第21章

类别:其他 作者:H.Rider Haggard字数:9691更新时间:19/01/07 15:17:55
India,too,reallymovedhim。HeadmiredtheancientbuildingsatDelhiandAgra,especiallytheTajMahal。This,hedeclared,wasreminiscentofsomeofthepalacesthatstoodatPani,thecapitalcityoftheSonsofWisdom,beforeitwasdestroyedbytheBarbarians。 TheEnglishadministrationofthecountryalsoattractedawordofpraisefromhim,Ithinkbecauseofitsratherautocraticcharacter。Indeedhewentsofarastodeclarethat,withcertainmodifications,itshouldbecontinuedinthefuture,andeventointimatethathewouldbearthematterinmind。DemocraticformsofgovernmenthadnocharmsforOro。 Amongstotherplaces,westoppedatBenaresandwatchedthefuneralritesinprogressuponthebanksoftheholyGanges。Thebearersofthedeadbroughtthebodyofawomanwrappedinaredshroudthatglitteredwithtinselornaments。Comingforwardatarunandchantingastheyran,theyplacedituponthestonesforalittlewhile,thenlifteditupagainandcarrieditdownthestepstotheedgeoftheriver。Heretheytookwaterandpoureditoverthecorpse,thusperformingtheriteofthebaptismofdeath。Thisdone,theyplaceditsfeetinthewaterandleftitlookingverysmallandlonely。Presentlyappearedatall,white—drapedwomanwhotookherstandbythebodyandwailed。Itwasthedeadone’smother。Againthebearersapproachedandlaidthecorpseupontheflamingpyre。 \"Theseritesareancient,\"saidOro。\"WhenIruledasKingoftheWorldtheywerepractisedinthisveryplace。ItispleasanttometofindsomethingthathassurvivedthechangefulnessofTime。Letitcontinuetilltheend。\" HereIwillcease。TheseexperiencesthatIhaverecordedarebutsamples,foralsowevisitedRussiaandothercountries。 Perhaps,too,theywerenotexperiencesatall,butonlydreamsconsequentonmystateofhealth。Icannotsayforcertain,thoughmuchofwhatIseemedtoseefittedinverywellindeedwithwhatIlearnedinafterdays,andcertainlyatthetimetheyappearedasrealasthoughOroandIhadstoodtogetheruponthosevariousshores。 ChapterXXI Love’sEternalAltarNowofallthesehappeningsIsaidverylittletoBastinandBickley。Theformerwouldnothaveunderstoodthem,andthelatterattributedwhatIdidtellhimtomentaldelusionsfollowingonmyillness。ToYvaIdidspeakaboutthem,however,imploringhertoexplaintheiroriginandtotellmewhetherornottheywerebutvisionsofthenight。 Shelistenedtome,asIthoughtnotwithoutanxiety,fromwhichIgatheredthatshetoofearedformymind。Itwasnotso,however,forshesaid: \"Iamglad,OHumphrey,thatyourjourneyingsaredone,sincesuchthingsarenotwithoutdanger。Hewhotravelsfaroutofthebodymaychancetoreturntherenomore。\" \"Butweretheyjourneyings,ordreams?\"Iasked。 Sheevadedadirectanswer。 \"Icannotsay。Myfatherhasgreatpowers。Idonotknowthemall。Itispossiblethattheywereneitherjourneyingsnordreams。Mayhapheusedyouasthesorcerersintheolddaysusedthemagicglass,andafterhehadputhisspelluponyou,readinyourmindthatwhichpasseselsewhere。\" Iunderstoodhertorefertowhatwecallclairvoyance,whenthepersonentrancedrevealssecretordistantthingstotheentrancer。Thisisamoreorlessestablishedphenomenonandmuchlessmarvelousthantheactualtransportationofthespiritualselfthroughspace。OnlyIneverknewofaninstanceinwhichtheseer,onawaking,rememberedthethingsthathehadseen,asinmycase。There,however,thematterrested,orrests,forIcouldextractnothingmorefromYva,whoappearedtometohaveherordersonthepoint。 NordidOroevertalkofwhatIhadseemedtoseeinhiscompany,althoughhecontinuedfromtimetotimetovisitmeatnight。