Shesmiled,and,afteralast,longglance,gavemebackthephotographandtheminiature,sayingasshedeliveredthelatter:
\"Irejoicetoseethatyouarefaithful,Humphrey,andwearthispictureonyourheart,aswellasinit。\"
\"Thenyoumustbeaveryremarkablewoman,\"saidBickley。
\"NeverbeforedidIhearoneofyoursexrejoicebecauseamanwasfaithfultosomebodyelse。\"
\"HasBickleybeendisappointedinhislove—heart,thatheissoangrytouswomen?\"askedYvainnocentlyofme。Then,withoutwaitingforananswer,sheinquiredofhimwhetherhehadbeensuccessfulinhisanalysisoftheLife—water。
\"HowdoyouknowwhatIwasdoingwiththeLife—water?DidBastintellyou?\"exclaimedBickley。
\"Bastintoldmenothing,exceptthathewasafraidofthedescenttoNyo;thathehatedNyowhenhereachedit,asindeedI
do,andthathethoughtthatmyfather,theLordOro,wasadevilorevilspiritfromsomeUnder—worldwhichhecalledhell。\"
\"Bastinhasanopenheartandanopenmouth,\"saidBickley,\"forwhichIrespecthim。Followhisexampleifyouwill,LadyYva,andtelluswhoandwhatistheLordOro,andwhoandwhatareyou。\"
\"Havewenotdonesoalready?Ifnot,Iwillrepeat。TheLordOroandIaretwowhohavelivedonfromtheoldtimewhentheworldwasdifferent,andyet,Ithink,thesame。Heisamanandnotagod,andIamawoman。Hispowersaregreatbecauseofhisknowledge,whichhehasgatheredfromhisforefathersandinalifeofathousandyearsbeforehewenttosleep。Hecandothingsyoucannotdo。Thus,hecanpassthroughspaceandtakeotherswithhim,andreturnagain。Hecanlearnwhatishappeninginfar—offpartsoftheworld,ashedidwhenhetoldyouofthewarinwhichyourcountryisconcerned。Hehasterriblepowers;
forinstance,hecankill,ashekilledthosesavages。Also,heknowsthesecretsoftheearth,and,ifitpleaseshim,canchangeitsturningsothatearthquakeshappenandseabecomesland,andlandsea,andtheplacesthatwerehotgrowcold,andthosethatwerecoldgrowhot。\"
\"Allofwhichthingshavehappenedmanytimeinthehistoryoftheglobe,\"saidBickley,\"withoutthehelpoftheLordOro。\"
\"Othershadknowledgebeforemyfather,andothersdoubtlesswillhaveknowledgeafterhim。EvenI,Yva,havesomeknowledge,andknowledgeisstrength。\"
\"Yes,\"Iinterposed,\"butsuchpowersasyouattributetoyourfatherarenotgiventoman。\"
\"Youmeantomanasyouknowhim,manlikeBickley,whothinksthathehaslearnedeverythingthatwaseverlearned。Butitisnotso。Hundredsofthousandsofyearsagomenknewmorethanitseemstheydotoday,tentimesmore,astheylivedtentimeslonger,orsoyoutellme。\"
\"Men?\"Isaid。
\"Yes,men,notgodsorspirits,astheuninstructednationssupposedthemtobe。Myfatherisamansubjecttothehopesandterrorsofman。Hedesirespowerwhichisambition,andwhentheworldrefusedhisrule,hedestroyedthatpartofitwhichrebelled,whichisrevenge。Moreover,aboveallthingshedreadsdeath,whichisfear。Thatiswhyhesuspendedlifeinhimselfandmefortwohundredandfiftythousandyears,ashisknowledgegavehimstrengthtodo,becausedeathwasnearandhethoughtthatsleepwasbetterthandeath。\"
\"Whyshouldhedreadtodie,\"askedBickley,\"seeingthatsleepanddeatharethesame?\"
