ididnotthinkyouwouldbegoingsosoon,\"shesaidinalowvoice。 \"Ican’thearwhatyousay。Whatmakesyoumumbleso?Well,goodnight,Em。\" Hestoopeddownhastilytokissher。 \"Iwanttotalktoyou,Gregory。\" \"Well,makehaste,\"hesaidpettishly。\"I’mawfullytired。I’vebeensittingherealltheevening。Whycouldn’tyoucomeandtalkbefore?\" \"Iwillnotkeepyoulong,\"sheansweredverysteadilynow。\"Ithink,Gregory,itwouldbebetterifyouandIwerenevertobemarried。\" \"GoodHeaven!Em,whatdoyoumean?Ithoughtyouweresofondofme? Youalwaysprofessedtobe。Whatonearthhaveyoutakenintoyourheadnow?\" \"Ithinkitwouldbebetter,\"shesaid,foldingherhandsovereachother,verymuchasthoughshewerepraying。 \"Better,Em!Whatdoyoumean?Evenawomancan’ttakeafreakallaboutnothing!Youmusthavesomereasonforit,andI’msureI’vedonenothingtooffendyou。Iwroteonlytodaytomysistertotellhertocomeupnextmonthtoourwedding,andI’vebeenasaffectionateandhappyaspossible。 Come——what’sthematter?\" Heputhisarmhalfroundhershoulder,veryloosely。 \"Ithinkitwouldbebetter,\"sheanswered,slowly。 \"Oh,well,\"hesaid,drawinghimselfup,\"ifyouwon’tenterintoexplanationsyouwon’t;andI’mnotthemantobegandpray——nottoanywoman,andyouknowthat!Ifyoudon’twanttomarrymeIcan’tobligeyouto,ofcourse。\" Shestoodquitestillbeforehim。 \"Youwomenneverdoknowyourownmindsfortwodaystogether;andofcourseyouknowthestateofyourownfeelingsbest;butit’sverystrange。 Haveyoureallymadeupyourmind,Em?\" \"Yes。\" \"Well,I’mverysorry。I’msureI’venotbeeninanythingtoblame。Amancan’talwaysbebillingandcooing;but,asyousay,ifyourfeelingformehaschanged,it’smuchbetteryoushouldn’tmarryme。There’snothingsofoolishastomarrysomeoneyoudon’tlove;andIonlywishforyourhappiness,I’msure。Idaresayyou’llfindsomeonecanmakeyoumuchhappierthanIcould;thefirstpersonweloveisseldomtherightone。 Youareveryyoung;it’squitenaturalyoushouldchange。\" Shesaidnothing。 \"Thingsoftenseemhardatthetime,butProvidencemakesthemturnoutforthebestintheend,\"saidGregory。\"You’llletmekissyou,Em,justforoldfriendship’ssake。\"Hestoopeddown。\"Youmustlookuponmeasadearbrother,asacousinatleast;aslongasIamonthefarmIshallalwaysbegladtohelpyou,Em。\" Soonafterthebrownponywascanteringalongthefootpathtothedaub—and— wattlehouse,andhismasterasherodewhistledJohnSperiwigandtheThornKloofSchottische。 Thesunhadnotyettouchedtheoutstretchedarmsofthepricklypearuponthekopje,andtheearlycocksandhensstillstruttedaboutstifflyafterthenight’sroost,whenWaldostoodbeforethewagon—housesaddlingthegreymare。Everynowandthenheglancedupattheoldfamiliarobjects: theyhadanewaspectthatmorning。Eventhecocks,seeninthelightofparting,hadapeculiarinterest,andhelistenedwithconsciousattentionwhileonecrowedclearandloudasitstoodonthepigstywall。HewishedgoodmorningsoftlytotheKafferwomanwhowascomingupfromthehutstolightthefire。Hewasleavingthemalltothatoldlife,andfromhisheighthelookeddownonthempityingly。Sotheywouldkeeponcrowing,andcomingtolightfires,whenforhimthatoldcolourlessexistencewasbutadream。 Hewentintothehousetosaygood—byetoEm,andthenhewalkedtothedoorofLyndall’sroomtowakeher;butshewasup,andstandinginthedoorway。 \"Soyouareready,\"shesaid。 