Butnowourconversationwasofothermatters。AsBastinhaddiscovered,bysomeextraordinarygifthehadsoonlearnedhowtoreadtheEnglishlanguage,althoughheneverspokeasinglewordinthattongue。Amongourreferencebooksthatwebroughtfromtheyacht,wasathinpapereditionoftheEncyclopediaBritannica,whichheborrowedwhenhediscoveredthatitcontainedcompressedinformationaboutthevariouscountriesoftheworld,alsoconcerningalmosteveryothermatter。Mybeliefisthatwithinamonthorsothatmarvelousoldmannotonlyreadthisstupendousworkfromendtoend,butthatherememberedeverythingofinterestwhichitcontained。Atleast,hewouldappearandshowthefullestacquaintancewithcertainsubjectsorplaces,seekingfurtherlightfrommeconcerningthem,whichveryoftenIwasquiteunabletogivehim。 Anaccident,asitchanced,whereofIneednotsetoutthedetails,causedmetodiscoverthathisremarkableknowledgewaslimited。Thus,atoneperiod,heknewlittleaboutanymoderntopicwhichbeganwithaletterlaterinthealphabetthan,letussay,C。AfewdaysafterwardshewasacquaintedwiththoseuptoF,orG;andsoontillhereachedZ,whenheappearedtometoknoweverything,andreturnedthebook。Now,indeed,hewasamonumentoflearning,veryancientandverynew,andwithsomeEncyclopedia—garneredfactsordeductionsofwhathadhappenedbetween。 Moreover,hetooktoastronomicalresearch,formorethanoncewesawhimstandingontherockatnightstudyingtheheavens。Ononeoftheseoccasions,whenhehadthetwometalplates,ofwhichIhavespoken,inhishands,Iventuredtoapproachandaskwhathedid。Herepliedthathewascheckinghiscalculationsthathefoundtobequitecorrect,anexactperiodoftwohundredandfiftythousandyearshavinggonebysincehelaidhimselfdowntosleep。Then,byaidoftheplates,hepointedouttomecertainalterationsthathadhappenedduringthatperiodinthepositionsofsomeofthestars。 Forinstance,heshowedmeonewhich,byhelpofmyglasses,I recognisedasSirius,andremarkedthattwohundredandfiftythousandyearsagoitwasfurtherawayandmuchsmaller。Nowitwaspreciselyintheplaceandofthesizewhichhehadpredicted,andhepointedtoitonhispropheticmap。Againheindicatedastarthatthenight—glasstoldmewasCapella,which,Isuppose,isoneofthemostbrilliantstarsinthesky,andshowedmethatonthemaphehadmadetwohundredandfiftythousandyearsago,itdidnotexist,asthenitwastoofarnorthtoappearthereon。Still,heobserved,thepassageofthisvastperiodoftimehadproducedbutlittleeffectuponthefaceoftheheavens。Tothehumaneyethemajorityofthestarshadnotmovedsoveryfar。 \"Andyettheytravelfast,OHumphrey,\"hesaid。\"Considerthenhowgreatistheirjourneybetweenthetimetheygatherandthatdaywhen,worn—out,oncemoretheymelttovaporousgas。Youthinkmelong—livedwhocomparedtothemexistbutatinyfractionofasecond,nearlyallofwhichIhavebeendoomedtopassinsleep。And,Humphrey,Idesiretolive——I,whohavegreatplansandwouldshaketheworld。Butmydaydrawsin;afewbriefcenturiesandIshallbegone,and——whither,whither?\" \"Ifyoulivedaslongasthosestars,theendwouldbethesame,Oro。\" \"Yes,butthelifeofthestarsisverylong,millionsofmillionsofyears;also,afterdeath,theyreform,asotherstars。ButshallIreformasanotherOro?Withallmywisdom,I donotknow。ItisknowntoFateonly——Fate—themasterofworldsandmenandthegodstheyworship——Fate,whomitmaypleasetospillmygatheredknowledge,tobelostinthesandsofTime。\" \"Itseemsthatyouaregreat,\"Isaid,\"andhavelivedlongandlearnedmuch。