第19章

类别:其他 作者:H.Rider Haggard字数:9011更新时间:19/01/07 15:17:55
Onanothernighthebegantotemptme,verysubtly。\"Iseeasparkofgreatnessinyou,Humphrey,\"hesaid,\"anditcomesintomyheartthatyou,too,mightlearntorule。WithYva,thelastofmyblood,itisotherwise。Sheisthechildofmyageandofaraceoutworn;toogentle,toomuchallwomanly。Thesoulthattriumphsmustshinelikesteelinthesun,andcutifneedbe; notmerelybebeauteousandshedperfumelikealilyintheshade。Yetsheisverywiseandfair,\"herehelookedatme,\"perchanceofhermightcomechildrensuchasweretheirforefathers,whoagainwouldwieldthesceptreofthedominionoftheearth。\" Imadenoanswer,wonderingwhathemeantexactlyandthinkingitwisesttobesilent。 \"Youareoftheshort—livedraces,\"hewenton,\"yetverymuchaman,notwithoutintelligence,andbytheartsIhaveIcansostrengthenyourframethatitwillenduretheshocksoftimeforthreesuchlivesasyours,orperchanceformore,andthen——\" Againhepausedandwenton: \"TheDaughterofkingslikesyoualso,perhapsbecauseyouresemble——\"herehefixedmewithhispiercingeyes,\"acertainkingletofbasebloodwhomonceshealsoliked,butwhomitwasmydutytodestroy。Well,Imustthink。Imuststudythisworldofyoursalsoandthereinyoumayhelpme。PerhapsafterwardsI willtellyouhow。Nowsleep。\" Inanothermomenthewasgone,butnotwithstandinghispowerfulcommand,forawhileIcouldnotsleep。IunderstoodthathewasofferingYvatome,butuponwhatterms?Thatwasthequestion。 Withherwastogogreatdominionoverthekingdomsoftheearth。 IcouldnothelprememberingthatalwaysthishasbeenandstillisSatan’sfavouritebait。Tomeitdidnotparticularlyappeal。 Ihadbeenambitiousinmytime——whoisnotthatisworthhissalt?Icouldhavewishedtoexcelinsomething,literatureorart,orwhateveritmightbe,andthustoensurethememoryofmynameintheworld。 Ofcoursethisisamostfutiledesire,seeingthatsoonorlateeverynamemustfadeoutoftheworldlikeanunfixedphotographwhichisexposedtothesun。Evenifitcouldendure,astheolddemigod,ordemidevil,Oro,hadpointedout,veryshortly,bycomparisonwithTime’sunmeasuredvastness,thewholesolarsystemwillalsofade。Soofwhatuseisthisfeebleloveoffameandthisvainattempttoberememberedthatanimatesussostrongly?Moreover,theideaofenjoyingmeretemporalasopposedtointellectualpower,appealedtomenotatall。IamastudentofhistoryandIknowwhathasbeenthelotofkingsandtheevilthat,oftenenough,theyworkintheirlittleday。 AlsoifIneededanyfurtherexample,therewasthatofOrohimself。HehadoutlivedthegreatnessofhisHouse,asaroyalfamilyiscalled,andaftersomegiganticmurder,ifhisownstorywastobebelieved,indulgedinaprolongedsleep。Nowheawoketofindhimselfquitealoneintheworld,saveforadaughterwithwhomhedidnotagreeorsympathise。Inshort,hewasbutakindofanimatedmummyinspiredbyoneideawhichI feltquitesurewouldbedisappointed,namely,torenewhisformergreatness。Tomeheseemedasmiserableafigureasonecouldimagine,broodingandplottinginhisilluminatedcave,attheendofanextendedbutmisspentlife。 AlsoIwonderedwhathe,orratherhisego,hadbeendoingduringallthosetwohundredandfiftythousandyearsofsleep。 PossiblyifYva’stheory,asIunderstoodit,werecorrect,hehadreincarnatedasAttila,orTamerlane,orNapoleon,orevenasChakatheterribleZuluking。