\"BecausehisknowledgetellshimthatSleepandDeatharenotthesame,asyou,inyourfoolishness,believe,forthereBastiniswiserthanyou。BecauseforallhiswisdomheremainsignorantofwhathappenstomanwhentheLightofLifeisblownoutbythebreathofFate。ThatiswhyhefearstodieandwhyhetalkswithBastinthePreacher,whosayshehasthesecretofthefuture。\"
\"Anddoyoufeartodie?\"Iasked。
\"No,Humphrey,\"sheansweredgently。\"BecauseIthinkthatthereisnodeath,and,havingdonenowrong,Idreadnoevil。I
haddreamswhileIwasasleep,OHumphrey,anditseemedtomethat——\"
Heresheceasedandglancedatwheresheknewtheminiaturewashanginguponmybreast。
\"Now,\"shecontinued,afteralittlepause,\"tellmeofyourworld,ofitshistory,ofitslanguages,ofwhathappensthere,forIlongtoknow。\"
Sothenandthere,assistedbyBickley,IbegantheeducationoftheLadyYva。Idonotsupposethattherewaseveramoreaptpupilinthewholeearth。Tobeginwith,shewasbetteracquaintedwitheverysubjectonwhichItouchedthanIwasmyself;allshelackedwasinformationastoitsmodernaspect。
Herknowledgeendedtwohundredandfiftythousandyearsago,atwhichdate,however,itwouldseemthatcivilisationhadalreadytouchedahigherwater—markthanithaseversinceattained。
Thus,thisvanishedpeopleunderstoodastronomy,naturalmagnetism,theforceofgravity,steam,alsoelectricitytosomesubtleuseofwhich,Igathered,thelightingoftheirundergroundcitywastobeattributed。Theyhadmasteredarchitectureandthearts,astheirbuildingsandstatuesshowed;
theycouldflythroughtheairbetterthanwehavelearnedtodowithinthelastfewyears。
More,they,orsomeofthem,hadlearnedtheuseoftheFourthDimension,thatistheirmostinstructedindividuals,couldmovethroughopposingthings,aswellasoverthem,upintothemandacrossthem。Thispowerthesepossessedinatwo—foldform。I
mean,thattheycouldeitherdisintegratetheirbodiesatonespotandcausethemtointegrateagainatanother,ortheycouldprojectwhattheoldEgyptianscalledtheKaorDouble,andmodernTheosophistsnametheAstralShape,toanydistance。
Moreover,thisDouble,orAstralShape,whileitselfinvisible,still,sotospeak,hadtheuseofitssenses。Itcouldsee,itcouldhear,anditcouldremember,and,onreturningtothebody,itcouldavailitselfoftheexperiencethusacquired。
Thus,atleast,saidYva,whileBickleycontemplatedherwithacoldandunbelievingeye。Sheevenwentfurtherandallegedthatincertaininstances,individualsofherextinctracehadbeenabletopassthroughtheetherandtovisitotherworldsinthedepthsofspace。
\"Haveyoueverdonethat?\"askedBickley。
\"OnceortwiceIdreamedthatIdid,\"sherepliedquietly。
\"Wecanalldream,\"heanswered。
Asitwasmylottomakeacquaintancewiththisstrangeanduncannypoweratalaterdate,Iwillsaynomoreofitnow。
Telepathy,shedeclared,wasalsoadevelopedgiftamongtheSonsofWisdom;indeed,theyseemtohaveuseditasweusewirelessmessages。Only,intheircase,thesendingandreceivingstationswereskilledandsusceptiblehumanbeingswhowentondutyforsomanyhoursatatime。Thusintelligencewastransmittedwithaccuracyanddespatch。Thosewhohadthisfacultywere,shesaid,alsoveryaptatreadingthemindsofothersandthereforenoteasytodeceive。
\"IsthathowyouknowthatIhadbeentryingtoanalyseyourLife—water?\"askedBickley。
\"Yes,\"sheanswered,withherunvaryingsmile。\"AtthemomentI