Yettheendofitisthatyourlotisneitherworsenorbetterthanthatofuscreaturesofanhour。\" \"Itisso,Humphrey。Presentlyyouwilldie,andwithinafewcenturiesIshalldiealsoandbeasyouare。Youbelievethatyouwillliveagaineternally。Itmaybesobecauseyoudobelieve,sinceFateallowsFaithtoshapethefuture,ifonlyforalittlewhile。ButinmeWisdomhasdestroyedFaithandthereforeImustdie。EvenifIsleepagainfortensofthousandsofyears,whatwillithelpme,seeingthatsleepisunconsciousnessandthatIshallonlywakeagaintodie,sincesleepdoesnotrestoretousouryouth?\" Heceased,andwalkedupanddowntherockwithatroubledmien。Thenhestoodinfrontofmeandsaidinatriumphantvoice: \"Atleast,whileIliveIwillrule,andthenletcomewhatmaycome。Iknowthatyoudonotbelieve,andthefirstvictoryofthisnewdayofmineshallbetomakeyoubelieve。Ihavegreatpowersandyoushallseethematwork,andafterwards,ifthingsgoright,rulewithmeforalittlewhile,perhaps,asthefirstofmysubjects。Hearkennow;inonesmallmattermycalculations,madesolongago,havegonewrong。Theyshowedmethatatthistimeadayofearthquakes,suchasthosethatagainandagainhaverockedandsplittheworld,wouldrecur。Butnowitseemsthatthereisanerror,atinyerrorofelevenhundredyears,whichmustgobybeforethoseearthquakescome。\" \"Areyousure,\"Isuggestedhumbly,\"thatthereisnotalsoanerrorinthosestar—mapsyouhold?\" \"Iamsure,Humphrey。Someday,whoknows?Youmayreturntoyourworldofmodernmenwho,Igather,haveknowledgeofthegreatscienceofastronomy。TakenowthesemapswithwhichIhavedone,andsubmitthemtothemostlearnedofthosemen,andletthemtellyouwhetherIwasrightorwronginwhatIwroteuponthismetaltwohundredandfiftythousandyearsago。Whateverelseisfalse,atleastthestarsintheirmotionscanneverdie。\" Thenhehandedmethemapsandwasgone。Ihavethemtoday,andifeverthisbookispublished,theywillappearwithit,thatthosewhoarequalifiedmayjudgeofthemandofthetruthorotherwiseofOro’swords。 FromthatnightforwardforquitealongtimeIsawOronomore。Norindeeddidanyofus,sinceforsomereasonofhisownheforbadeustovisittheundergroundcityofNyo。Oddlyenough,however,hecommandedYvatobringdownthespaniel,Tommy,tobewithhimfromtimetotime。WhenIaskedherwhy,shesaiditwasbecausehewaslonelyanddesiredthedog’scompanionship。Itseemedtousverystrangethatthissuper—man,whohadthewisdomoftenSolomonsgatheredinonewithinhisbreast,shouldyetdesirethecompanyofalittledog。Whatthenwastheworthoflearningandlonglife,or,indeed,ofanything? Well,Solomonhimselfaskedthequestionagessince,andcouldgivenoanswersavethatallisvanity。 InotedaboutthistimethatYvabegantogrowverysadandtroubled;indeed,lookingathersuddenlyontwoorthreeoccasions,Isawthatherbeautifuleyeswereaswimwithtears。 Also,Inotedthatalwaysasshegrewsaddershebecame,inasense,morehuman。Inthebeginningshewas,asitwere,faraway。Onecouldneverforgetthatshewasthechildofsomealienracewhoseeyeshadlookedupontheworldwhen,bycomparison,humanitywasyoung;attimes,indeed,shemighthavebeenthedenizenofanotherplanet,strayedtoearth。Althoughsheneverflauntedit,onefeltthathersimplestwordhidsecretwisdom; thattoherbookswereopeninwhichwecouldnotread。Moreover,asIhavesaid,occasionallypowerflamedoutofher,powerthatwasbeyondourkenandunderstanding。 Yetwithallthistherewasnothingelfishabouther,nothinguncanny。Shewasalwayskind,and,aswecouldfeel,innatelygoodandgentle—hearted,justawomanmadehalf—divinebygiftsandexperiencethatotherslack。