Atanyratetherehewasstillintheworld,filledwiththedreadofdeath,butconsumednowaseverbyhisinsatiableandmostuselessfiniteambitions。 Yva,also!Hercasewashis,butyethowdifferent。InallthislongnightofTimeshehadbutripenedintooneofthesweetestandmostgentlewomenthatevertheworldbore。She,too,wasgreatinherway,itappearedinhereverywordandgesture,butwherewastheferocityofherfather?Wherehisdesiretoreachtosplendourbytreadingonablood—stainedroadpavedwithbrokenhumanhearts?Itdidnotexist。Hernaturewasdifferentalthoughherbodycameofalonglineofthesepower—lovingkings。Whythisprofounddifferenceofthespirit?Likeeverythingelseitwasamystery。ThetwowereasfarapartasthePoles。EveryonemusthavehatedOro,fromthebeginning,howevermuchhefearedhim,buteveryonewhocameintouchwithhermusthavelovedYva。 HereImaybreakintomypersonalnarrativetosaythatthis,bytheirownconfession,provedtobetrueoftwosuchvariouspersonsasBastinandBickley。 \"Thetruth,whichIamsureitwouldbewrongtohidefromyou,Arbuthnot,\"saidtheformertomeoneday,\"isthatduringyourlongillnessIfellinlove,Isupposethatistherightword,withtheGlitteringLady。Afterthinkingthematteroveralso,I conceivedthatitwouldbepropertotellhersoifonlytocleartheairandpreventfuturemisunderstandings。AsIremarkedtoheronthatoccasion,Ihadhesitatedlong,asIwasnotcertainhowshewouldfilltheplaceofthewifeoftheincumbentofanEnglishparish。\" \"Mothers’Meetings,andtherest,\"Isuggested。 \"Exactlyso,Arbuthnot。AlsothereweretheviewsoftheBishoptobeconsidered,whomighthaveobjectedtotheintroductionintothedioceseofastrikingpersonwhosorecentlyhadbeenaheathen,andtooneinsuchstrongcontrasttomylatebelovedwife。\" \"Isupposeyoudidn’tconsiderthelateMrs。Bastin’sviewsonthesubjectofre—marriage。Irememberthattheywerestrong,\"I remarkedrathermaliciously。 \"No,Ididnotthinkitnecessary,sincetheScripturalinstructionsonthematterareveryclear,andinanotherworldnodoubtalljealousies,evenSarah’s,willbeobliterated。Uponthatpointmyconsciencewasquiteeasy。SowhenIfoundthat,unlikeherparent,theLadyYvawasmuchinclinedtoaccepttheprinciplesofthefaithinwhichitismyprivilegetoinstructher,Ithoughtitpropertosaytoherthatifultimatelyshemadeuphermindtodoso——ofcoursethiswasasinequanon——I shouldbemuchhonoured,andasaman,notasapriest,itwouldmakememosthappyifshewouldtakemeasahusband。OfcourseI explainedtoherthatIconsidered,underthecircumstances,I couldquitelawfullyperformthemarriageceremonymyselfwithyouandBickleyaswitnesses,evenshouldOrorefusetogiveheraway。AlsoItoldherthatalthoughafterhervariedexperiencesinthepast,lifeatFulcombe,ifwecouldevergetthere,mightbealittlemonotonous,stillitwouldnotbeentirelydevoidofinterest。\" \"YoumeanChristmasdecorationsandthatsortofthing?\" \"Yes,andchoirtreatsandentertainingDeputationsandattendingotherChurchactivities。\" \"Well,andwhatdidshesay,Bastin?\" \"Oh!shewasmostkindandflattering。Indeedthathourwillalwaysremainthepleasantestofmylife。Idon’tknowhowithappened,butwhenitwasoverIfeltquitedelightedthatshehadrefusedme。Indeedonsecondthoughts,IamnotcertainbutthatIshallbemuchhappierinthecapacitiesofabrotherandteacherwhichsheaskedmetofill,thanIshouldhavebeenasherhusband。