spokethereofyouwerewonderingwhethermyfatherwouldbeangryifheknewthatyouhadtakenthewaterinalittleflask。\"Shestudiedhimforamoment,thenadded:\"Nowyouarewondering,first,whetherIdidnotseeyoutakethewaterfromthefountainandguessthepurpose,and,secondly,whetherperhapsBastindidnottellmewhatyouweredoingwithitwhenwemetinthesepulchre。\"
\"Lookhere,\"saidtheexasperatedBickley,\"Iadmitthattelepathyandthought—readingarepossibletoacertainlimitedextent。Butsupposingthatyoupossessthosepowers,asIthinkinEnglish,andyoudonotknowEnglish,howcanyouinterpretwhatispassinginmymind?\"
\"PerhapsyouhavebeenteachingmeEnglishallthiswhilewithoutknowingit,Bickley。Inanycase,itmatterslittle,seeingthatwhatIreadisthethought,notthelanguagewithwhichitisclothed。Thethoughtcomesfromyourmindtomine——
thatis,ifIwishit,whichisnotoften——andIinterpretitinmyownorothertongues。\"
\"Iamgladtohearitisnotoften,LadyYva,sincethoughtsaregenerallyconsideredprivate。\"
\"Yes,andthereforeIwillreadyoursnomore。WhyshouldI,whentheyaresofullofdisbeliefofallItellyou,andsometimesofotherthingsaboutmyselfwhichIdonotseektoknow?\"
\"Nowonderthat,accordingtothestoryinthepictures,thoseNations,whomyounamedBarbarians,madeanendofyourpeople,LadyYva。\"
\"Youaremistaken,Bickley;theLordOromadeanendoftheNations,thoughagainstmyprayer,\"sheaddedwithasighThenBickleydepartedinarage,anddidnotappearagainforanhour。
\"Heisangry,\"shesaid,lookingafterhim;\"nordoIwonder。
ItishardfortheverycleverlikeBickley,whothinkthattheyhavemasteredallthings,tofindthatafteralltheyarequiteignorant。Iamsorryforhim,andIlikehimverymuch。\"
\"Thenyouwouldbesorryformealso,LadyYva?\"
\"Why?\"sheaskedwithadazzlingsmile,\"whenyourheartisathirstforknowledge,gapingforitlikeafledgling’smouthforfood,and,asitchances,thoughIamnotverywise,Icansatisfysomethingofyoursoul—hunger。\"
\"Notverywise!\"Irepeated。
\"No,Humphrey。IthinkthatBastin,whoinmanywaysissostupid,hasmoretruewisdomthanIhave,becausehecanbelieveandacceptwithoutquestion。Afterall,thewisdomofmypeopleisalloftheuniverseanditswonders。Whatyouthinkmagicisnotmagic;itisonlygatheredknowledgeandthefindingoutofsecrets。Bickleywilltellyouthesame,althoughasyethedoesnotbelievethatthemindofmancanstretchsofar。\"
\"Youmeanthatyourwisdomhasinitnothingofthespirit?\"
\"Yes,Humphrey,thatiswhatImean。Idonotevenknowifthereissuchathingasspirit。OurgodwasFate;Bastin’sgodisaspirit,andIthinkyoursalso。\"
\"Yes。\"
\"Therefore,IwishyouandBastintoteachmeofyourgod,asdoesOro,myfather。Iwant——oh!somuch,Humphrey,tolearnwhetherweliveafterdeath。\"
\"You!\"Iexclaimed。\"Youwho,accordingtothestory,havesleptfortwohundredandfiftythousandyears!You,whohave,unlessImistake,hintedthatduringthatsleepyoumayhavelivedinothershapes!Doyoudoubtwhetherwecanliveafterdeath?\"
\"Yes。Sleepinducedbysecretartsisnotdeath,andduringthatsleeptheIwithinmightwanderandinhabitothershapes,becauseitisforbiddentobeidle。Moreover,whatseemstobedeathmaynotbedeath,onlyanotherformofsleepfromwhichtheIawakesagainupontheworld。Butatlastcomestherealdeath,whentheIisextinguishedtotheworld。ThatmuchIknow,becausemypeoplelearnedit。\"