Shedidnot,evenmakeuseofherwondrousbeautytomaddenmen,asshemightwellhavedonehadshebeensominded。ItistruethatbothBastinandBickleyfellinlovewithher,butthatwasonlybecauseallwithwhomshehadtodomustloveher,andthen,whenshetoldthemthatitmightnotbe,itwasinsuchafashionthatnosorenesswasleftbehind。Theywentonlovingher,thatwasall,butasmenlovetheirsistersortheirdaughters;asweconceivethattheymayloveinthatlandwherethereisnomarryingorgivinginmarriage。 Butnow,inhersadness,shedrewevernearertous,andespeciallytomyself,moreintunewithourageandthought。Intruth,saveforherroyalandglitteringlovelinessinwhichtherewassomequalitywhichproclaimedherofanotherblood,andforthatreserveofhiddenpowerwhichattimeswouldlookoutofhereyesorbreakthroughherwords,shemightinmostwayshavebeensomesingularlygiftedandbeautifulmodernwoman。 ThetimehascomewhenImustspeakofmyrelationswithYvaandoftheirclimax。Asmayhavebeenguessed,fromthefirstI begantoloveher。Whiletheweekswentonthatlovegrewandgrew,untilitutterlypossessedme,althoughforacertainreasonconnectedwithonedead,atfirstIfoughtagainstit。Yetitdidnotdevelopquiteinthefashionthatmighthavebeenexpected。Therewasnoblazingupofpassion’sfire;ratherwasthereanever—increasingglowoftheholiestaffection,tillatlastitbecamealampbywhichImustguidemyfeetthroughlifeanddeath。Thisloveofmineseemednotofearthbutfromthestars。AsyetIhadsaidnothingtoherofitbecauseinsomewayIfeltthatshedidnotwishmetodoso,feltalsothatshewaswellawareofallthatpassedwithinmyheart,anddesired,asitwere,togiveittimetoripenthere。Thenonedaytherecameachange,andthoughnoglanceortouchofYva’stoldmeso,IknewthatthebarsweretakendownandthatImightspeak。 Itwasanightoffullmoon。AllthatafternoonshehadbeentalkingtoBastinapart,Isupposeaboutreligion,forIsawthathehadsomebooksinhishandfromwhichhewasexpoundingsomethingtoherinhisslow,earnestway。Thenshecameandsatwithuswhilewetookoureveningmeal。IrememberthatmineconsistedofsomeoftheLife—waterwhichshehadbroughtwithherandfruit,for,asIthinkIhavesaid,Ihadacquiredherdisliketomeat,alsothatsheatesomeplantains,throwingtheskinsforTommytofetchandlaughingathisplay。Whenitwasover,BastinandBickleywentawaytogether,whetherbychanceordesignIdonotknow,andshesaidtomesuddenly: \"Humphrey,youhaveoftenaskedmeaboutthecityPani,ofwhichalittleportionoftheruinsremainsuponthisisland,therestbeingburiedbeneaththewaters。IfyouwishIwillshowyouwhereourroyalpalacewasbeforethebarbariansdestroyeditwiththeirairships。Themoonisverybright,andbyitwecansee。\" Inodded,for,knowingwhatshemeant,somehowIcouldnotanswerher,andwebegantheascentofthehill。Sheexplainedtometheplanofthepalacewhenwereachedtheruins,showingmewhereherownapartmentshadbeen,andtherest。Itwasverystrangetohearherquietlytellingofbuildingswhichhadstoodandofthingsthathadhappenedovertwohundredandfiftythousandyearsbefore,muchasanymodernladymightdoofahousethathadbeendestroyedamonthagobyanearthquakeoraZeppelinbomb,whileshedescribedthedetailsofadisasterwhichnowfrightenedhernomore。IthinkitwasthenthatforthefirsttimeIreallybegantobelievethatinfactYvahadlivedallthoseaeonssinceandbeenasshestillappeared。 Wepassedfromthepalacetotheruinsofthetemple,throughwhat,asshesaid,hadbeenapleasure—garden,pointingoutwhereacertainavenueofrarepalmshadgrown,downwhichonceitwasherhabittowalkinthecooloftheday。