Waldolookedatherwithsuddenheaviness;theexhilarationdiedoutofhisheart。Hergreydressing—gownhungcloseabouther,andbelowitsedgethelittlebarefeetwererestingonthethreshold。 \"Iwonderwhenweshallmeetagain,Waldo?Whatyouwillbe,andwhatI?\" \"Willyouwritetome?\"heaskedofher。 \"Yes;andifIshouldnot,youcanstillremember,whereveryouare,thatyouarenotalone。\" \"IhaveleftDossforyou,\"hesaid。 \"Willyounotmisshim?\" \"No;Iwantyoutohavehim。Helovesyoubetterthanhelovesme。\" \"Thankyou。\"Theystoodquiet。 \"Good—bye!\"shesaid,puttingherlittlehandinhis,andheturnedaway; butwhenhereachedthedoorshecalledtohim:\"Comeback,Iwanttokissyou。\"Shedrewhisfacedowntohers,andhelditwithbothhands,andkisseditontheforeheadandmouth。\"Good—bye,dear!\" Whenhelookedbackthelittlefigurewithitsbeautifuleyeswasstandinginthedoorwaystill。 Chapter2。VIII。TheKopje。 \"Goodmorning!\" Em,whowasinthestoreroommeasuringtheKaffer’srations,lookedupandsawherformerloverstandingbetwixtherandthesunshine。Forsomedaysafterthateveningonwhichhehadriddenhomewhistlinghehadshunnedher。Shemightwishtoenterintoexplanations,andhe,GregoryRose,wasnotthemanforthatkindofthing。Ifawomanhadoncethrownhimoverboardshemusttaketheconsequences,andstandbythem。When,however,sheshowednoinclinationtoreverttothepast,andshunnedhimmorethanheshunnedher,Gregorysoftened。 \"YoumustletmecallyouEmstill,andbelikeabrothertoyoutillI go,\"hesaid;andEmthankedhimsohumblythathewishedshehadn’t。Itwasn’tsoeasyafterthattothinkhimselfaninjuredman。 Onthatmorninghestoodsometimeinthedoorwayswitchinghiswhip,andmovingratherrestlesslyfromonelegtotheother。 \"IthinkI’lljusttakeawalkuptothecampsandseehowyourbirdsaregettingon。NowWaldo’sgoneyou’venoonetoseeafterthings。Nicemorning,isn’tit?\"Thenheaddedsuddenly,\"I’lljustgoroundtothehouseandgetadrinkofwaterfirst;\"andsomewhatawkwardlywalkedoff。 Hemighthavefoundwaterinthekitchen,butheneverglancedtowardthebuckets。Inthefrontroomamonkeyandtwotumblersstoodonthecentre— table;buthemerelylookedround,peepedintotheparlour,lookedroundagain,andthenwalkedoutatthefrontdoor,andfoundhimselfagainatthestoreroomwithouthavingsatisfiedhisthirst。\"Awfullynicemorningthis,\"hesaid,tryingtoposehimselfinagracefulandindifferentattitudeagainstthedoor。\"Itisn’thotanditisn’tcold。It’sawfullynice。\" \"Yes,\"saidEm。 \"Yourcousin,now,\"saidGregoryinanaimlesssortofway——\"Isupposeshe’sshutupinherroomwritingletters。\" \"No,\"saidEm。 \"Goneforadrive,Iexpect?Nicemorningforadrive。\" \"No。\" \"Gonetoseetheostriches,Isuppose?\" \"No。\"AfteralittlesilenceEmadded,\"Isawhergobythekraalstothekopje。\" Gregorycrossedanduncrossedhislegs。 \"Well,IthinkI’lljustgoandhavealookabout,\"hesaid,\"andseehowthingsaregettingonbeforeIgotothecamps。Good—bye;solong。\" Emleftforawhilethebagsshewasfoldingandwenttothewindow,thesamethroughwhich,yearsbefore,Bonapartehadwatchedtheslouchingfigurecrosstheyard。Gregorywalkedtothepigstyfirst,andcontemplatedthepigsforafewseconds;thenturnedround,andstoodlookingfixedlyatthewallofthefuel—houseasthoughhethoughtitwantedrepairing;thenhestartedoffsuddenlywiththeevidentintentionofgoingtotheostrich—camps;thenpaused,hesitated,andfinallywalkedoffinthedirectionofthekopje。 