\"Youmean,youknowthatmenandwomenmayliveagainandagainupontheworld?\"
\"Yes,Humphrey,Ido。Forintheworldthereisonlyacertainstoreoflifewhichinmanyformstravelsonandon,tillthelotofeachIisfulfilled。Thencomestherealdeath,andafterthat——what,oh!——what?\"
\"YoumustaskBastin,\"Isaidhumbly。\"Icannotdaretoteachofsuchmatters。\"
\"No,butyoucananddobelieve,andthathelpsme,Humphrey,whoamintunewithyou。Yes,ithelpsmemuchmorethandoBastinandhisnewreligion,becausesuchiswoman’sway。Now,I
thinkBickleywillsoonreturn,soletustalkofothermatters。
Tellmeofthehistoryofyourpeople,Humphrey,thatmyfathersaysarenowatwar。\"
ChapterXVIII
TheAccidentBickleydidreturn,havingrecoveredhistemper,sinceafterallitwasimpossibleforanyonetoremainangrywiththeLadyYvaforlong,andwespentaveryhappytimetogether。Weinstructedandshewasthehumblepupil。
Howswiftandnimblewasherintelligence!Inthatonemorningshelearnedallouralphabetandhowtowriteourletters。Itappearedthatamongherpeople,atanyrateintheirlaterperiods,theonlyformofwritingthatwasusedwasahighlyconcentratedshorthandwhichsavedlabour。Theyhadnojournals,sincenewswhicharrivedtelepathicallyorbysomeformofwirelesswasproclaimedtothosewhocaredtolisten,andonitallformedtheirownjudgments。Inthesamewaypoemsandevenromanceswererepeated,asinHomer’sdayorinthetimeoftheNorsesagas,bywordofmouth。Noneoftheirsecretknowledgewaswrittendown。LiketheritualofFreemasonryitwasconsideredtoosacred。
Moreover,whenmenlivedforhundredsofyearsthiswasnotsonecessary,especiallyastheirgreatfearwaslestitshouldfallintothehandsoftheoutsidenations,whomtheycalledBarbarians。For,beitremembered,theseSonsofWisdomwerealwaysaverysmallpeoplewhoruledbytheweightoftheirintelligenceandthestrengthoftheiraccumulatedlore。Indeed,theycouldscarcelybecalledapeople;ratherweretheyafewfamilies,allofthemmoreorlessconnectedwiththeoriginalrulingDynastywhichconsidereditselfhalfdivine。Thesefamilieswerewaiteduponbyamultitudeofservantsorslavesdrawnfromthesubjectnations,forthemostpartskilledinoneartoranother,orperhaps,remarkablefortheirpersonalbeauty。
Stilltheyremainedoutsidethepale。
TheSonsofWisdomdidnotintermarrywiththemorteachthemtheirlearning,orevenallowthemtodrinkoftheirLife—water。
Theyruledthemasmenruledogs,treatingthemwithkindness,butnomore,andasmanydogsruntheircourseanddieinthelifetimeofonemaster,sodidmanyoftheseslavesinthatofoneoftheSonsofWisdom。Therefore,theslavescametoregardtheirlordsnotasmen,butgods。Theylivedbutthreescoreyearsandtenliketherestofus,andwenttheirway,they,whosegreat—great—grandfathershadservedthesamemasterandwhosegreat—great—great—grandchildrenwouldstillservehim。WhatshouldwethinkofalordwhoweknewwasalreadyadultinthetimeofWilliamtheConqueror,andwhoremainedstillvigorousandall—powerfulinthatofGeorgeV?One,moreover,whocommandedalmostinfiniteknowledgetowhichweweredeniedthekey?Wemighttremblebeforehimandlookuponhimashalf—
divine,butshouldwenotlongtokillhimandpossesshisknowledgeandtherebyprolongourownexistencetohiswondrousmeasure?