Totellyouthetruth,Arbuthnot,therearemomentswhenIamnotsurewhetherIentirelyunderstandtheLadyYva。Itwasratherlikeproposingtoone’sguardianangel。\" \"Yes,\"Isaid,\"that’saboutit,oldfellow。’GuardianAngel’ isnotabadnameforher。\" AfterwardsIreceivedtheconfidenceofBickley。 \"Lookhere,Arbuthnot,\"hesaid。\"Iwanttoownuptosomething。IthinkIoughtto,becauseofcertainthingsIhaveobserved,inordertopreventpossiblefuturemisunderstandings。\" \"What’sthat?\"Iaskedinnocently。 \"Onlythis。Asyouknow,Ihavealwaysbeenaconfirmedbacheloronprinciple。Womenintroducetoomanycomplicationsintolife,andalthoughitinvolvessomesacrifice,onthewhole,Ihavethoughtitbesttodowithoutthemandleavethecarryingonoftheworldtoothers。\" \"Well,whatofit?Yourviewsarenotsingular,Bickley。\" \"Onlythis。WhileyouwereillthesweetnessofthatLadyYvaandherwonderfulqualitiesasanurseovercameme。Iwenttopiecesallofasudden。IsawinherarealisationofeveryidealIhadeverentertainedofperfectwomanhood。Sotospeak,myresolvesofalifetimemeltedlikewaxinthesun。 Notwithstandingherqueerhistoryandthemarvelswithwhichsheismixedup,Iwishedtomarryher。Nodoubtherphysicallovelinesswasatthebottomofit,but,howeverthatmaybe,thereitwas。\" \"Sheisbeautiful,\"Icommented;\"thoughIdaresayolderthanshelooks。\" \"ThatisapointonwhichImadenoinquiries,andIshouldadviseyou,whenyourturncomes,asnodoubtitwill,tofollowmyexample。Youknow,Arbuthnot,\"hemused,\"howeverlovelyawomanmaybe,itwouldputoneoffifsuddenlysheannouncedthatshewas——letussay——ahundredandfiftyyearsold。\" \"Yes,\"Iadmitted,\"fornobodywantstomarrythecontemporaryofhisgreat—grandmother。However,shegaveherageastwenty— sevenyearsandthreemoons。\" \"Anddoubtlessforoncedidnottellthetruth。But,asshedoesnotlookmorethantwenty—five,Ithinkthatwemayallagreetoletitstandatthat,namely,twenty—seven,plusanindefiniteperiodofsleep。Atanyrate,sheisasweetandmostgraciouswoman,apparentlyinthebloomofyouth,and,tocutitshort,Ifellinlovewithher。\" \"LikeBastin,\"Isaid。 \"Bastin!\"exclaimedBickleyindignantly。\"Youdon’tmeantosaythatclericaloafpresumed——well,well,afterall,Isupposethatheisaman,soonemustn’tbehardonhim。Butwhocouldhavethoughtthathewouldrunsocunning,evenwhenheknewmysentimentstowardsthelady?Ihopeshetoldhimhermind。\" \"Thepointis,whatdidshetellyou,Bickley?\" \"Me?Oh,shewasperfectlycharming!Itreallywasapleasuretoberefusedbyher,sheputsonesothoroughlyatone’sease。\" (Here,rememberingBastinandhisstory,Iturnedawaymyfacetohideasmile。)\"Shesaid——whatdidshesayexactly?Suchalotthatitisdifficulttoremember。Oh!thatshewasnotthinkingofmarriage。Also,thatshehadnotyetrecoveredfromsomerecentloveaffairwhichleftherheartsore,sincethetimeofhersleepdidnotcount。Also,thatherfatherwouldneverconsent,andthatthemereideaofsuchathingwouldexcitehisanimosityagainstallofus。\" \"Isthatall?\"Iasked。 \"Notquite。SheaddedthatshefeltwonderfullyflatteredandextremelyhonouredbywhatIhadbeensogoodastosaytoher。 Shehoped,however,thatIshouldneverrepeatitorevenalludetothematteragain,asherdearestwishwastobeabletolookuponmeashermostintimatefriendtowhomshecouldalwayscomeforsympathyandcounsel。