Or,rather,thereweretwoterracedtemples,onededicatedtoFatelikethatintheundergroundcityofNyo,andtheothertoLove。OfthetempletoFateshetoldmeherfatherhadbeentheHighPriest,andofthetempletoLoveshewastheHighPriestess。 ThenitwasthatIunderstoodwhyshehadbroughtmehere。 Sheledthewaytoamarbleblockcoveredwithworn—outcarvingsandalmostburiedinthedebris。This,shesaid,wasthealtarofofferings。Iaskedherwhatofferings,andsherepliedwithasmile: \"Onlywine,tosignifythespiritoflife,andflowerstosymboliseitsfragrance,\"andshelaidherfingeronacup—likedepression,stillapparentinthemarble,intowhichthewinewaspoured。 Indeed,IgatheredthattherewasnothingcoarseorbacchanalianaboutthisworshipofaprototypeofAphrodite;onthecontrary,thatitwasmoreorlessspiritualandethereal。Wesatdownonthealtarstone。Iwonderedalittlethatsheshouldhavedoneso,butshereadmythought,andanswered: \"Sometimeswechangeourfaiths,Humphrey,orperhapstheygrow。Also,haveInottoldyouthatsacrificeswereofferedonthisaltar?\"andshesighedandsmiled。 Idonotknowwhichwasthesweeter,thesmileorthesigh。 Welookedatthewaterglimmeringinthecraterbeneathusontheedgeofwhichwesat。Welookedatheavenaboveinwhichthegreatmoonsailedroyally。Thenwelookedintoeachother’seyes。 \"Iloveyou,\"Isaid。 \"Iknowit,\"sheansweredgently。\"Youhavelovedmefromthefirst,haveyounot?EvenwhenIlayasleepinthecoffinyoubegantoloveme,butuntilyoudreamedacertaindreamyouwouldnotadmitit。\" \"Yva,whatwasthemeaningofthatdream?\" \"Icannotsay,Humphrey。ButItellyouthis。Asyouwilllearnintime,onespiritmaybeclothedindifferentgarmentsoftheflesh。\" Ididnotunderstandher,but,insomestrangeway,herwordsbroughttomymindthosethatNataliespokeatthelast,andI answered: \"Yva,whenmywifelaydyingshebademeseekherelsewhere,forcertainlyIshouldfindher。Doubtlessshemeantbeyondtheshoresofdeath——orperhapsshealsodreamed。\" Shebentherhead,lookingatmeverystrangely。 \"Yourwife,too,mayhavehadthegiftofdreams,Humphrey。AsyoudreamandIdream,somayhapshedreamed。Ofdreams,then,letussaynomore,sinceIthinkthattheyhaveservedtheirpurpose,andallthreeofusunderstand。\" ThenIstretchedoutmyarms,andnextinstantmyheadlayuponherperfumedbreast。Shelifteditandkissedmeonthelips,saying: \"WiththiskissagainIgivemyselftoyou。Butoh!Humphrey,donotasktoomuchofthegodofmypeople,Fate,\"andshelookedmeintheeyesandsighed。 \"Whatdoyoumean?\"Iasked,trembling。 \"Many,manythings。Amongthem,thathappinessisnotformortals,andrememberthatthoughmylifebeganlongago,Iammortalasyouare,andthatineternitytimemakesnodifference。\" \"Andifso,Yva,whatthen?Dowemeetbuttopart?\" \"Whosaidit?NotI。Humphrey,Itellyouthis。Norearth,norheaven,norhellhaveanybarsthroughwhichlovecannotburstitswaytowardsreunionandcompleteness。Onlytheremustbelove,manifestedinmanyshapesandatmanytimes,buteverstrivingtoitsend,whichisnotoftheflesh。Aye,lovethathaslostitself,lovescorned,lovedefeated,lovethatseemsfalse,lovebetrayed,lovegoneastray,lovewanderingthroughtheworlds,loveasleepandlivinginitssleep,loveawakeandyetsleeping;alllovethathasinitthegermoflife。Itmattersnotwhatformlovetakes。IfitbetrueItellyouthatitwillwinitsway,andinthemanythatithasseemedtoworship,stillfindtheone,thoughperchancenothere。 Atherwordsanumbfeargrippedmyheart。 \"Nothere?Thenwhere?\"Isaid。 \"Askyourdeadwife,Humphrey。