Such,saidYva,wasthecasewiththeirslavesandthepeoplesfromwhencethesesprang。Theygrewmadwithjealoushate,tillatlengthcametheendweknew。
Thuswetalkedonforhourstillthetimecameforustoeat。
AsbeforeYvapartookoffruitandweofsuchmeatsaswehadathand。These,wenoticed,disgustedher,because,assheexplained,theChildrenofWisdom,unlessdriventheretobynecessity,touchednoflesh,butlivedonthefruitsoftheearthandwinealone。OnlytheslavesandtheBarbariansateflesh。IntheseviewsBickleyforonceagreedwithher,thatis,exceptasregardsthewine,forintheory,ifnotinpractice——hewasavegetarian。
\"IwillbringyoumoreoftheLife—water,\"shesaid,\"andthenyouwillgrowtohatethesedeadthings,asIdo。Andnowfarewell。Myfathercallsme。Ihearhimthoughyoudonot。To—
morrowIcannotcome,butthedayafterIwillcomeandbringyoutheLife—water。Nay,accompanymenot,butasIseehewishesit,letTommygowithme。Iwillcareforhim,andheisafriendinallthatlonelyplace。\"
Soshewent,andwithherTommy,rejoicing。
\"Ungratefullittledevil!\"saidBickley。\"Herewe’vefedandpettedhimfrompuppyhood,oratleastyouhave,andyetheskipsoffwiththefirststranger。Ineversawhimbehavelikethattoanywoman,exceptyourpoorwife。\"
\"Iknow,\"Ianswered。\"Icannotunderstandit。Hullo!herecomesBastin。\"
Bastinitwas,dishevelledandlookingmuchtheworseforwear,alsominushisBibleinthenativetongue。
\"Well,howhaveyoubeengettingon?\"saidBickley。
\"Ishouldlikesometea,alsoanythingthereistoeat。\"
Wesuppliedhimwiththesenecessaries,andafterawhilehesaidslowlyandsolemnly:
\"IcannothelpthinkingofachildishstorywhichBickleytoldorinventedonenightatyourhouseathome。Irememberhehadanargumentwithmywife,whichhesaidputhiminmindofit,IamsureIdon’tknowwhy。Itwasaboutamonkeyandaparrotthatwerelefttogetherunderasofaforalongwhile,wheretheyweresoquietthateverybodyforgotthem。Thentheparrotcameoutwithonlyonefeatherleftinitstailandnoneatallonitsbody,saying,’I’vehadnoendofatime!’afterwhichitdroppeddownanddied。Doyouknow,Ifeeljustlikethatparrot,onlyI
don’tmeantodie,andIthinkIgavethemonkeyquiteasgoodashegaveme!\"
\"Whathappened?\"Iasked,intenselyinterested。
\"Oh!theGlitteringLadytookmeintothatpalacehallwhereOrowassittinglikeaspiderinaweb,andleftmethere。Igottoworkatonce。HewasmuchinterestedintheOldTestamentstoriesandsaidtherewerepointsoftruthaboutthem,althoughtheyhadevidentlycomedowntothemodernwriter——hecalledhimamodernwriter——inalegendaryform。Ithoughthisremarksimpertinentandwithdifficultyrefrainedfromsayingso。LeavingthestoryoftheDelugeandallthat,Ispokeofothermatters,tellinghimofeternallifeandHeavenandHell,ofwhichthepoorbenightedmanhadneverheard。Ipointedoutespeciallythatunlessherepented,hislife,byallaccounts,hadbeensowicked,thathewascertainlydestinedtothelatterplace。\"
\"Whatdidhesaytothat?\"Iasked。
\"Doyouknow,Ithinkitfrightenedhim,ifonecouldimagineOrobeingfrightened。AtanyrateheremarkedthatthetruthorfalsityofwhatIsaidwasanurgentmatterforhim,ashecouldnotexpecttolivemorethanafewhundredyearslonger,thoughperhapshemightprolongtheperiodbyanotherspellofsleep。