ThenEmwentbacktothecornerandfoldedmoresacks。 OntheothersideofthekopjeGregorycaughtsightofawhitetailwavingamongthestones,andasuccessionofshort,franticbarkstoldwhereDosswasengagedinhowlingimploringlytoalizardwhohadcreptbetweentwostones,andwhohadnottheslightestintentionofre—sunninghimselfatthatparticularmoment。 Thedog’smistresssathigherup,undertheshelvingrock,herfacebentoveravolumeofplaysuponherknee。AsGregorymountedthestonesshestartedviolentlyandlookedup;thenresumedherbook。 \"IhopeIamnottroublingyou,\"saidGregoryashereachedherside。\"IfIamIwillgoaway。Ijust——\" \"No;youmaystay。\" \"IfearIstartledyou。\" \"Yes;yourstepwasfirmerthanitgenerallyis。Ithoughtitwasthatofsomeoneelse。\" \"Whocoulditbebutme?\"askedGregory,seatinghimselfonastoneatherfeet。 \"Doyousupposeyouaretheonlymanwhowouldfindanythingtoattracthimtothiskopje?\" \"Oh,no,\"saidGregory。 Hewasnotgoingtoarguethatpointwithher,noranyother;butnooldBoerwaslikelytotakethetroubleofclimbingthekopje,andwhoelsewasthere? Shecontinuedthestudyofherbook。 \"MissLyndall,\"hesaidatlast,\"Idon’tknowwhyitisyounevertalktome。\" \"Wehadalongconversationyesterday,\"shesaidwithoutlookingup。 \"Yes;butyouaskmequestionsaboutsheepandoxen。Idon’tcallthattalking。YouusedtotalktoWaldo,now,\"hesaid,inanaggrievedtoneofvoice。\"I’veheardyouwhenIcamein,andthenyou’vejustleftoff。Youtreatedmelikethatfromthefirstday;andyoucouldn’ttellfromjustlookingatmethatIcouldn’ttalkaboutthethingsyoulike。I’msureI knowasmuchaboutsuchthingsasWaldodoes,\"saidGregory,inexceedingbitternessofspirit。 \"Idonotknowwhichthingsyoureferto。IfyouwillenlightenmeIamquitepreparedtospeakofthem,\"shesaid,readingasshespoke。 \"Oh,youneverusedtoaskWaldolikethat,\"saidGregory,inamoresorelyaggrievedtonethanever。\"Youusedjusttobegin。\" \"Well,letmesee,\"shesaid,closingherbookandfoldingherhandsonit。 \"ThereatthefootofthekopjegoesaKaffer;hehasnothingonbutablanket;heisasplendidfellow——sixfeethigh,withamagnificentpairoflegs。Inhisleatherbagheisgoingtofetchhisrations,andIsupposetokickhiswifewithhisbeautifullegswhenhegetshome。Hehasarightto;heboughtherfortwooxen。Thereisaleandoggoingafterhim,towhomIsupposehenevergivesmorethanabonefromwhichhehassuckedthemarrow;buthisdogloveshim,ashiswifedoes。Thereissomethingofthemasterabouthiminspiteofhisblacknessandwool。Seehowhebrandisheshisstickandholdsuphishead!\" \"Oh,butaren’tyoumakingfun?\"saidGregory,lookingdoubtfullyfromhertotheKafferherd,whoroundedthekopje。 \"No;Iamveryserious。HeisthemostinterestingandintelligentthingI canseejustnow,except,perhaps,Doss。Heisprofoundlysuggestive。 Willhisracemeltawayintheheatofacollisionwithahigher?Arethemenofthefuturetoseehisbonesonlyinmuseums——avestigeofonelinkthatspannedbetweenthedogandthewhiteman?Hewakesthoughtsthatrunfaroutintothefutureandbackintothepast。\" Gregorywasnotquitesurehowtotaketheseremarks。BeingaboutaKaffer,theyappearedtobeofthenatureofajoke;but,beingseriouslyspoken,theyappearedearnest;sohehalflaughedandhalfnot,tobeonthesafeside。 \"I’veoftenthoughtsomyself。