\" \"Whathappenedthen?\" \"Nothing,ofcourse,exceptthatIpromisedeverythingthatshewished,andmeantosticktoit,too。Naturally,Iwasverysoreandupset,butIamgettingoverit,havingalwayspractisedself—control。\" \"Iamsorryforyou,oldfellow。\" \"Areyou?\"heaskedsuspiciously。\"Thenperhapsyouhavetriedyourluck,too?\" \"No,Bickley。\" Hisfacefellalittleatthisdenial,andheanswered: \"Well,itwouldhavebeenscarcelydecentifyouhad,seeinghowlatelyyouweremarried。Butthen,sowasthatartfulBastin。 Perhapsyouwillgetoverit——recentmarriage,Imean——ashehas。\"Hehesitatedawhile,thenwenton:\"Ofcourseyouwill,oldfellow;Iknowit,and,whatismore,Iseemtoknowthatwhenyourturncomesyouwillgetadifferentanswer。Ifso,itwillkeepherinthefamilyasitwere——andgoodlucktoyou。 Only——\" \"Onlywhat?\"Iaskedanxiously。 \"Tobehonest,Arbuthnot,Idon’tthinkthattherewillberealgoodluckforanyoneofusoverthiswoman——notintheordinarysense,Imean。Thewholebusinessistoostrangeandsuperhuman。 Isshequiteawoman,andcouldshereallymarryamanasothersdo?\" \"Itiscuriousthatyoushouldtalklikethat,\"Isaiduneasily。\"Ithoughtthatyouhadmadeupyourmindthatthewholebusinesswaseitherillusionortrickery——Imean,theoddsideofit。\" \"Ifitisillusion,Arbuthnot,thenamancannotmarryanillusion。Andifitistrickery,thenhewillcertainlybetricked。But,supposingthatIamwrong,whatthen?\" \"Youmean,supposingthingsareastheyseemtobe?\" \"Yes。Inthatevent,Arbuthnot,Iamsurethatsomethingwilloccurtopreventyourbeingunitedtoawomanwholivedthousandsofyearsago。Iamsorrytosayit,butFatewillintervene。 Remember,itisthegodofherpeoplethatIsupposesheworships,and,Imayadd,towhichthewholeworldbows。\" Athiswordsakindofchillfelluponme。Ithinkhesawordivinedit,forafterafewremarksuponsomeindifferentmatter,heturnedandwentaway。 ShortlyafterthisYvacametositwithme。ShestudiedmeforawhileandIstudiedher。Ihadreasontodoso,forIobservedthatoflateherdresshadbecomemuchmoremodern,andonthepresentoccasionthisstruckmeforcibly。Idonotknowexactlyinwhatthechange,orchanges,consisted,becauseIamnotskilledinsuchmattersandcanonlyjudgeofawoman’sgarmentsbytheirgeneraleffect。Atanyrate,thegorgeoussweepingrobesweregone,andthoughherattirestilllookedforeignandsomewhatoriental,withatouchofbarbaricsplendouraboutit—— itwassimplerthanithadbeenandshowedmoreofherfigure,whichwasdelicate,yetgracious。 \"Youhavechangedyourrobes,Lady,\"Isaid。\"Yes,Humphrey。 Bastingavemepicturesofthoseyourwomenwear。\"(OnfurtherinvestigationIfoundthatthisreferredtoanoldcopyoftheQueennewspaper,which,somehoworother,hadbeenbroughtwiththebooksfromtheship。)\"Ihavetriedtocopythemalittle,\" sheaddeddoubtfully。 \"Howdoyoudoit?Wheredoyougetthematerial?\"Iasked。 \"Oh!\"sheansweredwithanairywaveofherhand,\"Imakeit—— itisthere。\" \"Idon’tunderstand,\"Isaid,butsheonlysmiledradiantly,offeringnofurtherexplanation。Then,beforeIcouldpursuethesubject,sheaskedmesuddenly: \"WhathasBickleybeensayingtoyouaboutme?\"Ifenced,answering:\"Idon’tknow。BastinandBickleytalkoflittleelse。 YouseemtohavebeenagreatdealwiththemwhileIwasill。