ThenheaskedmewhyIthoughthimsowicked。Irepliedbecausehehimselfsaidthathehaddrownedmillionsofpeople,whichshowedanevilheartandintentionevenifitwerenotafact。Hethoughtalongwhileandaskedwhatcouldbedoneinthecircumstances。Irepliedthatrepentanceandreparationweretheonlycoursesopentohim。\"
\"Reparation!\"Iexclaimed。
\"Yes,reparationwaswhatIsaid,thoughIthinkImadeamistakethere,asyouwillsee。AsnearlyasIcanremember,heansweredthathewasbeginningtorepent,asfromallhehadlearnedfromus,hegatheredthattheraceswhichhadarisenasaconsequenceofhisaction,wereworsethanthosewhichhehaddestroyed。Asregardsreparation,whathehaddoneoncehecoulddoagain。Hewouldthinkthematteroverseriously,andseeifitwerepossibleandadvisabletoraisethosepartsoftheworldwhichhadbeensunk,andsinkthosewhichhadbeenraised。Ifso,hethoughtthatwouldmakeveryhandsomeamendstothedepartednationsandsethimquiterightwithanysuperiorPower,ifsuchathingexisted。Whatareyoulaughingat,Bickley?Idon’tthinkitalaughingmatter,sincesuchremarksdonotseemtometoindicateanyrealchangeinOro’sheart,whichiswhatIwastryingtoeffect。\"
Bickley,whowasconvulsedwithmerriment,wipedhiseyesandsaid:
\"Youdearolddonkey,don’tyouseewhatyouhavedone,orratherwouldhavedoneiftherewereawordoftruthinallthisridiculousstoryaboutadeluge?Youwouldbeinthewayofmakingyourpreciouspupil,whocertainlyisthemostmasterlyoldliarintheworld,repeathisoffenceandsendEuropetothebottomofthesea。\"
\"Thatdidoccurtome,butitdoesn’tmuchmatterasIamquitecertainthatsuchathingwouldneverbeallowed。Ofcoursetherewasarealdelugeonce,butOrohadnomoretodowithitthanI
had。Don’tyouagree,Arbuthnot?\"
\"Ithinkso,\"Iansweredcautiously,\"butreallyinthisplaceIambeginningtolosecountofwhatisorisnotpossible。Also,ofcourse,theremayhavebeenmanydeluges;indeedthehistoryoftheworldshowsthatthiswasso;itiswritteninitsgeologicalstrata。Whatwastheendofit?\"
\"TheendwasthathetooktheSouthSeaBibleand,afterIhadexplainedalittleaboutourletters,seemedtobeabletoreaditatonce。Isupposehewasacquaintedwiththeartofprintinginhisyouth。Atanyratehesaidthathewouldstudyit,Idon’tknowhow,unlesshecanread,andthatintwodays’timehewouldletmeknowwhathethoughtaboutthematterofmyreligion。Thenhetoldmetogo。IsaidthatIdidnotknowthewayandwasafraidoflosingmyself。Thereuponhewavedhishand,andI
reallycan’tsaywhathappened。\"
\"Didyoulevitateuphere,\"askedBickley,\"likethelatelamentedMr。Homeatthespiritualisticseances?\"
\"No,Ididnotexactlylevitate,butsomethingorsomeoneseemedtogetaholdofme,andIwasjustrushedalonginamosttumultuousfashion。ThenextthingIknewwasthatIwasstandingatthedoorofthatsepulchre,thoughIhavenorecollectionofgoingupinthelift,orwhateveritis。Ibelievethosebeastlycavesarefullofghosts,ordevils,andtheworstofitisthattheyhavekeptmysolar—tope,whichIputonthismorningforgettingthatitwouldbeuselessthere。\"
\"TheLadyYva’sFourthDimensioninaction,\"Isuggested,\"onlyitwouldn’tworkonsolar—topes。\"
\"Idon’tknowwhatyouaretalkingabout,\"saidBastin,\"butifmyhathadtobeleft,whynotmybootsandothergarments?