It’sfunnyweshouldboththinkthesame;I knewweshouldifoncewetalked。Butthereareotherthings——love,now,\" headded。\"Iwonderifwewouldthinkalikeaboutthat。Iwroteanessayonloveonce;themastersaiditwasthebestIeverwrote,andIcanrememberthefirstsentencestill——’Loveissomethingthatyoufeelinyourheart。’\" \"Thatwasatrenchantremark。Can’tyourememberanymore?\" \"No,\"saidGregory,regretfully;\"I’veforgottentherest。Buttellmewhatdoyouthinkaboutlove?\" Alook,halfofabstraction,halfamusement,playedonherlips。 \"Idon’tknowmuchaboutlove,\"shesaid,\"andIdonotliketotalkofthingsIdonotunderstand;butIhaveheardtwoopinions。Somesaythedevilcarriedtheseedfromhellandplanteditontheearthtoplaguemenandmakethemsin;andsomesay,thatwhenalltheplantsinthegardenofEdenwerepulledupbytheroots,onebushthattheangelsplantedwasleftgrowing,anditspreaditsseedoverthewholeearth,anditsnameislove。 Idonotknowwhichisright——perhapsboth。Therearedifferentspeciesthatgounderthesamename。Thereisalovethatbeginsinthehead,andgoesdowntotheheart,andgrowsslowly;butitlaststilldeath,andaskslessthanitgives。Thereisanotherlove,thatblotsoutwisdom,thatissweetwiththesweetnessoflifeandbitterwiththebitternessofdeath,lastingforanhour;butitisworthhavinglivedawholelifeforthathour。Icannottell,perhapstheoldmonkswererightwhentheytriedtorootloveout;perhapsthepoetsarerightwhentheytrytowaterit。Itisablood—redflower,withthecolourofsin;butthereisalwaysthescentofagodaboutit。\" Gregorywouldhavemadearemark;butshesaid,withoutnoticing: \"Thereareasmanykindsoflovesasthereareflowers;everlastingsthatneverwither;speedwellsthatwaitforthewindtofanthemoutoflife; blood—redmountain—liliesthatpourtheirvoluptuoussweetnessoutforoneday,andlieinthedustatnight。Thereisnoflowerhasthecharmofall——thespeedwell’spurity,theeverlasting’sstrength,themountain— lily’swarmth;butwhoknowswhetherthereisnolovethatholdsall—— friendship,passion,worship? \"Suchalove,\"shesaid,inhersweetestvoice,\"willfallonthesurfaceofstrong,cold,selfishlifeasthesunlightfallsonatorpidwinterworld;there,wherethetreesarebare,andthegroundfrozen,tillitringstothesteplikeiron,andthewaterissolid,andtheairissharpasatwo—edgedknifethatcutstheunwary。 \"Butwhenitssunshinesonit,throughitswholedeadcrustathrobbingyearningwakes:thetreesfeelhim,andeveryknotandbudswell,achingtoopentohim。Thebrownseeds,whohavesleptdeepundertheground,feelhim,andhegivesthemstrength,tilltheybreakthroughthefrozenearth,andlifttwotiny,tremblinggreenhandsinlovetohim。Andhetouchesthewater,tilldowntoitsdepthsitfeelshimandmelts,anditflows,andthethings,strangesweetthingsthatwerelockedupinit,itsingsasitruns,forloveofhim。Eachplanttriestobearatleastonefragrantlittleflowerforhim;andtheworldthatwasdeadlives,andtheheartthatwasdeadandself—centredthrobs,withanupward,outwardyearning,andithasbecomethatwhichitseemedimpossibleevertobecome。 There,doesthatsatisfyyou?\"sheasked,lookingdownatGregory。\"Isthathowyoulikemetotalk?\" \"Oh,yes,\"saidGregory,\"thatiswhatIhavealreadythought。Wehavethesamethoughtsabouteverything。Howstrange!\" \"Very,\"saidLyndall,workingwithherlittletoeatastoneinthegroundbeforeher。