\" \"Yes,agreatdeal。Theyarethenearesttoyouwhoweresosick。Isitnotso?\" \"Idon’tknow,\"Iansweredagain。\"Inmyillnessitseemedtomethatyouwerethenearest。\" \"AboutBastin’swordsIcanguess,\"shewenton。\"ButIaskagain——whathasBickleybeensayingtoyouaboutme?Ofthefirstpart,letitbe;tellmetherest。\" Iintendedtoevadeherquestion,butshefixedthoseviolet,compellingeyesuponmeandIwasobligedtoanswer。 \"IbelieveyouknowaswellasIdo,\"Isaid;\"butifyouwillhaveit,itwasthatyouarenotasotherhumanwomenare,andthathewhowouldtreatyouassuch,mustsuffer;thatwasthegistofit。\" \"SomemightbecontenttosufferforsuchasI,\"sheansweredwithquietsweetness。\"EvenBastinandBickleymaybecontenttosufferintheirownlittleways。\" \"YouknowthatisnotwhatImeant,\"Iinterruptedangrily,forIfeltthatshewasthrowingreflectionsonme。 \"No;youmeantthatyouagreedwithBickleythatIamnotquiteawoman,asyouknowwomen。\" Iwassilent,forherwordsweretrue。 Thensheblazedoutintooneofherflashesofsplendour,likesomethingthattakesfireonaninstant;likethefaintanddistantstarwhichflamesintosuddenglorybeforethewatcher’stelescope。 \"ItistruethatIamnotasyourwomenare——yourpoor,palewomen,theshadowsofanhourwithnightbehindthemandbefore。 BecauseIamhumbleandpatient,doyouthereforesupposethatI amnotgreat?Manfromthelittlecountryacrossthesea,Ilivedwhentheworldwasyoung,andgathereduptheancientwisdomofagreaterracethanyours,andwhentheworldisoldIthinkthatI stillshalllive,thoughnotinthisshapeorhere,withallthatwisdom’sessenceburninginmybreast,andwithallbeautyinmyeyes。Bickleydoesnotbelievealthoughheworships。Youonlyhalfbelieveanddonotworship,becausememoryholdsyouback,andImyselfdonotunderstand。Ionlyknowthoughknowingsomuch,stillIseekroadstolearning,eventhehumbleroadcalledBastin,thatyetmayleadmyfeettothegateofanimmortalcity。\" \"NordoIunderstandhowallthiscanbe,Yva,\"Isaidfeebly,forshedazzledandoverwhelmedmewithherblazeofpower。 \"No,youdonotunderstand。Howcanyou,whenevenIcannot? ThusfortwohundredandfiftythousandyearsIslept,andtheywentbyasalightningflash。OnemomentmyfathergavemethedraughtandIlaidmedown,thenextIawokewithyoubendingoverme,orsoitseemed。YetwherewasIthroughallthosecenturieswhenformetimehadceased?Tellme,Humphrey,didyoudreamatallwhileyouwereill?IaskbecausedowninthatlonelycavernwhereIsleepastrangedreamcametomeonenight。 Itwasofajourneywhich,asIthought,youandIseemedtomaketogether,pastsunsanduniversestoaverydistantearth。Itmeantnothing,Humphrey。IfyouandIchancedtohavedreamedthesamething,itwasonlybecausemydreamtravelledtoyou。Itismostcommon,orusedtobe。Humphrey,Bickleyisquiteright,I amnotaltogetherasyourwomenare,andIcanbringnohappinesstoanyman,orattheleast,toonewhocannotwait。Therefore,perhapsyouwoulddowelltothinklessofme,asIhavecounselledBastinandBickley。\" Thenagainshegazedatmewithherwonderful,greateyes,and,shakingherglitteringheadalittle,smiledandwent。 Butoh!thatsmiledrewmyheartafterher。 ChapterXX OroandArbuthnotTravelbyNightAstimewenton,Orobegantovisitmemoreandmorefrequently,tillatlastscarcelyanightwentbythathedidnotappearmysteriouslyinmysleeping—place。