Askthedumbstars。AsktheGodyouworship,forIcannotanswer,saveinoneword——Somewhere! Man,benotafraid。DoyouthinkthatsuchasyouandIcanbelostintheachingabysmsofspace?Iknowbutlittle,yetItellyouthatweareitsrulers。Itellyouthatwe,too,aregods,ifonlywecanaspireandbelieve。Forthedoubtingandtimidthereisnaught。Forthosewhoseewiththeeyesofthesoulandstretchouttheirhandstograspthereisall。EvenBastinwilltellyouthis。\" \"But,\"Isaid,\"lifeisshort。Thoseworldsarefaraway,andyouarenear。\" Shebecamewonderful,mysterious。 \"NearIamfar,\"shesaid;\"andfarIamnear,ifonlythisloveofyoursisstrongenoughtofollowandtoclasp。And,Humphrey,itneedsstrength,forhereIamafraidthatitwillbearlittleofsuchfruitasmendesiretopluck。\" Againterrortookholdofme,andIlookedather,forIdidnotknowwhattosayorask。 \"Listen,\"shewenton。\"Alreadymyfatherhasofferedmetoyouinmarriage,hashenot,butatapricewhichyoudonotunderstand?Believeme,itisonethatyoushouldneverpay,sincetheruleoftheworldcanbetoodearlyboughtbytheslaughterofhalftheworld。Andifyouwouldpayit,Icannot。\" \"Butthisismadness!\"Iexclaimed。\"Yourfatherhasnopowersoverourearth。\" \"IwouldthatIcouldthinkso,Humphrey。Itellyouthathehaspowersandthatitishispurposetousethemashehasdonebefore。You,too,hewoulduse,andme。\" \"And,ifso,Yva,wearelordsofourselves。Letustakeeachotherwhilewemay。Bastinisapriest。\" \"Lordsofourselves!Why,foroughtIknow,atthisverymomentOrowatchesusinhisthoughtandlaughs。Onlyindeath,Humphrey,shallwepassbeyondhisreachandbecomelordsofourselves。\" \"Itismonstrous!\"Icried。\"Thereistheboat,letusflyaway。\" \"Whatboatcanbearusoutofstretchofthearmoftheoldgodofmypeople,Fate,whereofOroisthehighpriest?Nay,herewemustwaitourdoom。\" \"Doom,\"Isaid——\"doom?Whatthenisabouttohappen?\" \"Aterriblething,asIthink,Humphrey。Or,rather,itwillnothappen。\" \"Whynot,ifitmust?\" \"Beloved,\"shewhispered,\"Bastinhasexpoundedtomeanewfaithwhereofthemaster—wordisSacrifice。Theterriblethingwillnothappenbecauseofsacrifice!Askmenomore。\" Shemusedawhile,seatedthereinthemoonlightupontheancientaltarofsacrifice,theveilsheworefallingaboutherfaceandmakinghermysterious。Thenshethrewitback,showingherlovelyeyesandglitteringhair,andlaughed。 \"Wehavestillanearthlyhour,\"shesaid;\"thereforeletusforgetthefar,deadpastandtheeternitiestocomeandbejoyfulinthathour。NowthrowyourarmsaboutmeandIwilltellyoustrangestoriesoflostdays,andyoushalllookintomyeyesandlearnwisdom,andyoushallkissmylipsandtasteofbliss—— you,whowereandareandshallbe——you,thebelovedofYvafromthebeginningtotheendofTime。\" ChapterXXII TheCommandIthinkthatbothBastinandBickley,byinstinctasitwere,knewwhathadpassedbetweenYvaandmyselfandthatshehadpromisedherselftome。Theyshowedthisbythewayinwhichtheyavoidedanymentionofhername。AlsotheybegantotalkoftheirownplansforthefutureasmattersinwhichIhadnopart。ThusIheardthemdiscussingthepossibilityofescapefromtheislandwhereofsuddenlytheyseemedtohavegrownweary,andwhetherbyanymeanstwomen(two,notthree)couldmanagetosailandsteerthelifeboatthatremaineduponthewreck。Inshort,asinallsuchcases,thewomanhadcomebetween;alsothepressureofacommonlosscausedthemtoforgettheirdifferencesandtodrawclosertogether。Iwhohadsucceededwheretheybothhadfailed,was,theyseemedtothink,outoftheirlives,somuchthatourancientintimacyhadended。