Pleasestopyournonsenseandpassthetea。ThankgoodnessI
haven’tgottogodowntheretomorrow,asheseemstohavehadenoughofmeforthepresent,soIvoteweallpayavisittotheship。Itwillbeaverypleasantchange。Icouldn’tstandtwodaysrunningwiththatoldfiend,andhisghostsordevilsinthecave。\"
Nextmorningaccordingly,fearingnoharmfromtheOrofenans,wetookthecanoeandrowedtothemainisland。Maramahadevidentlyseenuscoming,forheandanumberofhispeoplemetuswitheverydemonstrationofdelight,andescortedustotheship。Herewefoundthingsjustaswehadleftthem,fortherehadbeennoattemptattheftorothermischief。
WhilewewereinthecabinafitofmoralweaknessseemedtoovercomeBickley,thefirstandImayaddthelastfromwhichI
eversawhimsuffer。
\"Doyouknow,\"hesaid,addressingus,\"Ithinkthatweshoulddowelltotrytogetoutofthisplace。Eliminatingagreatdealofthemarvelouswithwhichweseemtohavecomeintouchhere,itisstillobviousthatwefindourselvesinverypeculiarandunhealthysurroundings。Imeanmentallyunhealthy,indeedIthinkthatifwestayheremuchlongerweshallprobablygooffourheads。Nowthatboatonthedeckremainssoundandseaworthy。Whyshouldnotweprovisionherandtakeourchance?Weknowmoreorlesswhichwaytosteer。\"
BastinandIlookedateachother。Itwashewhospokefirst。
\"Wouldn’titberatherariskyjobinanopenboat?\"heasked。
\"However,thatdoesn’tmattermuchbecauseIdon’ttakeanyaccountofrisks,knowingthatIamofmorevaluethanasparrowandthatthehairsofmyheadareallnumbered。\"
\"Theymightbenumberedunderwateraswellasaboveit,\"
mutteredBickley,\"andIfeelsurethatonyourownshowing,youwouldbeasvaluabledeadasalive。\"
\"WhatIseemtofeel,\"wentonBastin,\"isthatIhaveworktomyhandhere。Also,thelocumtenensatFulcombenodoubtrunstheparishaswellasIcould。IndeedIconsiderhimabettermanfortheplacethanIam。ThatoldOroisatoughproposition,butIdonotdespairofhimyet,andbesideshimthereistheGlitteringLady,amostopen—mindedperson,whomIhavenotyethadanyrealopportunityofapproachinginaspiritualsense。
Thenthereareallthesenativeswhocannotlearnwithoutateacher。SoonthewholeIthinkIwouldratherstaywhereIamuntilProvidencepointsoutsomeotherpath。\"
\"Iamofthesameopinion,ifforsomewhatdifferentreasons,\"
Isaid。\"Idonotsupposethatithasoftenbeenthefortuneofmentocomeintouchwithsuchthingsaswehavefounduponthisisland。Theymaybeillusions,butatleasttheyareveryinterestingillusions。Onemightlivetenlifetimesandfindnothingelseofthesort。ThereforeIshouldliketoseetheendofthedream。\"
Bickleyreflectedalittle,thensaid:
\"OnthewholeIagreewithyou。OnlymybraintottersandIamterriblyafraidofmadness。IcannotbelievewhatIseemtohearandsee,andthatwaymadnesslies。Itisbettertodiethantogomad。\"