TheoddthingwasthatneitherBickleynorBastinseemedtobeawareofthesenocturnalcalls。Indeed,whenImentionedthemononeortwooccasions,theystaredatmeandsaiditwasstrangethatheshouldhavecomeandgoneastheysawnothingofhim。 Onmyspeakingagainofthematter,Bickleyatonceturnedtheconversation,fromwhichIgatheredthathebelievedmetobesufferingfromdelusionsconsequentonmyillness,orperhapstohavetakentodreaming。Thiswasnotwonderfulsince,asI learnedafterwards,Bickley,afterhewassurethatIwasasleep,madeapracticeoftyingathreadacrossmydoorwayandofascertainingatthedawnthatitremainedunbroken。ButOrowasnottobecaughtinthatway。Isuppose,asitwasimpossibleforhimtopassthroughthelatticeworkoftheopensideofthehouse,thatheundidthethreadandfasteneditagainwhenheleft;atleast,thatwasBastin’sexplanation,or,rather,oneofthem。Anotherwasthathecrawledbeneathit,butthisIcouldnotbelieve。IamquitecertainthatduringallhisprolongedexistenceOronevercrawled。 Atanyrate,hecame,orseemedtocome,andpumpedme——Icanusenootherword——mostenergeticallyastoexistingconditionsintheworld,especiallythoseofthecivilisedcountries,theirmethodsofgovernment,theirsocialstate,thephysicalcharacteristicsofthevariousraces,theirreligions,theexactdegreesofcivilisationthattheyhaddeveloped,theirattainmentsinart,scienceandliterature,theirmartialcapacities,theirlaws,andIknownotwhatbesides。 ItoldhimallIcould,butdidnotintheleastseemtosatisfyhisperennialthirstforinformation。 \"Ishouldprefertojudgeformyself,\"hesaidatlast。\"Whyareyousoanxioustolearnaboutallthesenations,Oro?\"I asked,exhausted。 \"BecausetheknowledgeIgathermayaffectmyplansforthefuture,\"hereplieddarkly。 \"Iamtold,Oro,thatyourpeopleacquiredthepoweroftransportingthemselvesfromplacetoplace。\" \"ItistruethatthelordsoftheSonsofWisdomhadsuchpower,andthatIhaveitstill,OHumphrey。\" \"Thenwhydoyounotgotolookwithyourowneyes?\"I suggested。 \"BecauseIshouldneedaguide;onewhocouldexplainmuchinashorttime,\"hesaid,contemplatingmewithhisburningglanceuntilIbegantofeeluncomfortable。 TochangethesubjectIaskedhimwhetherhehadanyfurtherinformationaboutthewar,whichhehadtoldmewasraginginEurope。 Heanswered:\"Notmuch;onlythatitwasgoingonwithvaryingsuccess,andwouldcontinuetodosountilthenationsinvolvedthereinwereexhausted,\"orsohebelieved。ThewardidnotseemgreatlytointerestOro。Itwas,heremarked,butasmallaffaircomparedtothosewhichhehadknownintheolddays。Thenhedeparted,andIwenttosleep。 Nextnightheappearedagain,and,aftertalkingalittleondifferentsubjects,remarkedquietlythathehadbeenthinkingoverwhatIhadsaidastohisvisitingthemodernworld,andintendedtoactuponthesuggestion。 \"When?\"Iasked。 \"Now,\"hesaid。\"IamgoingtovisitthisEnglandofyoursandthetownyoucallLondon,andyouwillaccompanyme。\" \"Itisnotpossible!\"Iexclaimed。\"Wehavenoship。\" \"Wecantravelwithoutaship,\"saidOro。 Igrewalarmed,andsuggestedthatBastinorBickleywouldbeamuchbettercompanionthanIshouldinmyresentweakstate。 \"Anempty—headedman,oronewhoalwaysdoubtsandargues,wouldbeuseless,\"herepliedsharply。\"Youshallcomeandyouonly。\" Iexpostulated;Itriedtogetupandfly——which,indeed,Ididdo,inanothersense。